Thursday, Sep 09 2010
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Woke up with the alarm around 5 with just about 2 hrs sleep, switched off the alarm and went to sleep again. woke up with a startl around 6:35, rushed thru the morning stuff and reached office around 7:10am.
ahhh to mid-week salsa. It really burns you off, the last wonderful music I danced to is still playing in my head. :)))))
Still thinking and moved by Malinis offer of cooking for me or treating me to Hyderabadi Biriyani.
Am I feeling the emotions, because of all the sickening treatment I received and been taken for granted for about an year and made to feel that I am not worth anything by Eva . That it iss making me feel overly-grateful to anyone making even the slightest gestures of kindness?
Well atleast it was a selfless gesture from Malini.
And got a few mails from the program people who are from US. Did not get an opportunity to reply to their mails either.
sweta gets her own ip phone connection to help make test calls and transfer calls.
got demo with Li at 11:30 in the war room,
Checking out salsa in Madrid.\
9:15am Went to dunkin doughnuts and had the small egg what ever and a medium coffee. Sent out a reply mail to malini :)
Wish I could openly and sincerely open up my heart and love again, like I was never hurt before, even at salsa when a few girls told me that they liked and enjoyed dancing with, I just froze up and was not able to talk after that.
IT is kind of frustrating to establish some kind of mysterious connection with people and to get scared and freeze up because of the fresh wounds of the hurt.
As much as I wanted to ignore all the hurt and disrespect and been taken for granted and treated like some kind of filthy creature,,, and tried I did to not hold any grudges or anger and establish friendship. But the more I tried the more I was insulted and treated worse.
How long will it be before I really will be able to free myself of the scars of someone else's sickness towards me?
The more I think of it, the more Chakris words seem to sink into me. My own selfish Happiness matter more. And if I had used this approach before, relationship with Eva would not have crossed the 1st month. :).
The signs were all there, just that I allowed myself to compromise and allowed to be taken for granted all in the name of "benefit of doubt" and the foolish Indian thing of compromise. Which does not work with people who are very self-centered. As they think its their birth right to be treated like queens and princess and others are to be taken for granted.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Sep 08, lazy day
Wednesday Sep 08 2010
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Woke up lazy and late and reached work around 7:30am,
Kind of slow day.
sweta was online and she seems to log on only around 5 or 6am EST which is around 2:30pm IST. wonder what she is doing during the day time. Then she seems to make one call and then act like she has been working. well what ever,
went for dosa, idly and vada with mirichi baji at Dosa Hut along with Ajay and ano
Then late evening went out salsa dancing.
Was too crowded and did not enjoy much.
Got a mail from malini that she will cook for me meal this weekend or a biryani.... hmmm that is the first time a girl has offered to cook for me. that is touching. If she keeps this sweet and caring behavior up, I might end up falling in love with her. So different and opposite that of previous one.
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Woke up lazy and late and reached work around 7:30am,
Kind of slow day.
sweta was online and she seems to log on only around 5 or 6am EST which is around 2:30pm IST. wonder what she is doing during the day time. Then she seems to make one call and then act like she has been working. well what ever,
went for dosa, idly and vada with mirichi baji at Dosa Hut along with Ajay and ano
Then late evening went out salsa dancing.
Was too crowded and did not enjoy much.
Got a mail from malini that she will cook for me meal this weekend or a biryani.... hmmm that is the first time a girl has offered to cook for me. that is touching. If she keeps this sweet and caring behavior up, I might end up falling in love with her. So different and opposite that of previous one.
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Sep 07, End of long weekend
Tuesday, Sep 07 2010
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End of long weekend, still feels like its monday, but its already Tuesday.
Lots of time spend researching the web on Euro trip. Got to meet a few online. Lets see how that friendship develops, with the help of Vaughan.
Need to iron out the issues with booking room in Madrid, seems to have some issue with the credit card. 3 calls so far and no seems to be able to speak good english. got to call back in one hr that is about 10am my time. That will be like 4pm their time wonder who will be there then?
Around 1pm called up my visa company and was told that all transactions in Spain have been blocked. 7 countries have the block cause of excess fraud by the US govt.
Amex seems to work.
Again towards the evening I get a mail saying that they cancelled my booking and so I ended up booking online with the Amex and got the confirmation after a few mins.
So flight and boarding for one night in Madrid all set plus 5 nights at Soria.... The group seems to be having more women than men, lets see I will get lucky in love here. :)
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End of long weekend, still feels like its monday, but its already Tuesday.
Lots of time spend researching the web on Euro trip. Got to meet a few online. Lets see how that friendship develops, with the help of Vaughan.
Need to iron out the issues with booking room in Madrid, seems to have some issue with the credit card. 3 calls so far and no seems to be able to speak good english. got to call back in one hr that is about 10am my time. That will be like 4pm their time wonder who will be there then?
Around 1pm called up my visa company and was told that all transactions in Spain have been blocked. 7 countries have the block cause of excess fraud by the US govt.
Amex seems to work.
Again towards the evening I get a mail saying that they cancelled my booking and so I ended up booking online with the Amex and got the confirmation after a few mins.
So flight and boarding for one night in Madrid all set plus 5 nights at Soria.... The group seems to be having more women than men, lets see I will get lucky in love here. :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
Sep 06, Labour day hike and Indian buffet
Monday, Sep 06 2010
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Its labour day monday, time to head to chestnut hill and join up with about 43 people who signed up for the hike and Indian food..
So is it the Indian food or the Labor day loneliness thats bringing people to this hike. Sidney is going to freak out. hehehe....
phew a great turn out, a few hot chickas too.
The indian place was closed after the hike and so was other indian restaurants,,,, ended up in whole foods and was not that appitizing to eat pasta.
Got back home by 3pm. ohh well, lets see what salsa at Vango holds for me. maybe I will be there early around 8pm today.
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Its labour day monday, time to head to chestnut hill and join up with about 43 people who signed up for the hike and Indian food..
So is it the Indian food or the Labor day loneliness thats bringing people to this hike. Sidney is going to freak out. hehehe....
phew a great turn out, a few hot chickas too.
The indian place was closed after the hike and so was other indian restaurants,,,, ended up in whole foods and was not that appitizing to eat pasta.
Got back home by 3pm. ohh well, lets see what salsa at Vango holds for me. maybe I will be there early around 8pm today.
Sunday, September 5, 2010
Sep 05, Sun Day for myself.
Sunday, 05 of Sep 2010
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Woke up really slowly thinking of things to do. Do I go for a hike of focus on organizing my life and home.
@8:45 decided to stay at home and forget the hike in potts town, maybe go for the hike and Indian food tomorrow.
Started cooking the Chicken curry. need to get milk and to Costco it is.
need to check out the code that ashi helped fix and put it into the server.
cooking felt great with the salsa music playing..... that was a first time.
After costco went to the patel shop and got grated coconunt and a few snacks to eat. Should I take it to europe? 25 days to the trip.. yeaaa
Had lunch around 4pm, watched the Labour day canadian football between Saskatch and winnipeg... winnipeg lost for the 6th year.
Around 7 went to wal mart to check out the back packs. was not really impressed by them. Might as well use my roots bag with shoulder straps.
tempted to book the Euro building. seems logical and better suited, with breakfast thrown in.
Did some reading of the Spanish History. Inteesting to note that the Muslim kingdoms ruled Spain and had their presence till the 1400's
No wonder most of the spanish people have the middle eastern features.
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Woke up really slowly thinking of things to do. Do I go for a hike of focus on organizing my life and home.
@8:45 decided to stay at home and forget the hike in potts town, maybe go for the hike and Indian food tomorrow.
Started cooking the Chicken curry. need to get milk and to Costco it is.
need to check out the code that ashi helped fix and put it into the server.
cooking felt great with the salsa music playing..... that was a first time.
After costco went to the patel shop and got grated coconunt and a few snacks to eat. Should I take it to europe? 25 days to the trip.. yeaaa
Had lunch around 4pm, watched the Labour day canadian football between Saskatch and winnipeg... winnipeg lost for the 6th year.
Around 7 went to wal mart to check out the back packs. was not really impressed by them. Might as well use my roots bag with shoulder straps.
tempted to book the Euro building. seems logical and better suited, with breakfast thrown in.
Did some reading of the Spanish History. Inteesting to note that the Muslim kingdoms ruled Spain and had their presence till the 1400's
No wonder most of the spanish people have the middle eastern features.
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Sep 04, Sat, flight booked
Saturday, 04 Sep 2010
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Got home around 2:30 and went to sleep around 3:30am, What a night, slowly able to open myself and able to feel the connection with others. jena was on to me, she is the gal from monday salsa.
Then there was this amazing connection with another gal, I never got her name in the loud noise, as we were getting to chat, some other guy comes and asks her to dance, she seemed reluctant to go and was touched my the expression on her face, "don't go, I will be back soon". And like a scared fool, I just walked away to the bar and had a beer. Guess I am still scared to connect and open up on the dance floor.
Booked flight to Madrid for the Friday of Oct 1 friday and return on Oct 17sunday.
Glad that there is a direct flight from PHL to MAD, just about 7.5 hrs. :)
Off to downtown Philly for some culture and US history.
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Got home around 2:30 and went to sleep around 3:30am, What a night, slowly able to open myself and able to feel the connection with others. jena was on to me, she is the gal from monday salsa.
Then there was this amazing connection with another gal, I never got her name in the loud noise, as we were getting to chat, some other guy comes and asks her to dance, she seemed reluctant to go and was touched my the expression on her face, "don't go, I will be back soon". And like a scared fool, I just walked away to the bar and had a beer. Guess I am still scared to connect and open up on the dance floor.
Booked flight to Madrid for the Friday of Oct 1 friday and return on Oct 17sunday.
Glad that there is a direct flight from PHL to MAD, just about 7.5 hrs. :)
Off to downtown Philly for some culture and US history.
Friday, September 3, 2010
Sep 03, Friday
Friday , Sep 03 2o10
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made it to work by 7:10am.
got on to the last of the KT knowledge transfers... the parking lot was almost very empty,, long weekend syndrome.
Gave sweta a lecture on using the infrastructure at her disposal and how fortunate she is to have the hardware at her disposal. As again today she just logged on around 7pm EST, thats like 4:30pm IST, just before I came.... well upto her.
was wondering what she did from 9am to 4:30pm.
Got back to trying to solve the issue with the bug. but realized that my comp was just 40 GB hdd and 1 gb ram. when I compared it to the 160 GB and 4GB ram the others were having.
I had just 2GB of free disk space, send Ajit the message and he asked me to go to the PC station.. around 1:30 I went to the PC station only to be told that I have the max gigs for that model and that I would need a newer comp model. And that they are no longer giving it out as they have a budget freeze.
And if my unit has the budget they need to buy it and they would do the necessary imaging of the comps.
Was using Ashis m/c which was flying compared to mine. ahhh even the lap top i brought a year ago has 4gB ram and 500GB hdd. grrrr which freaking world are these people living in, after all the money they steal from poor sick people with their inflated costs for the drugs.
Ashis starts working at de=bugging my issue, as my comp ended up getting only .5 MB ,, not GB memory remaing after they give me 2GB or extra RAM.
So was transfering files to network servers to store.
Ashis fixes the issue and then we were all set to go.....
sent myself the enhanced code.
And then with all kinds of discussion and insecurity of the job and roles been thrown around,, with the new guy Anoy been told that he is no longer required in the project,,, and then rajan been also been hinted at that by bach ,,, it was really a mad house,,, I am glad that I am not in aji's place to handle all these indian pshycos.
got out with everyone leaving about 5pm with the code to modified soon.. tested it on ashis m/c and it seems to work fine.
got home and called up Malini and we had a very funny talk.. lets see if she makes it to Salsa tonite.
She is such a princess.. well she sure seems to be born and brought up as one.. and she is doing a good job at living on her own. Not the way I would like to live,, as I am more a guy who lives with the minimum of luxury and requirements. That is something that made me love eva as she did not have much of a luxury requirement for living.
Thou Mali seems down to earth and did not seem to have lot of make up on, she is still someone who is used to a lot of luxury and staying only in the best hotels in the world.... not someone like EVA who can just about adjust to any place and live. but again Mali seems to be more in control of herself, in great control of her emotions and able to hold a very intelligent and mature conversation with every one.
Ahhhhh thats life..... as much as her princess y upbringing turns me off, her trying to live her life on her own seems to impress me.
well if she makes it to salsa tonite fine, or I am anyways going,, already drunk on two shots of whiskey and coke....
yeaaaa its 8pm and I am going to get ready and drive off for some hot salsa..
Best news came from Vaughn for the Oct3 to oct8.. yeaaaaa Jumping with happienss
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made it to work by 7:10am.
got on to the last of the KT knowledge transfers... the parking lot was almost very empty,, long weekend syndrome.
Gave sweta a lecture on using the infrastructure at her disposal and how fortunate she is to have the hardware at her disposal. As again today she just logged on around 7pm EST, thats like 4:30pm IST, just before I came.... well upto her.
was wondering what she did from 9am to 4:30pm.
Got back to trying to solve the issue with the bug. but realized that my comp was just 40 GB hdd and 1 gb ram. when I compared it to the 160 GB and 4GB ram the others were having.
I had just 2GB of free disk space, send Ajit the message and he asked me to go to the PC station.. around 1:30 I went to the PC station only to be told that I have the max gigs for that model and that I would need a newer comp model. And that they are no longer giving it out as they have a budget freeze.
And if my unit has the budget they need to buy it and they would do the necessary imaging of the comps.
Was using Ashis m/c which was flying compared to mine. ahhh even the lap top i brought a year ago has 4gB ram and 500GB hdd. grrrr which freaking world are these people living in, after all the money they steal from poor sick people with their inflated costs for the drugs.
Ashis starts working at de=bugging my issue, as my comp ended up getting only .5 MB ,, not GB memory remaing after they give me 2GB or extra RAM.
So was transfering files to network servers to store.
Ashis fixes the issue and then we were all set to go.....
sent myself the enhanced code.
And then with all kinds of discussion and insecurity of the job and roles been thrown around,, with the new guy Anoy been told that he is no longer required in the project,,, and then rajan been also been hinted at that by bach ,,, it was really a mad house,,, I am glad that I am not in aji's place to handle all these indian pshycos.
got out with everyone leaving about 5pm with the code to modified soon.. tested it on ashis m/c and it seems to work fine.
got home and called up Malini and we had a very funny talk.. lets see if she makes it to Salsa tonite.
She is such a princess.. well she sure seems to be born and brought up as one.. and she is doing a good job at living on her own. Not the way I would like to live,, as I am more a guy who lives with the minimum of luxury and requirements. That is something that made me love eva as she did not have much of a luxury requirement for living.
Thou Mali seems down to earth and did not seem to have lot of make up on, she is still someone who is used to a lot of luxury and staying only in the best hotels in the world.... not someone like EVA who can just about adjust to any place and live. but again Mali seems to be more in control of herself, in great control of her emotions and able to hold a very intelligent and mature conversation with every one.
Ahhhhh thats life..... as much as her princess y upbringing turns me off, her trying to live her life on her own seems to impress me.
well if she makes it to salsa tonite fine, or I am anyways going,, already drunk on two shots of whiskey and coke....
yeaaaa its 8pm and I am going to get ready and drive off for some hot salsa..
Best news came from Vaughn for the Oct3 to oct8.. yeaaaaa Jumping with happienss
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