Wednesday Aug 11 2010
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Woke up early by 5 and was ready to go by 6:45am. It was good running briefly yesterday night. Should try to do that consistently.
Got to the conf meeting, tried to understand what was requ for the off shore connectivity.
Raised Help desk tickets to create new account and access for her.
Got a mail back from Aji saying that it will be 2 days before the details of remote desk would be known.
10 to 11 status meeting.
Got msg from Dept of Labor regarding my case, by Agnes. She is so nice, such a heart warmer. Guess I am going to feel like that every time some gal talks nicely to me.
Was supposed to have a farewel party for Dharmesh,, got put off again. So back to home for lunch, had puli-hara (tamarind rice) from the temple. yummm and simple with yogurt.
Then called up Evi , she was some where near to Guntakal. hmmm was not able to hear properly with the guy sitting besides her yelling.
Was able to connect with Agnes around 2pm and talk with her. Said she entered the complaint and things should move from there. Fingers crossed.
Did the Brain Bench on Testing and passed that too.. cheers
Thinking on doing PMP just like Anil
Talked to him towards the evening trying to figure out the best credit card to apply for.
3 to 4 defect meeting
out of work by 5:45pm
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
Aug 10 Tuesday, Thinking of Dallas trip
Tuesday, 10 Aug 2010
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Woke up around 4am and lay there trying to think of future plan.
Have to be at work much before 7 am conf call as now I have someone else on my team. got to work by 6:55am and was the 1st on the call.
Its almost 10 years since Anil came to see me off at the Mumbai Airport. After that hes been to UK and Europe and then settled down in Dallas with wife and kids. Thinking of going and visiting him during the 20th weekend.
around 10am drove Anoy to the SSN office. Called up and talked with Narayan and Anil.
then dove Anoy to the Merck medical/id center to get his Id.
Dropped him off at work and went home for lunch that I got on Sunday from the Temple. Had it and called up Eva, she was already on the train to Bangalore.
Talked to her for a few mins.
Status meeting @4 to 5 then got back to try and help Ashi with the status report.
REached home after 7, dropped off Anoy on the way to his apartment.
Got reading the John grisham book and munching the potato chips. Did not feel hungry after that, had the last of the grapes.
Forwarded the details of my Dallas trip to Anil.woooo will be meeting exaclty after 10 years,, last time we saw each other was at the Mumbai airport.. Aug-20-2000. and now it will be Aug-20-2010....
Went for a run around 9pm.... sun seems to set early now.
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Woke up around 4am and lay there trying to think of future plan.
Have to be at work much before 7 am conf call as now I have someone else on my team. got to work by 6:55am and was the 1st on the call.
Its almost 10 years since Anil came to see me off at the Mumbai Airport. After that hes been to UK and Europe and then settled down in Dallas with wife and kids. Thinking of going and visiting him during the 20th weekend.
around 10am drove Anoy to the SSN office. Called up and talked with Narayan and Anil.
then dove Anoy to the Merck medical/id center to get his Id.
Dropped him off at work and went home for lunch that I got on Sunday from the Temple. Had it and called up Eva, she was already on the train to Bangalore.
Talked to her for a few mins.
Status meeting @4 to 5 then got back to try and help Ashi with the status report.
REached home after 7, dropped off Anoy on the way to his apartment.
Got reading the John grisham book and munching the potato chips. Did not feel hungry after that, had the last of the grapes.
Forwarded the details of my Dallas trip to Anil.woooo will be meeting exaclty after 10 years,, last time we saw each other was at the Mumbai airport.. Aug-20-2000. and now it will be Aug-20-2010....
Went for a run around 9pm.... sun seems to set early now.
Monday, August 9, 2010
Aug 09 new Team memeber in Bangalore
Monday, Aug 09 2010
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Was too lazy to get up with no motivation. But made it to work Conf meeting around 7:10am
Shwetha the new member of my team was on the call and was introduced to the team, seems to be having issues with setting up the connection to Merck network.
Called up e after the meeting and she was at Punithas place, her last night at Ahmadabad. Asked to call after 2 hrs.
Wish she would have come to US than go to Bangalore. Well thats the choice she made.
Feeling much better emotionally after going to the temple and hope this positive feeling continues and brings about a more peaceful feeling to my life and that of my family and the few dearest close friends.
Was supposed to have meeting with Ajit and he cancelled at the last minute. Was hoping to talk to him about Europe trip.
got back home early around 5:30pm. Then decided to relax with the book. And on a vauge whim decided to have a drink, peter scott was the choice. poured a shot, put in a glass full of ice and topped it with water, felt smooth drinking it.
Was contemplating going for salsa after sun down and decided to lay down and rest..... woke up around 1am and saw that I just had 1/4th of the glass of whisky i poured myself. Put in the fridge and went to the bedroom to sleep.
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Was too lazy to get up with no motivation. But made it to work Conf meeting around 7:10am
Shwetha the new member of my team was on the call and was introduced to the team, seems to be having issues with setting up the connection to Merck network.
Called up e after the meeting and she was at Punithas place, her last night at Ahmadabad. Asked to call after 2 hrs.
Wish she would have come to US than go to Bangalore. Well thats the choice she made.
Feeling much better emotionally after going to the temple and hope this positive feeling continues and brings about a more peaceful feeling to my life and that of my family and the few dearest close friends.
Was supposed to have meeting with Ajit and he cancelled at the last minute. Was hoping to talk to him about Europe trip.
got back home early around 5:30pm. Then decided to relax with the book. And on a vauge whim decided to have a drink, peter scott was the choice. poured a shot, put in a glass full of ice and topped it with water, felt smooth drinking it.
Was contemplating going for salsa after sun down and decided to lay down and rest..... woke up around 1am and saw that I just had 1/4th of the glass of whisky i poured myself. Put in the fridge and went to the bedroom to sleep.
Sunday, August 8, 2010
Aug 08 Sunday, hike
Sunday, Aug 08 2010
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up and out of bed by 6:30am.... got working on the laundry after my daily routine.
Got the Chicken curry out of the freezer and had it with whole grain rotis made in mexico, but called as something else here... Tortillas.
need to complete the other 4 tests on Brain bench as part of mid year appraisal. maybe after I go to the Venkateshwara temple in the evening after the hike.
Time to hyderate myself for the Hike. 32 people signed up for this one in NJ border.
lets see how the group dynamics is this time. There is one gal from the Mid-west Ohio, lets see if she is like the other great mid-west people I got to meet, down to earth, warm and friendly.
Atleast she made it clear that she loves dogs last time I saw her. She looked nerdy and down to earth and smart. The kind I always like to hang out with and have a good conversation and simulate my intellect. Someone who can make me think.
fingers crossed there.
Reached the parking for hiking around 10:15 and was hoping to make some phone calls to india. was only able to call up home on the way @ 9:30am and the connection was really bad.
After reaching there was not able to make the calls as there were others there and ended up talking to them.
The drive was sweet and awesome, driving thru small country side of US that I usually don't get to see, the farm lands, the beautiful scenery was breath taking and heart touching. I could have spent my day just driving around those country roads.
The hike was great as we just walked thru the partially dry stream. Was like the hike in Zion canyon. And this one was walking on rocks. After sometime I took off my half shoes and walked bare feet. People seem so shocked to see someone walk without shoes on.
Got back to the parking and then a few us went to the nearest little town and had lunch. There was Bombay sandwich, basically they just spread turmeric on the chicken and called it curry. ahhh grrrrr.. These people have no idea of what a curry is.
Then after the lunch, I split and drove to New Jersey to the Venkateshwara temple. Prayed and mediated for some time.
Saw one gal speaking Tamil with a kind of Malu ascent ,, must be from Palagat. She looked so typical Malu (rather close). The long dark hairs upto the bum, the sweet innocent looking enchanting smile. Ahhh not sure if I should consider myself lucky to not having met single gals or unlucky. For sure my heart would start skipping a beat every time I seem the loveliness of a Malu gal. They are the worlds best and the best kept secret. :)
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up and out of bed by 6:30am.... got working on the laundry after my daily routine.
Got the Chicken curry out of the freezer and had it with whole grain rotis made in mexico, but called as something else here... Tortillas.
need to complete the other 4 tests on Brain bench as part of mid year appraisal. maybe after I go to the Venkateshwara temple in the evening after the hike.
Time to hyderate myself for the Hike. 32 people signed up for this one in NJ border.
lets see how the group dynamics is this time. There is one gal from the Mid-west Ohio, lets see if she is like the other great mid-west people I got to meet, down to earth, warm and friendly.
Atleast she made it clear that she loves dogs last time I saw her. She looked nerdy and down to earth and smart. The kind I always like to hang out with and have a good conversation and simulate my intellect. Someone who can make me think.
fingers crossed there.
Reached the parking for hiking around 10:15 and was hoping to make some phone calls to india. was only able to call up home on the way @ 9:30am and the connection was really bad.
After reaching there was not able to make the calls as there were others there and ended up talking to them.
The drive was sweet and awesome, driving thru small country side of US that I usually don't get to see, the farm lands, the beautiful scenery was breath taking and heart touching. I could have spent my day just driving around those country roads.
The hike was great as we just walked thru the partially dry stream. Was like the hike in Zion canyon. And this one was walking on rocks. After sometime I took off my half shoes and walked bare feet. People seem so shocked to see someone walk without shoes on.
Got back to the parking and then a few us went to the nearest little town and had lunch. There was Bombay sandwich, basically they just spread turmeric on the chicken and called it curry. ahhh grrrrr.. These people have no idea of what a curry is.
Then after the lunch, I split and drove to New Jersey to the Venkateshwara temple. Prayed and mediated for some time.
Saw one gal speaking Tamil with a kind of Malu ascent ,, must be from Palagat. She looked so typical Malu (rather close). The long dark hairs upto the bum, the sweet innocent looking enchanting smile. Ahhh not sure if I should consider myself lucky to not having met single gals or unlucky. For sure my heart would start skipping a beat every time I seem the loveliness of a Malu gal. They are the worlds best and the best kept secret. :)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Aug 07 2010 Sat JFK airport and Parrispany NJ
Sat Aug 07 2010
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Woke up with a stress out sleep for the pressure of having to wake up early to drop Kris to JKF. Was in fact waking up every one hr. Then woke up at 5am with the call from kris. Reached his house around 6:15am. started off around 6:35 and reached JFK around 9am. Tolls of about 20 plus dollars one way, gas about 34 dollars.
Waited for his call of having cleared Check in and appropriate baggage. After getting his call, started off via brooklyn , cross-town manhattan and passed by empire state building. Wooooo the chicks in NY really know how to flaunt their assets.
Reached Narayans place around 10:15am. When shopping for a colon for him as gift for his birthday. :) And brought myself another one. The gal at the cash register was really nice and kind to gift warp it for free and she did a great job at it.
Narayan kind of screwed it up a bit by focusing on the cost and bitching that its too costly a gift and cannot take it and I have to virtually kick him in the back to make him stop bitching about the cost and JUST ENJOY the GIFT.
Told him this is just a token and I still owe him big time for all the help he so unselfishly did for me.
I should really count myself lucky to have such a nice friend.
Had dinner at his place, watched Singh is King in the afternoon and took off around 6:30pm reached home around 8:45pm.
Was thinking again about E and all the things that had happened. The more I feel that I had just fooled myself into thinking that she had some sense of loyalty and had some character, but she is as I had told Amit, a gal who is destined to be jumping from one guy to another, rather have guys as the flavor of the month. So different from what her parents are as people.
And again thinking of the song that guy sang and thanked god for the WISHES HE DID NOT GRANT..... Thank you god for taking care of me too and for the WISHES YOU DID NOT GRANT.
Should I go for tomorrows hike or not????? hmmm tempting... lets see... now for a shot of Vodka and Canberry juice. :)
And that did not happen. rather decided to relax reading a book :) wise choice. And that would make it easier for me to go hiking tomorow :)
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Woke up with a stress out sleep for the pressure of having to wake up early to drop Kris to JKF. Was in fact waking up every one hr. Then woke up at 5am with the call from kris. Reached his house around 6:15am. started off around 6:35 and reached JFK around 9am. Tolls of about 20 plus dollars one way, gas about 34 dollars.
Waited for his call of having cleared Check in and appropriate baggage. After getting his call, started off via brooklyn , cross-town manhattan and passed by empire state building. Wooooo the chicks in NY really know how to flaunt their assets.
Reached Narayans place around 10:15am. When shopping for a colon for him as gift for his birthday. :) And brought myself another one. The gal at the cash register was really nice and kind to gift warp it for free and she did a great job at it.
Narayan kind of screwed it up a bit by focusing on the cost and bitching that its too costly a gift and cannot take it and I have to virtually kick him in the back to make him stop bitching about the cost and JUST ENJOY the GIFT.
Told him this is just a token and I still owe him big time for all the help he so unselfishly did for me.
I should really count myself lucky to have such a nice friend.
Had dinner at his place, watched Singh is King in the afternoon and took off around 6:30pm reached home around 8:45pm.
Was thinking again about E and all the things that had happened. The more I feel that I had just fooled myself into thinking that she had some sense of loyalty and had some character, but she is as I had told Amit, a gal who is destined to be jumping from one guy to another, rather have guys as the flavor of the month. So different from what her parents are as people.
And again thinking of the song that guy sang and thanked god for the WISHES HE DID NOT GRANT..... Thank you god for taking care of me too and for the WISHES YOU DID NOT GRANT.
Should I go for tomorrows hike or not????? hmmm tempting... lets see... now for a shot of Vodka and Canberry juice. :)
And that did not happen. rather decided to relax reading a book :) wise choice. And that would make it easier for me to go hiking tomorow :)
Friday, August 6, 2010
Aug 06 Friday Dept of Labour
Friday, Aug 06-2010
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Aug 05, Thu, moms birthday
Wednesday, Aug 05 2010
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
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