Friday, Jun 22 2012
Was looking at ways to improve my downwards sliding mood. gave a search on yoga and saw that philly has a bik yoga. got to make it happen during the weekend, along with the meditation as they are co incidently on the same street. :) .,,, cheers nature has a funny way of aligning things.
Friday, June 22, 2012
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
Jun 20 2012,, dreaming of biriyani
Wednesday, Jun 20 2012
Was dreaming of the awesome biriyani that my Gujju neighbor gave me yesterday. Was wondering how do I pay them back, so packed the 4 laddus from the Venkateshwara temple and gave it the Dad of the house when he was entering.
It was touching, but at the same time, afraid to make a connection as I will be moving away soon and did not want any kind of heart ache when moving away. thats the most painful part.
Was dreaming of the awesome biriyani that my Gujju neighbor gave me yesterday. Was wondering how do I pay them back, so packed the 4 laddus from the Venkateshwara temple and gave it the Dad of the house when he was entering.
It was touching, but at the same time, afraid to make a connection as I will be moving away soon and did not want any kind of heart ache when moving away. thats the most painful part.
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Jun 19 2012,,, ill but surprising turn of events
Tueday, Jun 19 2012
woke up around 5 am,, again sick in the stomach. made it to work aroun 8 20. then ,, skipped eating, just had a banana and milk. did not take anything for lunch
skipped lunch. just had water.. was feeling hungry,, but was resisting the temptation to eat and cooling my stomach.
then got back home and was surprised to hear a knock on the door... turns up my neighbors wife, she got me a box of chicken biriyani.... wow.
at first thought of having it latter, then tried tasting it and then could not hold back, had the whole thing. yummmm.
watched the group d matches of euro on the internet.
10:30pm got on to the online secession about the new application that is going to replace the one we have been working on the past 12 years..... which means we are getting kicked out of the market. Hi time to change with the changing world.
even signing up for this was a turn around as it was full by the time I applied for the secession a few days ago... so was surprised when I got the invite.
woke up around 5 am,, again sick in the stomach. made it to work aroun 8 20. then ,, skipped eating, just had a banana and milk. did not take anything for lunch
skipped lunch. just had water.. was feeling hungry,, but was resisting the temptation to eat and cooling my stomach.
then got back home and was surprised to hear a knock on the door... turns up my neighbors wife, she got me a box of chicken biriyani.... wow.
at first thought of having it latter, then tried tasting it and then could not hold back, had the whole thing. yummmm.
watched the group d matches of euro on the internet.
10:30pm got on to the online secession about the new application that is going to replace the one we have been working on the past 12 years..... which means we are getting kicked out of the market. Hi time to change with the changing world.
even signing up for this was a turn around as it was full by the time I applied for the secession a few days ago... so was surprised when I got the invite.
Jun, 18, Got to move it up a notch
Tuesday, Jun 18 2012
Not feeling well, having some kind of health issue with the stomach.
woke up early around 5 and not able to sleep.
The toxic from the stomach getting into my blood and can feel my bodies immune cells combating the toxins.
Not feeling well, having some kind of health issue with the stomach.
woke up early around 5 and not able to sleep.
The toxic from the stomach getting into my blood and can feel my bodies immune cells combating the toxins.
Monday, June 18, 2012
Jun 17 , Afraid
Monday, Jun 17 2012
Past 3 days were kind of depressing.
ended up cooking mutton curry, then cleaning up the house a bit and doing laundry and a bit of shopping. watched the euro cup games. yet was not able to shake off the feeling.
Was running thru my mind trying to figure out why and what.
Did not feel like going out dancing, or going out and meeting anyone. Running all the possible scenarios. Was analyzing my emotion, and realised that after my last opening up of my heart about 2 years ago.. I have become a person who is afraid to fall in love, afraid of going thru the emotional pain that I did not want to go thru again, afraid to pair up and be taken for granted, emotionally insulted, betrayed with lies and decit. Blamed for things and incidences by a person who was so selfcentered and had no emotional sense of feeling that I too am person and have my own like, dis-likes, things I am scared off and have lots of insecurities. And the last thing I want was some one stomp over me.
Thou it was one of the saving graces that she is out of my life, but yet it feels hurtful and painful when memories of how badly I was treated comes back and then follows a hundred thousand questions on why would someone behave so selfishly, arrogantly, ignorantly and betray my trust and even after knowing the extend to which I went for her,, she conveniently , as was her selfish disposition , choose not to even glance in that direction..... I owe myself better respect and treatment.
Glad in a way that it ended, should have ended much earlier and could have spared me much more emotional hurt.
Quote on facebook.
In life you'll realize that there is a
purpose for every person you meet.
Some are there to test you, some
will use you, some will teach you, and
some will bring out the best in you.
Past 3 days were kind of depressing.
ended up cooking mutton curry, then cleaning up the house a bit and doing laundry and a bit of shopping. watched the euro cup games. yet was not able to shake off the feeling.
Was running thru my mind trying to figure out why and what.
Did not feel like going out dancing, or going out and meeting anyone. Running all the possible scenarios. Was analyzing my emotion, and realised that after my last opening up of my heart about 2 years ago.. I have become a person who is afraid to fall in love, afraid of going thru the emotional pain that I did not want to go thru again, afraid to pair up and be taken for granted, emotionally insulted, betrayed with lies and decit. Blamed for things and incidences by a person who was so selfcentered and had no emotional sense of feeling that I too am person and have my own like, dis-likes, things I am scared off and have lots of insecurities. And the last thing I want was some one stomp over me.
Thou it was one of the saving graces that she is out of my life, but yet it feels hurtful and painful when memories of how badly I was treated comes back and then follows a hundred thousand questions on why would someone behave so selfishly, arrogantly, ignorantly and betray my trust and even after knowing the extend to which I went for her,, she conveniently , as was her selfish disposition , choose not to even glance in that direction..... I owe myself better respect and treatment.
Glad in a way that it ended, should have ended much earlier and could have spared me much more emotional hurt.
Quote on facebook.
In life you'll realize that there is a
purpose for every person you meet.
Some are there to test you, some
will use you, some will teach you, and
some will bring out the best in you.
Thursday, June 14, 2012
Jun 14 2012, drag day
Thursday, Jun 14, 2012
having a hard time getting out of bed,,, sweet dreams are so hard to pull away from and face the not so sweet reality of day to day life.
hmmmm guess nothing exciting happening is good and peaceful in a way.
having a hard time getting out of bed,,, sweet dreams are so hard to pull away from and face the not so sweet reality of day to day life.
hmmmm guess nothing exciting happening is good and peaceful in a way.
Wednesday, June 13, 2012
Jun 13 2012, shop floor visit - tango
Wednesday Jun 13 2012
got to the shop floor visit in the morning, then for some chipotle lunch and evening was off to tango. met sha there asked me if I was going to salsa tomorrow. ok so thats a date for tomorrow.
got to the shop floor visit in the morning, then for some chipotle lunch and evening was off to tango. met sha there asked me if I was going to salsa tomorrow. ok so thats a date for tomorrow.
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