Saturday, Nov 19 2011
I was great connecting with Vid on facebook and seeing her mail. Wow, who would think that facebook would allow me to connect with one the gals I used to have a crush on when in high school.
She has as expected, has a very mature and intelligent personalty. Something I admired about her. mother of two kids now, who surprisingly look like her.
Connecting with her brought back memories of teen life, the ups, the downs, the struggle of trying to make it, the falls that led to lowering of my self esteem. The memories of family conditions, dad moving away on transfer and me trying to be the one in the family in his absence. Getting screwed in maths cause of lack of direction and the new found freedom and many times mis using the freedom. Guilt of which still haunts me and wish I had done things different.
Well as someone said yesterday, its experience gained when things don't happen the way you wanted it to happen.
Now the daunting decision, should I make the trip to NJ? its almost 2 pm... got lost in the long exchange of mails to vid.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Friday, November 18, 2011
Nov 18 2011 fri ,, the temptation
Friday, Nov 18 2011
Beautiful sunny day, welcome. So good to feel the sun after the gloomy few days of clouds and early darkness,,, dark by about 4:45.
the temptation of going into facebook, every time I get on the computer. Avoided it consciously so far, difficult as it is to go check on whats happening in the world of facebook friends. most of them I hardly know. But the sharing of interesting subject matters and videos makes it very interesting and tempting to get back into.
I remember reading somewhere, that traditions are followed to get people together and share. That is why most of the traditions focus on sharing with the family and friends. There by creating bonds and strengthening existing bonds and making relationship stronger.
Facebook is one tool that seems to broaden the spectrum of sharing and there by creating bonds that would never have.
So why is it so addictive, one reason been that most people who are addicted to it (like me) are looking for some kind of belonging, some kind of constant bond (which all human beings need ). In times different or when relocating from ones native land was not popular, there was the bond and sense of belonging to the family, relatives, the neighborhood, village.
But with the development of transportation, making travel and movement of people around the world easier and faster, relocating to foreign lands have become easier. And as human need for bonding with fellow humans is a requirement as is food. The quest for bonding, to overcome the feelings of loneliness, takes us to the universe of internet and Facebook. Where its feels easier to share thoughts and get into discussions with people who one would not in real life. And it feels easier to open a part of your life to strangers whos name we would not know had it not been for Facebook.
12 to 2 cust expt mgmt... nice conversation.
its about 3:20 need to get out and chill.. cold with the sun out.. maybe out for another hour...need to make the most of it.
Beautiful sunny day, welcome. So good to feel the sun after the gloomy few days of clouds and early darkness,,, dark by about 4:45.
the temptation of going into facebook, every time I get on the computer. Avoided it consciously so far, difficult as it is to go check on whats happening in the world of facebook friends. most of them I hardly know. But the sharing of interesting subject matters and videos makes it very interesting and tempting to get back into.
I remember reading somewhere, that traditions are followed to get people together and share. That is why most of the traditions focus on sharing with the family and friends. There by creating bonds and strengthening existing bonds and making relationship stronger.
Facebook is one tool that seems to broaden the spectrum of sharing and there by creating bonds that would never have.
So why is it so addictive, one reason been that most people who are addicted to it (like me) are looking for some kind of belonging, some kind of constant bond (which all human beings need ). In times different or when relocating from ones native land was not popular, there was the bond and sense of belonging to the family, relatives, the neighborhood, village.
But with the development of transportation, making travel and movement of people around the world easier and faster, relocating to foreign lands have become easier. And as human need for bonding with fellow humans is a requirement as is food. The quest for bonding, to overcome the feelings of loneliness, takes us to the universe of internet and Facebook. Where its feels easier to share thoughts and get into discussions with people who one would not in real life. And it feels easier to open a part of your life to strangers whos name we would not know had it not been for Facebook.
12 to 2 cust expt mgmt... nice conversation.
its about 3:20 need to get out and chill.. cold with the sun out.. maybe out for another hour...need to make the most of it.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Nov 17 2011, Staying away from Facebook.
Thursday, Nov 17 2011
Trying to stay away from Facebook. wasting a lot of time I could have productively put to use in improving my knowledge and life.
Retrospect:
Will people who are predominantly selfish be able to understand the other person,,,,, nope, not in my experience.
Any signs of selfishness, RUN,
Because every family seems to have one, who is mamas kid or dadads kid... and many in the western world are from nuclear families, who don't even know their first cousins, unlike in more conservative countries where there is a lot of bonding between family memebers. I have on my facebook, the kids of my cousin sister, cousin brother and cousin sisters grand kids... This kind of family bonding usually instills more team behavior, and there are also very selfish people in my family, and their behavior and NON-attachment towards the family stands out.
So one of the criteria if one is in search of a loyal life partner for long term stability and happiness would be to look for this feature in a potential partner.
The closer they are and talk about the other people in their family, the more they are groomed as team players. They are usually caring and are inclined to listen to what the other is saying and not act all angry and screwed up and attack you for even having a different opinion and make you look like the biggest villain in world history.
got call from anl wanting to know the address of a Doc, I had left the phone in the wash room and did not hear any,, just heard a mild ringing towards the end. had 3 missed calls.
called him back.... latter he realized that he was calling me up from the address I gave him... hehehe.. new building and new address of doc so was not turning up on his Gps.
2:25 pm ahhhh so tempting to get back into facebook. its really an addiction.
well will see who will triumph and how long I can stay away from it.
If I can stay away from it for more than 24hrs it would be an achievement.
10 more hours to go for the day to end and maybe hitting the bed early would help me and contribute to another 8hrs.. then to dray thru fri and the weekends....
went for walk around 5 that turned into a mini run,, was wearing jeans.. boy was it cold out there, chill wind blowing. got back after about 2.5 miles. legs are now aching.
7:30 and back to the 3 hrs of project classes. upto 10:30 to 10:45 pm...
Trying to stay away from Facebook. wasting a lot of time I could have productively put to use in improving my knowledge and life.
Retrospect:
Will people who are predominantly selfish be able to understand the other person,,,,, nope, not in my experience.
Any signs of selfishness, RUN,
Because every family seems to have one, who is mamas kid or dadads kid... and many in the western world are from nuclear families, who don't even know their first cousins, unlike in more conservative countries where there is a lot of bonding between family memebers. I have on my facebook, the kids of my cousin sister, cousin brother and cousin sisters grand kids... This kind of family bonding usually instills more team behavior, and there are also very selfish people in my family, and their behavior and NON-attachment towards the family stands out.
So one of the criteria if one is in search of a loyal life partner for long term stability and happiness would be to look for this feature in a potential partner.
The closer they are and talk about the other people in their family, the more they are groomed as team players. They are usually caring and are inclined to listen to what the other is saying and not act all angry and screwed up and attack you for even having a different opinion and make you look like the biggest villain in world history.
got call from anl wanting to know the address of a Doc, I had left the phone in the wash room and did not hear any,, just heard a mild ringing towards the end. had 3 missed calls.
called him back.... latter he realized that he was calling me up from the address I gave him... hehehe.. new building and new address of doc so was not turning up on his Gps.
2:25 pm ahhhh so tempting to get back into facebook. its really an addiction.
well will see who will triumph and how long I can stay away from it.
If I can stay away from it for more than 24hrs it would be an achievement.
10 more hours to go for the day to end and maybe hitting the bed early would help me and contribute to another 8hrs.. then to dray thru fri and the weekends....
went for walk around 5 that turned into a mini run,, was wearing jeans.. boy was it cold out there, chill wind blowing. got back after about 2.5 miles. legs are now aching.
7:30 and back to the 3 hrs of project classes. upto 10:30 to 10:45 pm...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Nov 16, 2011 the wait continues
Wednesday, Nov 16 2011
And so continues the wait for the date.
Kind of reminds me of the time I was waiting for the approval of US visa in India, waking up every day, with a feeling of uncertainty, not know which direction life is going to go. The days when life makes you feel helpless as things are pending because of external factors.
But the good news, is that I am able to do some courses and have time to do things that would help me improve myself. Just have to de-focus on the things I can do.
Have to do the packing up too..... thou about 65 percent is done.
The wait,, and the test of patience... :) beauty of life.
Around afternoon, called up nim again and got to him,,, said mrk was putting off to coordinate with his business team and hence the delay in letting us know the start date, worst case scenario, start date is Jan.
ahhh now I have a deadline to meet for the renewal of my current lease.... been here for 4 months.. and no more 1 month extension. have to sign a 3 month lease at the minimum, paying 100 more..
And so continues the wait for the date.
Kind of reminds me of the time I was waiting for the approval of US visa in India, waking up every day, with a feeling of uncertainty, not know which direction life is going to go. The days when life makes you feel helpless as things are pending because of external factors.
But the good news, is that I am able to do some courses and have time to do things that would help me improve myself. Just have to de-focus on the things I can do.
Have to do the packing up too..... thou about 65 percent is done.
The wait,, and the test of patience... :) beauty of life.
Around afternoon, called up nim again and got to him,,, said mrk was putting off to coordinate with his business team and hence the delay in letting us know the start date, worst case scenario, start date is Jan.
ahhh now I have a deadline to meet for the renewal of my current lease.... been here for 4 months.. and no more 1 month extension. have to sign a 3 month lease at the minimum, paying 100 more..
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Nov 15 2011, confusion
Tuesday, Nov 15 2011
Well nothing like the confusion that come about when you are told that you are needed on a job to manage and achieve x,y,z and then when you reach the place of work of about to reach the place of work, get to know that someone else who is supposed to be working at helping you do "z" is of the opinion that he is been recruited to "x,y,z"..... and he has never done "z" always had some other person do "z" more had managed people doing "z".
Still no info from client on possible start dates.
just got msg from rj about it been followed up, got call from sre from bglr, seems to also in the same un-certain stage.
then sent out msg to kri about the contact on his team to help me do 'z',, get sant but seems was traveling. send out a mail and then latter get a call... and thats when I get to know about the "z" guys thoughts are "x,y,z".... hmmmm
Well nothing like the confusion that come about when you are told that you are needed on a job to manage and achieve x,y,z and then when you reach the place of work of about to reach the place of work, get to know that someone else who is supposed to be working at helping you do "z" is of the opinion that he is been recruited to "x,y,z"..... and he has never done "z" always had some other person do "z" more had managed people doing "z".
Still no info from client on possible start dates.
just got msg from rj about it been followed up, got call from sre from bglr, seems to also in the same un-certain stage.
then sent out msg to kri about the contact on his team to help me do 'z',, get sant but seems was traveling. send out a mail and then latter get a call... and thats when I get to know about the "z" guys thoughts are "x,y,z".... hmmmm
Monday, November 14, 2011
Nov 14 2011 Another week
Monday, Nov 14 2011
Another hectic week of non stop classes for further development for 6 days....... will not be able to go out to dance or socialize as the classes are online in the evening. But should be worth it to learn more and improve self and have to the tools to improve life of self and others.
Just got to know of a cousins,,, cousin working in same company, initially had got mixed up with the names, turns out to be cousin sisters husbands family.
initially was assuming that it was my cousin who is the Doctors relations or something.
Was Looking at the pic taken of me and sa, she looks so beautiful. sweet as hell and great to dance with. Compatibility. It was funny to see her stop for a break as I thought that she had more stamina.
Well when adrenaline kicks in, it makes you into a superman.
opened the window to get a wiff of aroma, the smell of dry-damp leaf, freshly mixed with the air blowing in. Smelled like home.
*-*****************
Dude I feel your plain.
Lied, cheated and Betrayed its just dis speakable.
The feeling of been stabbed in the back for your only sin and mistake of trusting someone with your heart. :'(
"Satyameva Jayate" (satyam-eva jayate सत्यमेव जयते) (Sanskrit: "Truth Alone Triumphs")
Its funny to see the reaction of some people even after getting caught in their maze of lies and deceit.
Not a word of remorse or "sorry I lied because.....".
But rather following it up with more lies and deceit.
They choose to try to become "Smarter at Lying than becoming sincere and NOT lie".
Another hectic week of non stop classes for further development for 6 days....... will not be able to go out to dance or socialize as the classes are online in the evening. But should be worth it to learn more and improve self and have to the tools to improve life of self and others.
Just got to know of a cousins,,, cousin working in same company, initially had got mixed up with the names, turns out to be cousin sisters husbands family.
initially was assuming that it was my cousin who is the Doctors relations or something.
Was Looking at the pic taken of me and sa, she looks so beautiful. sweet as hell and great to dance with. Compatibility. It was funny to see her stop for a break as I thought that she had more stamina.
Well when adrenaline kicks in, it makes you into a superman.
opened the window to get a wiff of aroma, the smell of dry-damp leaf, freshly mixed with the air blowing in. Smelled like home.
*-*****************
Dude I feel your plain.
Lied, cheated and Betrayed its just dis speakable.
The feeling of been stabbed in the back for your only sin and mistake of trusting someone with your heart. :'(
"Satyameva Jayate" (satyam-eva jayate सत्यमेव जयते) (Sanskrit: "Truth Alone Triumphs")
Its funny to see the reaction of some people even after getting caught in their maze of lies and deceit.
Not a word of remorse or "sorry I lied because.....".
But rather following it up with more lies and deceit.
They choose to try to become "Smarter at Lying than becoming sincere and NOT lie".
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Nov 13 2011, lazy day with grey clouds
Sunday, Nov 13 2011
Woke up from sleep around 7 but got out of bed only around 9am.
Had coffee and have a slight hang over from drinking lots of beer yesterday night. Stomach still feels full with the loads of Lamb curry in coconut gravy that I cooked.. ahhhh my best tasting lamb curry so far.
yummmmm
Face book is getting crowded with many more cousins joining in. Its a great way to connect with the rest of the family that I seldom get to see.
The funny part, all the new generation cousins who are doing their graduation are all studying Engineering or Medical. Its like no one is interested in the other faculties. Or they all have very high IQ thats required for an Engineer or Doc.
And also the fact that it is commonly considered that people who are not into Engineering or Doc are Dumb and of low intellectual level.
I am a bit inclined to believe that, thou many of the older cousins did Masters in other subjects, they usually topped their classes and universities. So there is something in the Gene or DNA in the family thats helping with the higher than average IQ.
Another responsibility on facebook now, have to be careful what I write and put up, as its also going to be seen by some impressionable little ones in the family.
Want to be a good role model for them to look up too. :)
Woke up from sleep around 7 but got out of bed only around 9am.
Had coffee and have a slight hang over from drinking lots of beer yesterday night. Stomach still feels full with the loads of Lamb curry in coconut gravy that I cooked.. ahhhh my best tasting lamb curry so far.
yummmmm
Face book is getting crowded with many more cousins joining in. Its a great way to connect with the rest of the family that I seldom get to see.
The funny part, all the new generation cousins who are doing their graduation are all studying Engineering or Medical. Its like no one is interested in the other faculties. Or they all have very high IQ thats required for an Engineer or Doc.
And also the fact that it is commonly considered that people who are not into Engineering or Doc are Dumb and of low intellectual level.
I am a bit inclined to believe that, thou many of the older cousins did Masters in other subjects, they usually topped their classes and universities. So there is something in the Gene or DNA in the family thats helping with the higher than average IQ.
Another responsibility on facebook now, have to be careful what I write and put up, as its also going to be seen by some impressionable little ones in the family.
Want to be a good role model for them to look up too. :)
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