Tuesday, Jul 12, 2011
Was ready and fully charged for facing today, especially after the great out door run I had for this month.
Kind of too hot to run in the heat, or is it because I did not run much after my constant visits to the mid-west.
Anyways got to the hat apts. and was pleased to hear about some good deals. Would easily save me about $500 per month. The area looked good and seemed to have a hiking trail just besides it. And lots of Indians.... Just that its a bit away from the shopping areas, so what. for $500 I could easily do the extra driving.
Called up Raj who is the head of callcenter in US for cog.. turned up that he was with me in my 1st company in us. wow that is something nice to know and connect with.
Tuesday, July 12, 2011
Monday, July 11, 2011
Jul 11 , 11 (2011). Uncertainty reins
Jul 11 , 11 (2011). Monday,
Uncertainty reins again, where should I move to, what if I get laid off, what if I get a job with another company. What if cog asks me to move, well that is ok as they will pay for the relocation and other things.
just got back from hatfield, close by town, there seem to be a good apt there, well okay compared to where I am now. hope to go there tomorrow and see if they have any for leasing and have to see if they have short term lease.
now the pain starts with the lap top battery not getting charged.. something happened on my last visit to lacros. dammm all these lousy crap thats causing unwanted expenses.
Don't feel like going out to dance either. kind of loosing the motivation to go out 40 miles and return 40 miles. with the cost of gas going up, it does not feel worthy to take the long trip. would have been worth it if I was interested in someone there. hmmmmm maybe, but I am not that inspired by them right now.
Uncertainty reins again, where should I move to, what if I get laid off, what if I get a job with another company. What if cog asks me to move, well that is ok as they will pay for the relocation and other things.
just got back from hatfield, close by town, there seem to be a good apt there, well okay compared to where I am now. hope to go there tomorrow and see if they have any for leasing and have to see if they have short term lease.
now the pain starts with the lap top battery not getting charged.. something happened on my last visit to lacros. dammm all these lousy crap thats causing unwanted expenses.
Don't feel like going out to dance either. kind of loosing the motivation to go out 40 miles and return 40 miles. with the cost of gas going up, it does not feel worthy to take the long trip. would have been worth it if I was interested in someone there. hmmmmm maybe, but I am not that inspired by them right now.
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Jul 09 2011 .. search for the new apt
Sat Jul 09 2011
The search for new apt starts now... got to go out and start hunting for a cheaper place to stay.
Maybe head to some tranquil place and pray and meditate. Seems to be a very hot and warm day, can feel the heat seeping into the house.
The search for new apt starts now... got to go out and start hunting for a cheaper place to stay.
Maybe head to some tranquil place and pray and meditate. Seems to be a very hot and warm day, can feel the heat seeping into the house.
Friday, July 8, 2011
Jul 08 Friday... rain. lightening and thunder
Friday, Jul 08 2011
Start of a slow day, with plans to do some major reading, and now its about 3:30pm and have not got anything done.
Eyes seem to be tired.
And its raining cats and dogs with major lightening and thunder. was thinking of stepping out for some milk and checking out the housing for rental.
Start of a slow day, with plans to do some major reading, and now its about 3:30pm and have not got anything done.
Eyes seem to be tired.
And its raining cats and dogs with major lightening and thunder. was thinking of stepping out for some milk and checking out the housing for rental.
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Jul 07 thursday, why is it....
Thursday, Jul 07, 2011
Why is it that the things we want most always seems to be so elusive. Was putting down on paper a couple of things that are most important to me and they seem to elude me. WHY.
Something from Osho... never ever thought that I would get back to Osho again after about 20 years. But some of his words do make sense thou not all his contradictory statements and claims of been an incarnation of Buddha.
"Everybody has been a child, and everybody has the same urge to get love; and nobody is born in any other way. So all are asking, "Give us love" and there is nobody to give, because the other person is also brought up in the same way. So one has to be alert and aware that just an incident of birth should not remain a constant prevailing state of your mind. Rather than asking, "Give me love," start giving love.
Forget about getting, simply give; and I guarantee you, you will get much." Osho
Love without clinging
Let go of expectations, rules, and demands
Free yourself from the fear of being alone
Be fully present in your relationships
Keep your love fresh and alive
Become a life partner with whom someone could continue to grow and change
Surrender your ego so you can surrender to love.
So I guess that its the inner child in me crying out for give me love and have been chasing it. But even when I decided to just let go and love for the sake of love, only ended up loving the wrong person and hurting my self, when I should have sensibly pulled out at the right time. good lessons of life learnt . :)
dads house and ancestral property:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVvsFP_fHD0
hmm my video of deshusking and working early morning at home 6:30am.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=59V-6hLiwG0
Should I go for the biriyani today or just let go? maybe if I can make it out by 7:30 should be able to get there before 8:30 and get some biriyani packed for the week end.
Why is it that the things we want most always seems to be so elusive. Was putting down on paper a couple of things that are most important to me and they seem to elude me. WHY.
Something from Osho... never ever thought that I would get back to Osho again after about 20 years. But some of his words do make sense thou not all his contradictory statements and claims of been an incarnation of Buddha.
"Everybody has been a child, and everybody has the same urge to get love; and nobody is born in any other way. So all are asking, "Give us love" and there is nobody to give, because the other person is also brought up in the same way. So one has to be alert and aware that just an incident of birth should not remain a constant prevailing state of your mind. Rather than asking, "Give me love," start giving love.
Forget about getting, simply give; and I guarantee you, you will get much." Osho
Love without clinging
Let go of expectations, rules, and demands
Free yourself from the fear of being alone
Be fully present in your relationships
Keep your love fresh and alive
Become a life partner with whom someone could continue to grow and change
Surrender your ego so you can surrender to love.
So I guess that its the inner child in me crying out for give me love and have been chasing it. But even when I decided to just let go and love for the sake of love, only ended up loving the wrong person and hurting my self, when I should have sensibly pulled out at the right time. good lessons of life learnt . :)
dads house and ancestral property:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eVvsFP_fHD0
hmm my video of deshusking and working early morning at home 6:30am.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=59V-6hLiwG0
Should I go for the biriyani today or just let go? maybe if I can make it out by 7:30 should be able to get there before 8:30 and get some biriyani packed for the week end.
Wednesday, July 6, 2011
Jul 06 Wed.. The wait and confusing starts
Wednesday, Jul 06 2011,
ITs confusing waiting and not knowing whats in store. Bos called back yesterday, thou he said somethings, he did not sound encouraging and optimistic. Was like he himself was not sure.
Now the question is should I start to apply . Not able to motivate myself to do it.
Was able to get some household chores done and my care inspection passed and oil changed. Submitted the expense report too.
Its like I need something challenging or rather that keeps me not too stressed, but still gives me the sense of been useful and doing something useful and contributing something useful to the society.
Just had my yummy salmon curry and then had canned fruits and blue berries for dinner yesterday.
Kind of gloomy today, nothing much seems to be happening, got chatting with vib in kerala in the afternoon.
Don't feel motivated to go for a run, might go out for a walk after the mad mony show.
or better skip that too.
Atleast got FB having video now to chat.
It was another frustrating instance getting a call for a job from a guy, totally Tamil. Trying all kinds of funny talk and not answering my questions with direct answers and playing around with words. at first he says it maybe a fly in fly out kind of job and then he wants me to re-locate to san-deigo.. so I ask him why and he comes up with the vaugest answers .
Then when I ask him the salary, he starts talking about H1B visa and Green card and stuff...... got so frustrated and just told him,, hey listen, I am not interested in your h1 visa and green card, I am happy with my canadian, so stop trying to tell me or sell me on that and tell me how much you can pay me.... at which he gave me a fig that was like 40 percent less than what I am making now.... so told him sorry I am not interested and just hung up with a thank you.
Good god the amount of time that guy wasted talking round and round in circles. lousy prick like that will only try and take things for granted going forward. Better to cut off these kind of people in all walks of our life and not let them in, nothing good EVER comes out of any kind of relationships with liars and crooked manipulative people.
ITs confusing waiting and not knowing whats in store. Bos called back yesterday, thou he said somethings, he did not sound encouraging and optimistic. Was like he himself was not sure.
Now the question is should I start to apply . Not able to motivate myself to do it.
Was able to get some household chores done and my care inspection passed and oil changed. Submitted the expense report too.
Its like I need something challenging or rather that keeps me not too stressed, but still gives me the sense of been useful and doing something useful and contributing something useful to the society.
Just had my yummy salmon curry and then had canned fruits and blue berries for dinner yesterday.
Kind of gloomy today, nothing much seems to be happening, got chatting with vib in kerala in the afternoon.
Don't feel motivated to go for a run, might go out for a walk after the mad mony show.
or better skip that too.
Atleast got FB having video now to chat.
It was another frustrating instance getting a call for a job from a guy, totally Tamil. Trying all kinds of funny talk and not answering my questions with direct answers and playing around with words. at first he says it maybe a fly in fly out kind of job and then he wants me to re-locate to san-deigo.. so I ask him why and he comes up with the vaugest answers .
Then when I ask him the salary, he starts talking about H1B visa and Green card and stuff...... got so frustrated and just told him,, hey listen, I am not interested in your h1 visa and green card, I am happy with my canadian, so stop trying to tell me or sell me on that and tell me how much you can pay me.... at which he gave me a fig that was like 40 percent less than what I am making now.... so told him sorry I am not interested and just hung up with a thank you.
Good god the amount of time that guy wasted talking round and round in circles. lousy prick like that will only try and take things for granted going forward. Better to cut off these kind of people in all walks of our life and not let them in, nothing good EVER comes out of any kind of relationships with liars and crooked manipulative people.
Monday, July 4, 2011
Jul 04 2011 Back home and full of adventure
Monday, July 04 2011,
Just got back from a 56 mile bike ride..... phew never ever thought that I would or could do that. Thanks to mal baby for coming up with the idea and pushing it thru. She was and has a good sense of adventure.
Just that after all the hours of biking my arse hurt really bad. And by the way this was the first time I biked in the US. used to bike in India out of necessity unlike the people in the west who bike for recreation, which again I don't think the people in the developed countries can ever understand.
And day before it was a great hike with syd and gang on Sat, was good to see chistina, seemed to be a bit on the down side, usually the bubbly gal who lit up the surrounding with her sincere smile seemed to be down.
Drive on Friday from lacrosse to wassu was so scenic. loved the green beauty of the American country side. Especially the sweet and nice people. So many blonds there all from the Norwegian area who came and settled in US.
drove for about 3hrs to reach wassu. then the flight from wassau to Detroit, dinner at detroit airport, with a tang of beer. And then the flight to Phl, looks like I got upgraded to Sky sliver by the delta airline, as now I got into zone 2 and a seat with lots of leg room. cheers to that and many more flights to come...
good god, I have been traveling and spending most of my time at the airports this year. Guess my life is one huge adventure of traveling all over the world. Got to stop resisting it and enjoying the travel and looking forward to many more.
now to get a beer and watch some world come games... and yes kingfisher beer.. ;)
Got to see how it will go with mal baby in the coming future, she seemed to be very reasonable in her arguments.. just that she is a indian who was born with a silver spoon and does not understand that the rest of india is not fortunate like her and are struggling to get even one meal a day.
Just got back from a 56 mile bike ride..... phew never ever thought that I would or could do that. Thanks to mal baby for coming up with the idea and pushing it thru. She was and has a good sense of adventure.
Just that after all the hours of biking my arse hurt really bad. And by the way this was the first time I biked in the US. used to bike in India out of necessity unlike the people in the west who bike for recreation, which again I don't think the people in the developed countries can ever understand.
And day before it was a great hike with syd and gang on Sat, was good to see chistina, seemed to be a bit on the down side, usually the bubbly gal who lit up the surrounding with her sincere smile seemed to be down.
Drive on Friday from lacrosse to wassu was so scenic. loved the green beauty of the American country side. Especially the sweet and nice people. So many blonds there all from the Norwegian area who came and settled in US.
drove for about 3hrs to reach wassu. then the flight from wassau to Detroit, dinner at detroit airport, with a tang of beer. And then the flight to Phl, looks like I got upgraded to Sky sliver by the delta airline, as now I got into zone 2 and a seat with lots of leg room. cheers to that and many more flights to come...
good god, I have been traveling and spending most of my time at the airports this year. Guess my life is one huge adventure of traveling all over the world. Got to stop resisting it and enjoying the travel and looking forward to many more.
now to get a beer and watch some world come games... and yes kingfisher beer.. ;)
Got to see how it will go with mal baby in the coming future, she seemed to be very reasonable in her arguments.. just that she is a indian who was born with a silver spoon and does not understand that the rest of india is not fortunate like her and are struggling to get even one meal a day.
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