Tuesday, Sep 14 2010
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something special about this date, not able to remember what. But just a gutt feeling.
Got up around 5 again out of bed by 5:45, tired but Euphoric from yesterday nights salsa at Vango and connecting with many more people in Philly salsa circuit.
hahaha,, what a night it was yesterday,,,, from Mia, a beautiful Nude model with a heart warming smile to Trisha, a sweet gal with the sweetest innocent smile who is studying to become a doctor. It was intersting meeting them and connecting with them.
Also got to meet the first gal I met in Philly salsa, it was nice meeting and connecting with her after about 5 months now... time sure passes. Atleast she came over and talked to me, I had completely forgotten her exact face.
It was a great start of the night as I just decided to dance with one and all, any gal left standing, I just went over and asked to dance.
Ended up dancing sexy merengue most of the time with one particular gal. Looked like she wanted to give me her number,, aahhh I maybe some other time.
Monday night at Vango rocked. Maybe tonite I will also try the reef. Just buzzed with only 3 hrs sleep have to catch up on that.
Talking with Mia, got to know more about her. Its a strange thing, how a very beautiful gal, so down to earth could also be into so much of life issues and seemed to be low on self esteem. Does nude modelling and very much into camera and pic taking.
I would have jumped and given my heart to her and tried to play the role of the person who wanted to bring about a positive change in her life and take care of her. but this time around I will just harden my heart and let her sort out her own lifes issues. Non of my business.
Around last month, when she first came out dancing, ended up breaking her toe nails when dancing with me. She was very sportive about it even thou she was bleeding.
Atleast gald to know that her toe is doing better.
12:noon went to dosa hut for dosa, idly and wada.. with aji and murli
3pm and i am feeling the effects of not having enough sleep.
Should I go to the Reef?
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Monday, September 13, 2010
Sep 13, Euro trip with the ladies
Monday 13 sep 2010
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Lethargy was the word, waking up was easy, but getting out of bed was a pain. Its cloudy outside, just like in Vancouver. Honeymoon climate.
Looking at the correspondence with friendly group of ladies I will be with in Spain. Wow so much of info all of them seem to have and they all seem so helpful about it. It would be interesting to meet them all and get to know face to face all their travel experience. :)
Suggestions for Places to visit
Seville : the Southern cultural capital of spain, Columbus set sail from here.
Cadeques-Salvatore Dali’s stomping/painting/artistic grounds
Girona
Cabo de Gatos in the sunny south
One of the top 5 restaurants in my life was next to a small B&B near Carbonneras.
Granada is also a wonderful easy to get too/interesting college town
Alhambra is amazing.
Minorca
I am also looking at these two place at the border of Spain and France.
PORTBOU
CERBERE
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Lethargy was the word, waking up was easy, but getting out of bed was a pain. Its cloudy outside, just like in Vancouver. Honeymoon climate.
Looking at the correspondence with friendly group of ladies I will be with in Spain. Wow so much of info all of them seem to have and they all seem so helpful about it. It would be interesting to meet them all and get to know face to face all their travel experience. :)
Suggestions for Places to visit
Seville : the Southern cultural capital of spain, Columbus set sail from here.
Cadeques-Salvatore Dali’s stomping/painting/artistic grounds
Girona
Cabo de Gatos in the sunny south
One of the top 5 restaurants in my life was next to a small B&B near Carbonneras.
Granada is also a wonderful easy to get too/interesting college town
Alhambra is amazing.
Minorca
I am also looking at these two place at the border of Spain and France.
PORTBOU
CERBERE
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Sep 12, Rainny day
Sunday, Sep 12 2010
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woke up around 11am.
Light rain outside.
around 12:30 called up home and talked with mom for a long time.
It seems that the upper portion of our home has been rented out again to the Principal of the school near by who came here from Pondicherry.
have been having an idea of cooking some dry beef fry, going to try that out. :)
It was a okay night of salsa yesterday night. Some good energy dancing with one of the gals.
around 9pm got mail from Sidney that Marty passed away this friday. He was a member of our hiking group and lived close to where I live.
Life seems to change so suddenly. Things come to an end so suddenly.
Reminds me of my buddy, Miroslave, who passed away in an accident in Vancouver, this Feb. Just before the olympics.
The Olympics seem such a distant memory now. Just have a bag full of memorabilia.
Working on the Euro trip, just checked out the train to Barcelona that goes all the way into France, by the sleepy Mediterranean border.
But before that maybe make a trip to Lisboa in Portugal around the 12 as its a national holiday in Spain.
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woke up around 11am.
Light rain outside.
around 12:30 called up home and talked with mom for a long time.
It seems that the upper portion of our home has been rented out again to the Principal of the school near by who came here from Pondicherry.
have been having an idea of cooking some dry beef fry, going to try that out. :)
It was a okay night of salsa yesterday night. Some good energy dancing with one of the gals.
around 9pm got mail from Sidney that Marty passed away this friday. He was a member of our hiking group and lived close to where I live.
Life seems to change so suddenly. Things come to an end so suddenly.
Reminds me of my buddy, Miroslave, who passed away in an accident in Vancouver, this Feb. Just before the olympics.
The Olympics seem such a distant memory now. Just have a bag full of memorabilia.
Working on the Euro trip, just checked out the train to Barcelona that goes all the way into France, by the sleepy Mediterranean border.
But before that maybe make a trip to Lisboa in Portugal around the 12 as its a national holiday in Spain.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Sep 11, Saturday, 10 years since I started work in NY.
Saturday, Sep 11, 2010
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It was in 2000 Sep 11 I reported for work as to work as a consultant. Meeting Georgia who was very supportive as my manager and who I am still in contact with. Just wish and pray that things get better for her soon.
Went to temple mediated and got my Tirupathi Ventakeshwara ladoos. My fav deserts.
Did not feel like going for a afternoon hike with Malini. Got turned off by some of her sick words, was just reminded of the sickness I had to deal with Eva. Nope not again, no more benefit of doubt, just say bye and focus on my own needs now. As beena said, never compromise on your standards and values.
Just forget the belief that peoples attitude change, yep, maybe. But its not worth the struggle that I have to go thru. Especially when their attitude is hard wired and seems to be beyond the possibility of change.
Selfishness and EGO are just too deeply embedded into people by the time they are adults, its sometimes too much work. Just have to let time pass by and then realize latter like all that happened before. That its good to thank the Universe/God for un-answered prayers.
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It was in 2000 Sep 11 I reported for work as to work as a consultant. Meeting Georgia who was very supportive as my manager and who I am still in contact with. Just wish and pray that things get better for her soon.
Went to temple mediated and got my Tirupathi Ventakeshwara ladoos. My fav deserts.
Did not feel like going for a afternoon hike with Malini. Got turned off by some of her sick words, was just reminded of the sickness I had to deal with Eva. Nope not again, no more benefit of doubt, just say bye and focus on my own needs now. As beena said, never compromise on your standards and values.
Just forget the belief that peoples attitude change, yep, maybe. But its not worth the struggle that I have to go thru. Especially when their attitude is hard wired and seems to be beyond the possibility of change.
Selfishness and EGO are just too deeply embedded into people by the time they are adults, its sometimes too much work. Just have to let time pass by and then realize latter like all that happened before. That its good to thank the Universe/God for un-answered prayers.
Friday, September 10, 2010
Sep 10, Friday, 10 years 1st time in NY
Friday, Sep 10 2010
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This was the day, ten years ago, I was first in New Jersey(jersey city) and New York.
Singing What a beautiful day,,,,, :)
Todays forecast ;)
The Moon in Libra trines Neptune and conjuncts Mars tonight, bringing possibilities for romance to the forefront. This is a great opportunity for a date night, as magic is in the air. Falling in love could come easily now and it's easy to get swept off your feet by someone enchanting.
hmmmmm that remains to be seen. will I be able to again meet the gal I had a wonderful time dancing last weekend? She was so sportive and seemed so sincere and down to earth.
Reached work aroun 7:30am. Kind of sems to be a slow day, lets see. I got in a cup of coffee with 3 spoon full of sugar. I am feeling highly charged and optimistic, no one is in the room, its about 8:30. People seem to only come after 9:30 or 10.
now we have a team building lunch set up for every friday afternoon. Self sponsored off course. And no way am I going for sushi or chinese.
Ended up going to Dosa hut and they had the weekend special Hyderabadi Biriyani ,, Dum ka biriyani.... yummyy after such a long time. Last time I had a good biriyani was in Vancouver. Just that this one costed double that of the one in Vancouver. this was 14.30, with tip 16. The biriayani in Vancouvers Al watan was just about 7.89 CAD.
Well this was after such a long time and my first real biriyani in USA.
4:30 got off work, dropped off any at house, went to the bank to see if my visa from them would work in spain. yea,, it turns out that it will. now have to decide on how much Euros I need to take with me.
Around 5:30 get call from malini, was driving back from work. talk for a few then ask her to call after she gets back home to confirm the plan for dinner, she calls back latter and suggests Italian-o. yea well that it is before salsa.
meet at 8pm in downtown, so ask her to call me before she starts from her house. And then we can plan on tomorrows hike.
get to downtown around 8pm. make it to the Italian restaurant. It was BYOB, wow, the first time I am going to a restaurant where they say BYOB. The appetizers were great, the food was okay, also had mussels after a very long time. Used to have that fried at home in kerala... yummyy the friend ones are. ahh now I got it, its called Kal-ma-kai in kerala. as it grows or breads on the rocks. :)
Then out dancing salsa, even thou there were not many people, was able to dance a few with others and malin. Surprisingly evet also turned up there.
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This was the day, ten years ago, I was first in New Jersey(jersey city) and New York.
Singing What a beautiful day,,,,, :)
Todays forecast ;)
The Moon in Libra trines Neptune and conjuncts Mars tonight, bringing possibilities for romance to the forefront. This is a great opportunity for a date night, as magic is in the air. Falling in love could come easily now and it's easy to get swept off your feet by someone enchanting.
hmmmmm that remains to be seen. will I be able to again meet the gal I had a wonderful time dancing last weekend? She was so sportive and seemed so sincere and down to earth.
Reached work aroun 7:30am. Kind of sems to be a slow day, lets see. I got in a cup of coffee with 3 spoon full of sugar. I am feeling highly charged and optimistic, no one is in the room, its about 8:30. People seem to only come after 9:30 or 10.
now we have a team building lunch set up for every friday afternoon. Self sponsored off course. And no way am I going for sushi or chinese.
Ended up going to Dosa hut and they had the weekend special Hyderabadi Biriyani ,, Dum ka biriyani.... yummyy after such a long time. Last time I had a good biriyani was in Vancouver. Just that this one costed double that of the one in Vancouver. this was 14.30, with tip 16. The biriayani in Vancouvers Al watan was just about 7.89 CAD.
Well this was after such a long time and my first real biriyani in USA.
4:30 got off work, dropped off any at house, went to the bank to see if my visa from them would work in spain. yea,, it turns out that it will. now have to decide on how much Euros I need to take with me.
Around 5:30 get call from malini, was driving back from work. talk for a few then ask her to call after she gets back home to confirm the plan for dinner, she calls back latter and suggests Italian-o. yea well that it is before salsa.
meet at 8pm in downtown, so ask her to call me before she starts from her house. And then we can plan on tomorrows hike.
get to downtown around 8pm. make it to the Italian restaurant. It was BYOB, wow, the first time I am going to a restaurant where they say BYOB. The appetizers were great, the food was okay, also had mussels after a very long time. Used to have that fried at home in kerala... yummyy the friend ones are. ahh now I got it, its called Kal-ma-kai in kerala. as it grows or breads on the rocks. :)
Then out dancing salsa, even thou there were not many people, was able to dance a few with others and malin. Surprisingly evet also turned up there.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Sep 09, Thursday,
Thursday, Sep 09 2010
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Woke up with the alarm around 5 with just about 2 hrs sleep, switched off the alarm and went to sleep again. woke up with a startl around 6:35, rushed thru the morning stuff and reached office around 7:10am.
ahhh to mid-week salsa. It really burns you off, the last wonderful music I danced to is still playing in my head. :)))))
Still thinking and moved by Malinis offer of cooking for me or treating me to Hyderabadi Biriyani.
Am I feeling the emotions, because of all the sickening treatment I received and been taken for granted for about an year and made to feel that I am not worth anything by Eva . That it iss making me feel overly-grateful to anyone making even the slightest gestures of kindness?
Well atleast it was a selfless gesture from Malini.
And got a few mails from the program people who are from US. Did not get an opportunity to reply to their mails either.
sweta gets her own ip phone connection to help make test calls and transfer calls.
got demo with Li at 11:30 in the war room,
Checking out salsa in Madrid.\
9:15am Went to dunkin doughnuts and had the small egg what ever and a medium coffee. Sent out a reply mail to malini :)
Wish I could openly and sincerely open up my heart and love again, like I was never hurt before, even at salsa when a few girls told me that they liked and enjoyed dancing with, I just froze up and was not able to talk after that.
IT is kind of frustrating to establish some kind of mysterious connection with people and to get scared and freeze up because of the fresh wounds of the hurt.
As much as I wanted to ignore all the hurt and disrespect and been taken for granted and treated like some kind of filthy creature,,, and tried I did to not hold any grudges or anger and establish friendship. But the more I tried the more I was insulted and treated worse.
How long will it be before I really will be able to free myself of the scars of someone else's sickness towards me?
The more I think of it, the more Chakris words seem to sink into me. My own selfish Happiness matter more. And if I had used this approach before, relationship with Eva would not have crossed the 1st month. :).
The signs were all there, just that I allowed myself to compromise and allowed to be taken for granted all in the name of "benefit of doubt" and the foolish Indian thing of compromise. Which does not work with people who are very self-centered. As they think its their birth right to be treated like queens and princess and others are to be taken for granted.
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Woke up with the alarm around 5 with just about 2 hrs sleep, switched off the alarm and went to sleep again. woke up with a startl around 6:35, rushed thru the morning stuff and reached office around 7:10am.
ahhh to mid-week salsa. It really burns you off, the last wonderful music I danced to is still playing in my head. :)))))
Still thinking and moved by Malinis offer of cooking for me or treating me to Hyderabadi Biriyani.
Am I feeling the emotions, because of all the sickening treatment I received and been taken for granted for about an year and made to feel that I am not worth anything by Eva . That it iss making me feel overly-grateful to anyone making even the slightest gestures of kindness?
Well atleast it was a selfless gesture from Malini.
And got a few mails from the program people who are from US. Did not get an opportunity to reply to their mails either.
sweta gets her own ip phone connection to help make test calls and transfer calls.
got demo with Li at 11:30 in the war room,
Checking out salsa in Madrid.\
9:15am Went to dunkin doughnuts and had the small egg what ever and a medium coffee. Sent out a reply mail to malini :)
Wish I could openly and sincerely open up my heart and love again, like I was never hurt before, even at salsa when a few girls told me that they liked and enjoyed dancing with, I just froze up and was not able to talk after that.
IT is kind of frustrating to establish some kind of mysterious connection with people and to get scared and freeze up because of the fresh wounds of the hurt.
As much as I wanted to ignore all the hurt and disrespect and been taken for granted and treated like some kind of filthy creature,,, and tried I did to not hold any grudges or anger and establish friendship. But the more I tried the more I was insulted and treated worse.
How long will it be before I really will be able to free myself of the scars of someone else's sickness towards me?
The more I think of it, the more Chakris words seem to sink into me. My own selfish Happiness matter more. And if I had used this approach before, relationship with Eva would not have crossed the 1st month. :).
The signs were all there, just that I allowed myself to compromise and allowed to be taken for granted all in the name of "benefit of doubt" and the foolish Indian thing of compromise. Which does not work with people who are very self-centered. As they think its their birth right to be treated like queens and princess and others are to be taken for granted.
Sep 08, lazy day
Wednesday Sep 08 2010
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Woke up lazy and late and reached work around 7:30am,
Kind of slow day.
sweta was online and she seems to log on only around 5 or 6am EST which is around 2:30pm IST. wonder what she is doing during the day time. Then she seems to make one call and then act like she has been working. well what ever,
went for dosa, idly and vada with mirichi baji at Dosa Hut along with Ajay and ano
Then late evening went out salsa dancing.
Was too crowded and did not enjoy much.
Got a mail from malini that she will cook for me meal this weekend or a biryani.... hmmm that is the first time a girl has offered to cook for me. that is touching. If she keeps this sweet and caring behavior up, I might end up falling in love with her. So different and opposite that of previous one.
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Woke up lazy and late and reached work around 7:30am,
Kind of slow day.
sweta was online and she seems to log on only around 5 or 6am EST which is around 2:30pm IST. wonder what she is doing during the day time. Then she seems to make one call and then act like she has been working. well what ever,
went for dosa, idly and vada with mirichi baji at Dosa Hut along with Ajay and ano
Then late evening went out salsa dancing.
Was too crowded and did not enjoy much.
Got a mail from malini that she will cook for me meal this weekend or a biryani.... hmmm that is the first time a girl has offered to cook for me. that is touching. If she keeps this sweet and caring behavior up, I might end up falling in love with her. So different and opposite that of previous one.
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