Wednesday 17 nov 2010
got to work by 7:50 and did not do much other than getting to the status meeting at 10. then back home for the beef curry with rice around 12:30pm.
have another meeting around 3... wish it was not there then I could have just stayed home and tried to do some thing the skill soft and finished some process management topics.
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Nov 16 tuesday, does not feel right today
Tuesday nov 16. 2010,,
Even thou had a great night out dancing with some sweet connections with people whos names I do not even know. (well they don't mine either).
Waking up in the morning did not feel right. Weather outside said it all with the drizziling.
Then at work got to know that ashi whos parents he was expecting to come to US to help with his wifes pregnancy had their Visa app rejected by the US consulate. Such a heart breaking and screwed up situation to all the plans he must have made. And no valid reason given as to reason for rejection.
For a few fleeting moments our dreams and life is in the hands of the few people who tend to think that they are gods and play with it. POWER and its mis-use has always been a big part of human beings abuse.
does physical appearence matter, as much as we like to sound like who are full of virtue, we all still have a certain degree of shallowness about us.
As I see a sweet looking gal at salsa, with a very sweet smile always on her face, like she was born with that smile, I am not able to think of anything else but feel the pull on the upper part of my heart like its doing a happy dance. It was like i was falling in love. the same sensations. Why is this happening. is it cause i am associating her disarming smile and face to an image of the ideal women full of sincerity, loyalty and innocence, associating it to the image of someone I could just lower my guard trust her fully to not break my heart and just be my goofy self?
Doing what I do naturally with out any pretentsions and still expect her to love me unconditionally.
Even thou had a great night out dancing with some sweet connections with people whos names I do not even know. (well they don't mine either).
Waking up in the morning did not feel right. Weather outside said it all with the drizziling.
Then at work got to know that ashi whos parents he was expecting to come to US to help with his wifes pregnancy had their Visa app rejected by the US consulate. Such a heart breaking and screwed up situation to all the plans he must have made. And no valid reason given as to reason for rejection.
For a few fleeting moments our dreams and life is in the hands of the few people who tend to think that they are gods and play with it. POWER and its mis-use has always been a big part of human beings abuse.
does physical appearence matter, as much as we like to sound like who are full of virtue, we all still have a certain degree of shallowness about us.
As I see a sweet looking gal at salsa, with a very sweet smile always on her face, like she was born with that smile, I am not able to think of anything else but feel the pull on the upper part of my heart like its doing a happy dance. It was like i was falling in love. the same sensations. Why is this happening. is it cause i am associating her disarming smile and face to an image of the ideal women full of sincerity, loyalty and innocence, associating it to the image of someone I could just lower my guard trust her fully to not break my heart and just be my goofy self?
Doing what I do naturally with out any pretentsions and still expect her to love me unconditionally.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Nov 15, KT presentation
Monday, nov05 2010
tired to wake up early after a great night of salsa. got to work around 8am. 8:30 made the international presentation and KT for M on C.
Got to see the mails from the jack arse tony to others. thanks to susan forwarding it to me.
some arses are so stuck on playing the blame game and not taking any responsibility or focusing on trying to solve the issues. That in the end they throw every one out of focus.
anyways was able to look at the new issue that came up of Pref language not getting set back to English. great to find the solution even before the QC was logged.
Great to become friends with rucika and mary via FB. Two malus.
8pm off to Vango for some merengue and sexy bachata. Noticed that the bottles put up on the wall had Van Gogh paintings in them. so thats why its Vango.
Danced a very sensual dance with a lady, with eyes closed. She latter said it was like meditation. It sure was.
tired to wake up early after a great night of salsa. got to work around 8am. 8:30 made the international presentation and KT for M on C.
Got to see the mails from the jack arse tony to others. thanks to susan forwarding it to me.
some arses are so stuck on playing the blame game and not taking any responsibility or focusing on trying to solve the issues. That in the end they throw every one out of focus.
anyways was able to look at the new issue that came up of Pref language not getting set back to English. great to find the solution even before the QC was logged.
Great to become friends with rucika and mary via FB. Two malus.
8pm off to Vango for some merengue and sexy bachata. Noticed that the bottles put up on the wall had Van Gogh paintings in them. so thats why its Vango.
Danced a very sensual dance with a lady, with eyes closed. She latter said it was like meditation. It sure was.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Nov 14. childrens Day in India
Sunday Nov 14 2010
Feeling better after a good nights sleep. Scotch helped too.
Hiking in the afternoon, then some cuban salsa in the evening.... yea the good times are rolling.
Its Childrens day in India.
The day all school going kids look forward to, getting some kind of sweets from their teachers.
Phew... what a great beef curry creation, my best so far I think. Everything fell into place and did not miss out adding anything. Got to add a few veggies too making it a wholesome healthy curry.
Hiking was great too. got to meet a few nice people new to the group. Beautiful hike for a sunday.
Now to get ready and head for some cuban salsa...
Absolutely amazing little place called Cuba in chestnut hill, with a very friendly crowd. Had a bachata with ahira and people clapped after the dance. It felt good to be appreciated and thou I don't think that I am anywhere near good. I just improvise and try to play by the feel of the song. And sometimes the moves just come out from the heart. And one gal thought I was trained in ball room or some hi-fi kind of dancing.
Got mail from malini wanting to coordinate going out next weekend. well I am not sure where I might go or feel like going. just do not wish to commit to something I am not sure.
Feeling better after a good nights sleep. Scotch helped too.
Hiking in the afternoon, then some cuban salsa in the evening.... yea the good times are rolling.
Its Childrens day in India.
The day all school going kids look forward to, getting some kind of sweets from their teachers.
Phew... what a great beef curry creation, my best so far I think. Everything fell into place and did not miss out adding anything. Got to add a few veggies too making it a wholesome healthy curry.
Hiking was great too. got to meet a few nice people new to the group. Beautiful hike for a sunday.
Now to get ready and head for some cuban salsa...
Absolutely amazing little place called Cuba in chestnut hill, with a very friendly crowd. Had a bachata with ahira and people clapped after the dance. It felt good to be appreciated and thou I don't think that I am anywhere near good. I just improvise and try to play by the feel of the song. And sometimes the moves just come out from the heart. And one gal thought I was trained in ball room or some hi-fi kind of dancing.
Got mail from malini wanting to coordinate going out next weekend. well I am not sure where I might go or feel like going. just do not wish to commit to something I am not sure.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Nov 13 sat and at work since morning
Saturday Nov 13 2010
was not able to sleep with the reported issue that was happening. was trying to figure out what the issue was.
Was drifting in and out of sleep and trying to check the nagging issue. So early morning 7:30 reach work and then see that there has been an update. Deny the avaya guy finds the bug. when we were all focused on something else he found the quote close for one number missing. " ' " , just that one lil thing caused so much problems.
So when the other joined in the call around 9:30am suggested to do a test. Again the arse hole Tony was at his scarcastic best trying to be the best arse in the world.
Then after some explanation, all decide to hook up at 11am
The tests go well and fine. just that another bug / issues becomes evident.
Then again a series of waiting for them to finish the tests... George joins on chat with me and susan. who was kind enough to join me in the war-room early morning at 11. we debate about the issue and then I tell that I will try to simulate it on t5 on monday.
Around 1:30 we take off towards home. And again i missed a great opportunity to go hiking with a huge crowd today. More people seem to come in after seeing my pics.. hehehe I am now a famous hiker and iPhone photographer.
Watch paquia fight in the evening and then head out for salsa.
Replied to malin mail asking me to come for salsa some place she wants to go.
was not able to sleep with the reported issue that was happening. was trying to figure out what the issue was.
Was drifting in and out of sleep and trying to check the nagging issue. So early morning 7:30 reach work and then see that there has been an update. Deny the avaya guy finds the bug. when we were all focused on something else he found the quote close for one number missing. " ' " , just that one lil thing caused so much problems.
So when the other joined in the call around 9:30am suggested to do a test. Again the arse hole Tony was at his scarcastic best trying to be the best arse in the world.
Then after some explanation, all decide to hook up at 11am
The tests go well and fine. just that another bug / issues becomes evident.
Then again a series of waiting for them to finish the tests... George joins on chat with me and susan. who was kind enough to join me in the war-room early morning at 11. we debate about the issue and then I tell that I will try to simulate it on t5 on monday.
Around 1:30 we take off towards home. And again i missed a great opportunity to go hiking with a huge crowd today. More people seem to come in after seeing my pics.. hehehe I am now a famous hiker and iPhone photographer.
Watch paquia fight in the evening and then head out for salsa.
Replied to malin mail asking me to come for salsa some place she wants to go.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Nov 12, Fri, Prod Go live,
Friday, Nov 12, 2010
hahaha Woke up again at 5am, tossing and turning, trying to motivate self to get moving. anyway got out and reached work around 7:30am. After dealing with the sheet of ice on the wind shield. ahhh
Go live day for the first piece of code of mine into Production. rather the go live would be on monday. But the code gets pushed into PROD today evening 8:30pm.
well will know by 9 how the code looks. Then head out for some sexy salsa with kate. :)
maybe reply to malins dramatic mail.
talked with aji about my last day and the course of action
Ended up with some issues at the prod go live. got a call around 9:45pm so was not able to go out dancing... and no sleep trying to find the root cause and not able to sleep
hahaha Woke up again at 5am, tossing and turning, trying to motivate self to get moving. anyway got out and reached work around 7:30am. After dealing with the sheet of ice on the wind shield. ahhh
Go live day for the first piece of code of mine into Production. rather the go live would be on monday. But the code gets pushed into PROD today evening 8:30pm.
well will know by 9 how the code looks. Then head out for some sexy salsa with kate. :)
maybe reply to malins dramatic mail.
talked with aji about my last day and the course of action
Ended up with some issues at the prod go live. got a call around 9:45pm so was not able to go out dancing... and no sleep trying to find the root cause and not able to sleep
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Nov 11 2010. early to work
Thursday Nov112010
Woke up around 5am and got to work by 7:20am.
got to talk with sweta in bangalore before she left for the day. apprised her about the happenings and motivated her to feel better about handling issues here after I leave.
ajay seems to be having issues before his taking off to india for his marriage. damm these issues have a funny way of turning up when you least want them to. Same thing happened before I left for europ. 5 months of non-activity and suddenly two days before I leave, series of issues.
confused as to what to reply to malinis mail. She is just reminding me of Eva with her behavior. Don't want to get into a relationship or sucked into a relationship with selfish - self centered people.
Had I been in a relationship with her maybe I would have made the effort to explain to her. Now I am least bothered to make the effort as she is not someone I am interested in and do not want to be sucked into the drama. She will just go on to behave like evil eva no matter what I tell her. So I just zip up and pretend nothing is the matter and keep my distance.
Why do all these drama queens try all these sick irresponsible, lack of accountable behavior and then expect to be treated like queens and expect others to shower them with un-divided attention that they do not deserve?
They don't even try to make the effort and then expect others to make the effort. Yea right, like I am going to.
Tried, rather went out of my way more than any man would ever, setting aside my pride and self-respect. And what does it result in? Just more pain and heart break for me. dis-respect towards me and my life.
awww Fuck it, these people do not deserve any kind of attention or good feedback. LEt them just continue on their path of self destruction and then wonder why no one is interested in them for the right reasons.
When some one is interested in them for the right reasons, they tend to treat them like shit and take them for granted. Then who would even want to pay any attention to their sick personalities. After sometime the interested people will surely move away too.
Well atleast I am not going to get sucked into that loop again, no matter how tempting it is.
Woke up around 5am and got to work by 7:20am.
got to talk with sweta in bangalore before she left for the day. apprised her about the happenings and motivated her to feel better about handling issues here after I leave.
ajay seems to be having issues before his taking off to india for his marriage. damm these issues have a funny way of turning up when you least want them to. Same thing happened before I left for europ. 5 months of non-activity and suddenly two days before I leave, series of issues.
confused as to what to reply to malinis mail. She is just reminding me of Eva with her behavior. Don't want to get into a relationship or sucked into a relationship with selfish - self centered people.
Had I been in a relationship with her maybe I would have made the effort to explain to her. Now I am least bothered to make the effort as she is not someone I am interested in and do not want to be sucked into the drama. She will just go on to behave like evil eva no matter what I tell her. So I just zip up and pretend nothing is the matter and keep my distance.
Why do all these drama queens try all these sick irresponsible, lack of accountable behavior and then expect to be treated like queens and expect others to shower them with un-divided attention that they do not deserve?
They don't even try to make the effort and then expect others to make the effort. Yea right, like I am going to.
Tried, rather went out of my way more than any man would ever, setting aside my pride and self-respect. And what does it result in? Just more pain and heart break for me. dis-respect towards me and my life.
awww Fuck it, these people do not deserve any kind of attention or good feedback. LEt them just continue on their path of self destruction and then wonder why no one is interested in them for the right reasons.
When some one is interested in them for the right reasons, they tend to treat them like shit and take them for granted. Then who would even want to pay any attention to their sick personalities. After sometime the interested people will surely move away too.
Well atleast I am not going to get sucked into that loop again, no matter how tempting it is.
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