Sunday Nov 07 2010
Deepavali party around 11, organized by the wifes of the guys I work with..
have to start setting all the time back by an hour.
Great party with a variety of foods. Mostly north Indian flavor. Had puri after a very long time. :)
Took a bottle of costly Whisky. only half the bottle was finished.
Then the guys started playing Cards. And I decided to stay off as its not something I am into. I am more an outdoorsy guy.
got back home around 7pm which was like 8pm yesterday. It was dark outside by 5:30pm.
Another few weeks and time to say bye bye philly
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Nov 6. beautiful hike, fall colors
Satruday Nov 6 2010
woke up late went about doing stuff and then went off on the Hike, close to house. It was a bit on the colder side, but a great hike in a neighborhood I have never been.
woke up late went about doing stuff and then went off on the Hike, close to house. It was a bit on the colder side, but a great hike in a neighborhood I have never been.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Nov 5, Deepavali Sad day for Dravidians
Friday, Nov 5 2010
Deepavali celebrated by in the north of India with great flair and pomp, marking the victory of the Aryan prince Rama over the GREAT Dravidian king Ravana.
And as usual as the legacy of Aryans and their history goes:
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Deepavali a SAD day for the Aboriginal population (Dravidian) of present day India
Its such a sad day for the Real/original people of the land,, that their Great King Ravana was killed by Deceit :((
By the people of European origin ( Aryans, light skinned, thin-snake lipped people), who as their legacy goes, always migrate from their COLD Countries to warmer countries like present day USA, Africa, India and then suppress the local population.
Branding them the local aboriginal population as Evil, uncivilized, Blood thirsty cannibals, and,,,,, the stories continue as History repeats itself... :,) so sad...
The only state in India that even celebrates a Dravidian legacy is Kerala, with its tradition of Onam and the belief that their Great King "Maha - Bali" visits them during the celebrations (who again was cheated and deceived by Aryans)
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Ended up having one of my best salsa in philly. Danced bachata and merenugue with Kate. After the merengue she said that it was the best dance she ever had. And I had the best bachata after about an year.
Getting back into the groove. Hope the next job the salsa clubs are close by or I get hitched soon.
Again ended up meeting an italian gal, all my walls went up and then suddenly she wanted to know my age and was getting too personal in her question. I had to avoid giving her a straight answer and then politely moved away.
Deepavali celebrated by in the north of India with great flair and pomp, marking the victory of the Aryan prince Rama over the GREAT Dravidian king Ravana.
And as usual as the legacy of Aryans and their history goes:
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Deepavali a SAD day for the Aboriginal population (Dravidian) of present day India
Its such a sad day for the Real/original people of the land,, that their Great King Ravana was killed by Deceit :((
By the people of European origin ( Aryans, light skinned, thin-snake lipped people), who as their legacy goes, always migrate from their COLD Countries to warmer countries like present day USA, Africa, India and then suppress the local population.
Branding them the local aboriginal population as Evil, uncivilized, Blood thirsty cannibals, and,,,,, the stories continue as History repeats itself... :,) so sad...
The only state in India that even celebrates a Dravidian legacy is Kerala, with its tradition of Onam and the belief that their Great King "Maha - Bali" visits them during the celebrations (who again was cheated and deceived by Aryans)
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Ended up having one of my best salsa in philly. Danced bachata and merenugue with Kate. After the merengue she said that it was the best dance she ever had. And I had the best bachata after about an year.
Getting back into the groove. Hope the next job the salsa clubs are close by or I get hitched soon.
Again ended up meeting an italian gal, all my walls went up and then suddenly she wanted to know my age and was getting too personal in her question. I had to avoid giving her a straight answer and then politely moved away.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Nov 04, hahaha Contrast weather
Thursday, Nov 4
hahahaha,, could not help but laugh at the contrast in weather of yesterday and today. Rainning all over and it feels like one of those days in Vancouver. Well atleast its warmer.
Was not motivated to getup from bed thou I woke up around 5am. tossing and turning, falling asleep for sometime, then waking up with some kind of weird dream of people from the past and some faces I have never seen before. Good dreams to medium good ones.
Pulled myself out of bed around 7:30am hahaha thats another contradiction, used to be at work by 7am.
Or is my body trying to pre-adjust to the daylight saving time coming. guess next week it would be appropriate.
Reached work after a good shower in the warm water, strong expresso coffee with lots of milk, low sugar(ah a take away habit from spain), cereals in coffee. hehehe so that I don't have to put in milk.
Trying to motivate myself to do the management program of virtual secessions so that I could go for PMP. Don't feel that I am young and fast thinking enough to compete technically with the new breed of highly compititive kids in the work force anymore.
Its sad to know that about 40 to 50 percent of the people who were working in the NB call center are been laid off. And all the people who were working on the 1st floor are getting moved to the 2nd floor.
Afternoon did my first WFH. And suddenly every one is sending me emails with something. I got more work emails in this one afternoon that the whole month.
anyways helped dpu with his resume and hope he gets thru into my company. His english seems to have improved a lot.
hahahaha,, could not help but laugh at the contrast in weather of yesterday and today. Rainning all over and it feels like one of those days in Vancouver. Well atleast its warmer.
Was not motivated to getup from bed thou I woke up around 5am. tossing and turning, falling asleep for sometime, then waking up with some kind of weird dream of people from the past and some faces I have never seen before. Good dreams to medium good ones.
Pulled myself out of bed around 7:30am hahaha thats another contradiction, used to be at work by 7am.
Or is my body trying to pre-adjust to the daylight saving time coming. guess next week it would be appropriate.
Reached work after a good shower in the warm water, strong expresso coffee with lots of milk, low sugar(ah a take away habit from spain), cereals in coffee. hehehe so that I don't have to put in milk.
Trying to motivate myself to do the management program of virtual secessions so that I could go for PMP. Don't feel that I am young and fast thinking enough to compete technically with the new breed of highly compititive kids in the work force anymore.
Its sad to know that about 40 to 50 percent of the people who were working in the NB call center are been laid off. And all the people who were working on the 1st floor are getting moved to the 2nd floor.
Afternoon did my first WFH. And suddenly every one is sending me emails with something. I got more work emails in this one afternoon that the whole month.
anyways helped dpu with his resume and hope he gets thru into my company. His english seems to have improved a lot.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Nov 03 , beautiful Wednesday
Wednesday Nov 03 2010
The skyline outside looks invitingly beautiful, signs of another wonderful day. Felt sick yesterday by evening and hence passed out on the couch. woke up around 2 and went to bed. So ended up skipping dinner that I had put to heat up in the microwave. Only realized that in the morning. Well will have the meat curry with rice for todays lunch.... turned out too spicy for my un-challenged stomach. So watering it down to make it mildly spicy.
Got to wrk by 8:20am,, sliding down with the sun rise happening around 7am. well feels much better than the rainny gloomy Vancouver weather for sure with briht skies. Not liking having to scrub off the layer of ice on the wind shield of my car every morning.
Hope I get to a warmer place after this in 2 months.
Did the test on T5 for dt...
The skyline outside looks invitingly beautiful, signs of another wonderful day. Felt sick yesterday by evening and hence passed out on the couch. woke up around 2 and went to bed. So ended up skipping dinner that I had put to heat up in the microwave. Only realized that in the morning. Well will have the meat curry with rice for todays lunch.... turned out too spicy for my un-challenged stomach. So watering it down to make it mildly spicy.
Got to wrk by 8:20am,, sliding down with the sun rise happening around 7am. well feels much better than the rainny gloomy Vancouver weather for sure with briht skies. Not liking having to scrub off the layer of ice on the wind shield of my car every morning.
Hope I get to a warmer place after this in 2 months.
Did the test on T5 for dt...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Nov 2, low motivation
Tuesday, Nov 02 2010 (11-02-2010)
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Another days of 2s, 1s and 0s. not much motivated to go to work. hmmmm lets see got a couple of test to run. send out emails. and thats it.
maybe try to get some PMP done... ahhhhh that feels good. Purpose in life is a good driving factor.
Tested for dt code good. sent out msg. now need to do the Sop , funny how people seem to be more into twisting things than following standards. Well atleast I am not going to be here for long..... wishing the days would go faster and then I would be out of this place. Keeping fingers crossed with hopes of getting job in Dallas..... it would be awesome there with ani.
back to work after curd-rice lunch.
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Another days of 2s, 1s and 0s. not much motivated to go to work. hmmmm lets see got a couple of test to run. send out emails. and thats it.
maybe try to get some PMP done... ahhhhh that feels good. Purpose in life is a good driving factor.
Tested for dt code good. sent out msg. now need to do the Sop , funny how people seem to be more into twisting things than following standards. Well atleast I am not going to be here for long..... wishing the days would go faster and then I would be out of this place. Keeping fingers crossed with hopes of getting job in Dallas..... it would be awesome there with ani.
back to work after curd-rice lunch.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Nov 1, 60 days to new year
Monday 1st of Nov 2010
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Start of week, month... got some tough meetings up today. Its like everyone seems to have invited everyone for the meeting I set up. Ahhh I hate to be in the middle of the stage. Stage fright has been my greatest weakness. Afraid of attention. Afraid that something bad will happen and always to me.
Other people seem so at ease and seem to want attention more and more. But not me. I just shy away from it. But don't mind loving attention from one person at a time. But that does not seem to happen too often as I wish. :) hehehe lifes sweet twist and turns.
off to work.
Was thinking about k who I saw yesterday on the hike. She seems to have such a sincere and honest looking face. And also a wall around her. Felt like reaching out to her and was wondering how it would be to be in love with someone like that. Seems to be very educated with a degree or a masters from the mid-west.
Next time gonna ask her out and see how it goes. Just that I don't get to meet her frequently.
was thinking about Sara too, but looks like she does not feel the same intensity as i do.
Feeling much good and better about myself after getting to the root cause of the problem that was troubing the Mok application. With all the fingers getting pointed towards the code I developed. It feels good to know that the issues or root cause of the issues is else where.
Thanks to the extra effort that i had to put in over the weekend screwing up all my fun and enjoyment. But the feeling I am feeling now with discovering the root cause and knowing the solution if a particular requirement needs to be met. Makes me feel much better about myself. And I am sure the bosses feel the same about me and my week end efforts. Feels nice to be unselfishily appreciated and made to feel good by people.
If only some other people who I so foolishly fell for and was hoping that they would realize how their Overly selfish actions was hurting me felt even a bit of the same gratitude towards the care and sacrifice I made to constantly make them happy..... But again they are who they are and I am who I am, and the lesson learnt is that I should have listened to my instincts when I first saw their self-centered attitude and JUST WALKED AWAY.
And its not worth all the effort, pain, constant Stress, heart break, been taken for granted and kicked around as thou nothing about me and my thoughts, my feelings mattered. Even if the feeling of love was overwhelming.
Its just not worth the effort to try to communicate with someone who has a closed mind about their own actions and self. That is I am too perfect to be corrected. And I don't want to analyze my past actions..... Some people just go bull dozing into the future without trying to learn from their past.
The sad part is, it takes some time and getting to see some of their behavior and a few attempts before we can convince ourself that its a lost cause And most of all that its not our fault that they are who they are.
Euphoric feeling after having got to the root cause of the issue and knowing that its got nothing to do with my code.
And other feather with after organizing the meeting between all the screwed up political game players in the company..... wish and hope i do not have to do those kind of things again and keep away from such people.
back home around 6:30 called up venkat to see if he is there. left msg.
trying to decide if I should go to my fav salsa place on monday. or with the sub zero temp today, should I just stay home as most of the people in Philly have had been to the salsa festival that was happening during the weekend and must be resting it out.,,,?????
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Start of week, month... got some tough meetings up today. Its like everyone seems to have invited everyone for the meeting I set up. Ahhh I hate to be in the middle of the stage. Stage fright has been my greatest weakness. Afraid of attention. Afraid that something bad will happen and always to me.
Other people seem so at ease and seem to want attention more and more. But not me. I just shy away from it. But don't mind loving attention from one person at a time. But that does not seem to happen too often as I wish. :) hehehe lifes sweet twist and turns.
off to work.
Was thinking about k who I saw yesterday on the hike. She seems to have such a sincere and honest looking face. And also a wall around her. Felt like reaching out to her and was wondering how it would be to be in love with someone like that. Seems to be very educated with a degree or a masters from the mid-west.
Next time gonna ask her out and see how it goes. Just that I don't get to meet her frequently.
was thinking about Sara too, but looks like she does not feel the same intensity as i do.
Feeling much good and better about myself after getting to the root cause of the problem that was troubing the Mok application. With all the fingers getting pointed towards the code I developed. It feels good to know that the issues or root cause of the issues is else where.
Thanks to the extra effort that i had to put in over the weekend screwing up all my fun and enjoyment. But the feeling I am feeling now with discovering the root cause and knowing the solution if a particular requirement needs to be met. Makes me feel much better about myself. And I am sure the bosses feel the same about me and my week end efforts. Feels nice to be unselfishily appreciated and made to feel good by people.
If only some other people who I so foolishly fell for and was hoping that they would realize how their Overly selfish actions was hurting me felt even a bit of the same gratitude towards the care and sacrifice I made to constantly make them happy..... But again they are who they are and I am who I am, and the lesson learnt is that I should have listened to my instincts when I first saw their self-centered attitude and JUST WALKED AWAY.
And its not worth all the effort, pain, constant Stress, heart break, been taken for granted and kicked around as thou nothing about me and my thoughts, my feelings mattered. Even if the feeling of love was overwhelming.
Its just not worth the effort to try to communicate with someone who has a closed mind about their own actions and self. That is I am too perfect to be corrected. And I don't want to analyze my past actions..... Some people just go bull dozing into the future without trying to learn from their past.
The sad part is, it takes some time and getting to see some of their behavior and a few attempts before we can convince ourself that its a lost cause And most of all that its not our fault that they are who they are.
Euphoric feeling after having got to the root cause of the issue and knowing that its got nothing to do with my code.
And other feather with after organizing the meeting between all the screwed up political game players in the company..... wish and hope i do not have to do those kind of things again and keep away from such people.
back home around 6:30 called up venkat to see if he is there. left msg.
trying to decide if I should go to my fav salsa place on monday. or with the sub zero temp today, should I just stay home as most of the people in Philly have had been to the salsa festival that was happening during the weekend and must be resting it out.,,,?????
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