Wed jun 22 2011,
last 2 days for my time on this project. collected a few mileage points to be able to buy stuff for free online. lets see.
will submit my report towards the end of the day morrow and then head out to the casino for some much needed salsa.
love the lighted color changing floor there. sets up a very romantic atmosphere.
Was thinking about dad and all the good character that he stands for. I need to give up drinking fully, thou I just have one during the weekends.
Try to focus on my meditation ,,, the act of doing nothing and achieving stillness in mind, thoughts and movement. Center myself and feel the energy manifest from within and energize myself.
It was great going out for a run again today evening. 2nd day of continuous running.
Have to see where the next proj maybe. does not seem to be very optimistic, wanted to get on to the long term project in dallas, but the manager there seems to have gone on leave due to some family emergency.
And then have to focus on been able to shift out of this posh apartment. will miss all its calm ness,
Half my stuff is still in boxes, because I expected to be moving pretty soon and its almost 15 months. well 2 months in kerala included.
Good to know that chak ri is going to come to the east coast and would be interested in salsa in NJ and NY,, lets see. yea good weekend to look forward to. cheers
Interesting watching my own video of de-husking the coconut
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=59V-6hLiwG0
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
Jun 20 2011 Monday What a hike and after effects
Jun 20 2011 Monday.
Phew what a hike it was yesterday, 10 miles plus around the most beautiful lake and reservoir.
It was a pleasant exp meeting Estl(the french girl) again, from Grenoble in the Alps, close to St Etienne, our 3rd hike together.
She is so sweet, looks like one of those beautiful french country girls, who never get angry and seem to think a lot before answering in the sweetest way. so heart warming and so much of her concern and gratitude towards people who are helping her.
So different from the selfish, self centered people who expect people to be their slaves and take people for granted.
She seemed to be intrigued by my knowledge of France and its history and about Corsica.
A pleasant surprise and interesting conversation.
Next week she is cooking Creps , stil not sure where I will be next week so kept it open.
So far I hear its like Dosa with a European twist.
then in couple of months she is going visiting the west coast - hiking mostly with her parents and family. hmmmmm reminded me of the past, but with a better twist of characters.
Well now to get focused on the life of mine and accept it for all its uncertainty.
Like mike from spain said, you have something unique, the moment you find your lifes purpose, your life will soar up high and achieve greatness.
That was one of the greatest compliment I got, but finding that life purpose is something I have been struggling all along.
Would love to be in love with that unique someone who would love me back equally or more intensely and unselfishly as I do with a great sense of loyalty and dedication towards each other.
Was watching a program on the internet, where some one asks a person who was married for 36 years plus for advice.
That man in Thailand said, "Do not try to Win" and things will work itself out.
That was priceless for any relationship thats ment to last a life time. Jobs come and go, people come and go, but life partner, should be one and only after you decide to be together and have to be given more importance and priority over other things in life and hence the need to compromise by shedding off superficial Egos and be willing to accept the blame and trying to improve each other or atleast try to have the attitude of listening to the other for what they have to say about certain things and respect partners opinion more than the opinion and words of other people.
Ahh for all the hopes for romance, so much desired, so much waiting to be revealed, for my heart is full of love, waiting eagerly for the ONE who I could shower with the gentleness of my over flowing love.
Kind of feel optimistic and charged now. Like its just around the corner.
Was thinking of the clip on Qi Gong... all about the personal energy and the source,, meditation....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAAB0dbc3Es&feature=player_embedded
It is scary what one can achieve with meditation and the constant evil of wanting to show off ones abilities and seek attention. One of the things I have been trying to avoid.. The Stage.
a blessing in many ways and also a curse for me. Maybe my reluctance to get on to the stage is a blessing in it self. that I have more control over my desire to show-off and seek attention from every one around.
That way I am able to stay grounded and more humble.... thank you god - universe - supreme world...
oakkyyy long write up.. get back to work and life of living.
Phew what a hike it was yesterday, 10 miles plus around the most beautiful lake and reservoir.
It was a pleasant exp meeting Estl(the french girl) again, from Grenoble in the Alps, close to St Etienne, our 3rd hike together.
She is so sweet, looks like one of those beautiful french country girls, who never get angry and seem to think a lot before answering in the sweetest way. so heart warming and so much of her concern and gratitude towards people who are helping her.
So different from the selfish, self centered people who expect people to be their slaves and take people for granted.
She seemed to be intrigued by my knowledge of France and its history and about Corsica.
A pleasant surprise and interesting conversation.
Next week she is cooking Creps , stil not sure where I will be next week so kept it open.
So far I hear its like Dosa with a European twist.
then in couple of months she is going visiting the west coast - hiking mostly with her parents and family. hmmmmm reminded me of the past, but with a better twist of characters.
Well now to get focused on the life of mine and accept it for all its uncertainty.
Like mike from spain said, you have something unique, the moment you find your lifes purpose, your life will soar up high and achieve greatness.
That was one of the greatest compliment I got, but finding that life purpose is something I have been struggling all along.
Would love to be in love with that unique someone who would love me back equally or more intensely and unselfishly as I do with a great sense of loyalty and dedication towards each other.
Was watching a program on the internet, where some one asks a person who was married for 36 years plus for advice.
That man in Thailand said, "Do not try to Win" and things will work itself out.
That was priceless for any relationship thats ment to last a life time. Jobs come and go, people come and go, but life partner, should be one and only after you decide to be together and have to be given more importance and priority over other things in life and hence the need to compromise by shedding off superficial Egos and be willing to accept the blame and trying to improve each other or atleast try to have the attitude of listening to the other for what they have to say about certain things and respect partners opinion more than the opinion and words of other people.
Ahh for all the hopes for romance, so much desired, so much waiting to be revealed, for my heart is full of love, waiting eagerly for the ONE who I could shower with the gentleness of my over flowing love.
Kind of feel optimistic and charged now. Like its just around the corner.
Was thinking of the clip on Qi Gong... all about the personal energy and the source,, meditation....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RAAB0dbc3Es&feature=player_embedded
It is scary what one can achieve with meditation and the constant evil of wanting to show off ones abilities and seek attention. One of the things I have been trying to avoid.. The Stage.
a blessing in many ways and also a curse for me. Maybe my reluctance to get on to the stage is a blessing in it self. that I have more control over my desire to show-off and seek attention from every one around.
That way I am able to stay grounded and more humble.... thank you god - universe - supreme world...
oakkyyy long write up.. get back to work and life of living.
Friday, June 17, 2011
Jun 17 2011,, Dilemma to move or not.
Friday, Jun 17 2011
Been in a state of Dilemma the past few days, lease coming to an end jul10 and just have about 15 days to find a new house and move there. again causing lots of expenses of moving and penalties of the old house for cleaning.. then having to change all the addresses for every thing.
Only got to know yesterday from stv about the extend to which he would want my expertise.. which is till the end of next week.
frustrated with the lack of vision, direction or not giving me any briefing about the project. more like he specializes in living things half said or only likes giving partial info.... ahhhhh
got to talk with bosA about anyother proj in the piple line. nothing seems to be there for now. thats another thing thats causing me to not take up a new apt. if I move into a new apt, then suddenly another project comes along,, then would not be able to move or the worst case move would go to waste.
anyways had a great time dancing salsa on monday at the vang and thursday at the pra...
Met that indian guy raj I think again at pra.. said he got married in may when he went to india...
wow ,, hes got married too... his wife is not into dancing and guess he just came leaving her home.
wonder if I will ever meet the person I will spend the rest of my life with..... sick of meeting too many selfish women.
Guess all the good ones are taken by lucky guys or by the Bad guys... opp attract.
was sad to see the live coverage of foolishness going on in Van after their loss to bos.
lost a truck load on Pondra. all that I made this year was lost .... bad move and bad market. :(
Been in a state of Dilemma the past few days, lease coming to an end jul10 and just have about 15 days to find a new house and move there. again causing lots of expenses of moving and penalties of the old house for cleaning.. then having to change all the addresses for every thing.
Only got to know yesterday from stv about the extend to which he would want my expertise.. which is till the end of next week.
frustrated with the lack of vision, direction or not giving me any briefing about the project. more like he specializes in living things half said or only likes giving partial info.... ahhhhh
got to talk with bosA about anyother proj in the piple line. nothing seems to be there for now. thats another thing thats causing me to not take up a new apt. if I move into a new apt, then suddenly another project comes along,, then would not be able to move or the worst case move would go to waste.
anyways had a great time dancing salsa on monday at the vang and thursday at the pra...
Met that indian guy raj I think again at pra.. said he got married in may when he went to india...
wow ,, hes got married too... his wife is not into dancing and guess he just came leaving her home.
wonder if I will ever meet the person I will spend the rest of my life with..... sick of meeting too many selfish women.
Guess all the good ones are taken by lucky guys or by the Bad guys... opp attract.
was sad to see the live coverage of foolishness going on in Van after their loss to bos.
lost a truck load on Pondra. all that I made this year was lost .... bad move and bad market. :(
Friday, June 10, 2011
Jun 10 2011, Such a Sweet Life in La Cross - Beautiful natural place
Friday, Jun 10 2011
Getting ready with all the packing and getting into another beautiful day. hmmmmm after working almost 13 to 14 hrs per day this week, and accomplishing the task of setting up about 98 report instances..... ahhh it felt good to be doing something productive and meaningful. Great to know that because of your efforts many peoples lives will become easier and more productive and focused.
okkk the day starts with a few hours of work around 7am.... and then a 3 to 4 hr drive in the rental car, a flight to Detroit, then another flight to Phl.... cheers... should be in philly around mid night and then off to hiking and salsa dancing on sat.....
will be at home the whole of next week, unless something would again need my travelling.. good to have that breather and to be able to sleep in my own bed after a long time . Got to get cracking on finding a cheaper apartment ,,, or will I have the fortune of moving to texas... ahhh so many things to look forward to and plan... never the less a great opportunity to learn, grow and vin... hehehehe......:))))
Getting ready with all the packing and getting into another beautiful day. hmmmmm after working almost 13 to 14 hrs per day this week, and accomplishing the task of setting up about 98 report instances..... ahhh it felt good to be doing something productive and meaningful. Great to know that because of your efforts many peoples lives will become easier and more productive and focused.
okkk the day starts with a few hours of work around 7am.... and then a 3 to 4 hr drive in the rental car, a flight to Detroit, then another flight to Phl.... cheers... should be in philly around mid night and then off to hiking and salsa dancing on sat.....
will be at home the whole of next week, unless something would again need my travelling.. good to have that breather and to be able to sleep in my own bed after a long time . Got to get cracking on finding a cheaper apartment ,,, or will I have the fortune of moving to texas... ahhh so many things to look forward to and plan... never the less a great opportunity to learn, grow and vin... hehehehe......:))))
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Monday, May 30, 2011
May 30 Memorial day
May 30 memorial day, and weekend
just finished sending the expense reports.
yesterday finished booking the hotels in knoxville and Nashville, got to see how it is going to go with the visit to the city of music, jazz, country ....
was a very hectic week, starting with waking up last monday at 2 am and getting on the 6am flight to st louis. bumby ride with lots of turbulance. only to know latter about all the tornado activity around the Missouri state area. St louis been the main city.
was able to check into the hotel but was not able to catch up on my sleep, excited and uncertainity of meeting the team, new project with all the clients people. And around afternoon steve asked me to meet them at the car rental and from there we went directly to the st louise mtr location.
was nice to meet all the new people.
good team. next day tuesday the 24th went live there without much hassels and than stv asked me to go with kyl to champaign in Illinois. chak ri told me that he used to be there or it was like his second home. then on returning to the hotel we were told that the power was off cause of the tornado. and were expecting more tornado.
wed morning of 25 me and kyl start of towards champaign and it was a pleasent exp taking to him and telling him about india and showed him dads house. After that he got a different view about india. not like what he saw in slum dog mill.
we kink of bonded well. was nice to know about his growing up in the farm and his small town in wiscosin.
in the evening was planning on hitting the salsa recommended by chak ri ,, but as soon as we got into the lobby, the tornado sirens started blowing and the hotel staff asked every one to come out of their rooms and stay put in the lobby and to run into the wash room as they do not have a basement when things get bad.
it was scary with all the tornado warning on TV and watching the worst and expecting the worst case scenario. but luckiely nothing bad happened just a mild touch down of one tornado a few blocks away.
Next day we went live at the location more successfully than stv at the st louis.
then in the evening me and kyl wen to a steak house and I had the unique exp of cooking my own steak , wow. now I know to cook a steak. chheers
next day we woke up early and at 7:am headed back to st louis, stv and kyl had to catch a plane at 1pm and I had mine at 8pm in the evening.
offered to drive when kyle had a conf call to make about the proj. reached st louis about 10:25am. now I have like 10 hrs to kill before getting on to my flight. ahhhh no internet and just wating at the airport watching all the different people pass by.
was not able to eat anything as nothing was around. the map showed that there was a burger king inside. but when I was at last able to enter around 4pm burger king was closed for renovation. so got into the chilles and had qusedias with beer. glad that its an expense paid project. or I might get screwed.
But atleast now I have a job for the next 4 weeks.
July 13th was my last day at cog. they had given the 1 month notice. luckily this turned up.
now the lease is coming to an end for the apt too, do I extend the lease or do I move to another apt? which is cheaper by 500 dollars but needs a 3 month lease. but then it would mean changing the address at all the places, getting new car registration,,,,, then moving everything that I have to the new apt.... feels like a big hassle when I think of it.
Was not sure if these people would require me for next week.. but kyl was kind enough to let me know about the itinerary and so it knoxvile and nashvile.. in tennesse.
over the weekend booked the flight and room.
had gone for a hike about 8 miles with syd and group and was so tired that just got drunk on kingfisehr beer , watched the football match in europe and fell asleep after that.
sunday was another lazy day, but went and got biriyani from the paki restaurant almost in new jersey.
was feeling stuffed with the lamb biriyani at night.
and today memorial day, getting ready for the trip again tomorrow morning 6 hrs travelling time from airport. was told new lady joining in. got to see how it goes with four people at the implementation.
just finished sending the expense reports.
yesterday finished booking the hotels in knoxville and Nashville, got to see how it is going to go with the visit to the city of music, jazz, country ....
was a very hectic week, starting with waking up last monday at 2 am and getting on the 6am flight to st louis. bumby ride with lots of turbulance. only to know latter about all the tornado activity around the Missouri state area. St louis been the main city.
was able to check into the hotel but was not able to catch up on my sleep, excited and uncertainity of meeting the team, new project with all the clients people. And around afternoon steve asked me to meet them at the car rental and from there we went directly to the st louise mtr location.
was nice to meet all the new people.
good team. next day tuesday the 24th went live there without much hassels and than stv asked me to go with kyl to champaign in Illinois. chak ri told me that he used to be there or it was like his second home. then on returning to the hotel we were told that the power was off cause of the tornado. and were expecting more tornado.
wed morning of 25 me and kyl start of towards champaign and it was a pleasent exp taking to him and telling him about india and showed him dads house. After that he got a different view about india. not like what he saw in slum dog mill.
we kink of bonded well. was nice to know about his growing up in the farm and his small town in wiscosin.
in the evening was planning on hitting the salsa recommended by chak ri ,, but as soon as we got into the lobby, the tornado sirens started blowing and the hotel staff asked every one to come out of their rooms and stay put in the lobby and to run into the wash room as they do not have a basement when things get bad.
it was scary with all the tornado warning on TV and watching the worst and expecting the worst case scenario. but luckiely nothing bad happened just a mild touch down of one tornado a few blocks away.
Next day we went live at the location more successfully than stv at the st louis.
then in the evening me and kyl wen to a steak house and I had the unique exp of cooking my own steak , wow. now I know to cook a steak. chheers
next day we woke up early and at 7:am headed back to st louis, stv and kyl had to catch a plane at 1pm and I had mine at 8pm in the evening.
offered to drive when kyle had a conf call to make about the proj. reached st louis about 10:25am. now I have like 10 hrs to kill before getting on to my flight. ahhhh no internet and just wating at the airport watching all the different people pass by.
was not able to eat anything as nothing was around. the map showed that there was a burger king inside. but when I was at last able to enter around 4pm burger king was closed for renovation. so got into the chilles and had qusedias with beer. glad that its an expense paid project. or I might get screwed.
But atleast now I have a job for the next 4 weeks.
July 13th was my last day at cog. they had given the 1 month notice. luckily this turned up.
now the lease is coming to an end for the apt too, do I extend the lease or do I move to another apt? which is cheaper by 500 dollars but needs a 3 month lease. but then it would mean changing the address at all the places, getting new car registration,,,,, then moving everything that I have to the new apt.... feels like a big hassle when I think of it.
Was not sure if these people would require me for next week.. but kyl was kind enough to let me know about the itinerary and so it knoxvile and nashvile.. in tennesse.
over the weekend booked the flight and room.
had gone for a hike about 8 miles with syd and group and was so tired that just got drunk on kingfisehr beer , watched the football match in europe and fell asleep after that.
sunday was another lazy day, but went and got biriyani from the paki restaurant almost in new jersey.
was feeling stuffed with the lamb biriyani at night.
and today memorial day, getting ready for the trip again tomorrow morning 6 hrs travelling time from airport. was told new lady joining in. got to see how it goes with four people at the implementation.
Sunday, May 22, 2011
May 22 2011, lazy sunday
22 May 2011, sunday
well hectic week, heading off to hike with sid and group on the saturday. was feeling low on energy, apprehensive about the project on monday, where I am entering the lions den with out knowing the abcds properly, rather going there with no great experience. And its a go live in st lou on tuesday.
was thinking about my life and stuff on the quite beautiful hike, in fact was surprised that I felt like puking with repulsion at the every thought of a person like Eva. Surprising how with revelation of more information about the person you get to see the most evil and disgusting behavior and character. Something you choose or are foolish not to see when in love and hope that things work out.
So glad I am saved from such a person.
Was getting mails from mei in china who was regretting having treated her ex badly. But then it is too late for that, I still have my doubts that she must have changed for him, her behavior towards Jay was really bad. showed that she was still bad towards people and too self centered. But as the laws of nature goes some mistakes are too late to correct.
Towards evening went to bsils and had a non stop salsa with a beginer. latter was watching most of the games people were playing there.
Realised that I do not have any game at all, as much I like to think that I can do something, nope, no game at all.
Its best to concentrate on work and improving my career that I have constantly been neglecting , high time for been responsible and focused.... ahhh the same old story.
Sunday woke up a bit late and then headed over to costco and was trying to get my itenary straightened out.
need to take print outs.
went to costco and got a few stuff. Guess I would not be needing food for sometime as all expenses will be paid for by the client.
called up home and again had a tough time trying to get dad out of the scared mentality of having lived in a dictatorship, guess he will always be like that after having gone thru the bad phase in indian history and ending up not been able to trust the official machainery of Indian government.
Had seen the same kind of been scared in mhu, he had come from lanka after the roits and kind of seemed scared of the cops.
well hectic week, heading off to hike with sid and group on the saturday. was feeling low on energy, apprehensive about the project on monday, where I am entering the lions den with out knowing the abcds properly, rather going there with no great experience. And its a go live in st lou on tuesday.
was thinking about my life and stuff on the quite beautiful hike, in fact was surprised that I felt like puking with repulsion at the every thought of a person like Eva. Surprising how with revelation of more information about the person you get to see the most evil and disgusting behavior and character. Something you choose or are foolish not to see when in love and hope that things work out.
So glad I am saved from such a person.
Was getting mails from mei in china who was regretting having treated her ex badly. But then it is too late for that, I still have my doubts that she must have changed for him, her behavior towards Jay was really bad. showed that she was still bad towards people and too self centered. But as the laws of nature goes some mistakes are too late to correct.
Towards evening went to bsils and had a non stop salsa with a beginer. latter was watching most of the games people were playing there.
Realised that I do not have any game at all, as much I like to think that I can do something, nope, no game at all.
Its best to concentrate on work and improving my career that I have constantly been neglecting , high time for been responsible and focused.... ahhh the same old story.
Sunday woke up a bit late and then headed over to costco and was trying to get my itenary straightened out.
need to take print outs.
went to costco and got a few stuff. Guess I would not be needing food for sometime as all expenses will be paid for by the client.
called up home and again had a tough time trying to get dad out of the scared mentality of having lived in a dictatorship, guess he will always be like that after having gone thru the bad phase in indian history and ending up not been able to trust the official machainery of Indian government.
Had seen the same kind of been scared in mhu, he had come from lanka after the roits and kind of seemed scared of the cops.
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