Sat Aug 07 2010
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Woke up with a stress out sleep for the pressure of having to wake up early to drop Kris to JKF. Was in fact waking up every one hr. Then woke up at 5am with the call from kris. Reached his house around 6:15am. started off around 6:35 and reached JFK around 9am. Tolls of about 20 plus dollars one way, gas about 34 dollars.
Waited for his call of having cleared Check in and appropriate baggage. After getting his call, started off via brooklyn , cross-town manhattan and passed by empire state building. Wooooo the chicks in NY really know how to flaunt their assets.
Reached Narayans place around 10:15am. When shopping for a colon for him as gift for his birthday. :) And brought myself another one. The gal at the cash register was really nice and kind to gift warp it for free and she did a great job at it.
Narayan kind of screwed it up a bit by focusing on the cost and bitching that its too costly a gift and cannot take it and I have to virtually kick him in the back to make him stop bitching about the cost and JUST ENJOY the GIFT.
Told him this is just a token and I still owe him big time for all the help he so unselfishly did for me.
I should really count myself lucky to have such a nice friend.
Had dinner at his place, watched Singh is King in the afternoon and took off around 6:30pm reached home around 8:45pm.
Was thinking again about E and all the things that had happened. The more I feel that I had just fooled myself into thinking that she had some sense of loyalty and had some character, but she is as I had told Amit, a gal who is destined to be jumping from one guy to another, rather have guys as the flavor of the month. So different from what her parents are as people.
And again thinking of the song that guy sang and thanked god for the WISHES HE DID NOT GRANT..... Thank you god for taking care of me too and for the WISHES YOU DID NOT GRANT.
Should I go for tomorrows hike or not????? hmmm tempting... lets see... now for a shot of Vodka and Canberry juice. :)
And that did not happen. rather decided to relax reading a book :) wise choice. And that would make it easier for me to go hiking tomorow :)
Saturday, August 7, 2010
Friday, August 6, 2010
Aug 06 Friday Dept of Labour
Friday, Aug 06-2010
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
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Up late, kind of feel tired from yesterday. And have been getting cramps since I went for the fast run a few days ago. Another reason (excuse) for not going for a run yesterday evening.
Posted the masala piece on Evas blog. not sure how much of that she will use of find useful or she would think that other people have better suggestion about that than me. Its such a cliche thing, to not give importance to the words of people who are close but rather go for the words of someone new.
Is it because we already have a preconceived judgment about the people who are close to us and that prevents us from opening up and seeing beyond the reality of our own colored glasses?
Got to work late after sending mail to tara, poor girl, been ignoring her mostly because I did not have anything planned to do. Been going on impulse at the last moment to the hikes. Shes been asking to go for salsa. This weekend need to go drop Kris off at JFK (start at 5am from Philly) and then go Narayans place for the weekend celebrations of his birthday.... So no salsa this week.
Still feeling home sick and kind of happy with the news of 15 days paid off by the client due to year end shut down. That should give me lots to go and celebrate back home after 4 to 5 years...... And who knows if parents have a good gal for me, then get married.
Giving up on finding love on my own. The last with EVA, it was my last shot at it. And it ended up in me totally loosing faith in people and love. Been taken for granted and treated worse than the worst. All because she wanted to maker herself believe that she is doing the right thing by dumping me and for falling for Amit. Who just kooly turned her down and even went on to the extend of telling me that he did not find her attractive at all, neither physically nor emotionally.
Well he does not see what I see in her.
And she chooses to see in me what ever she wants to conveniently believe so that she does not feel guilty for her own actions.
Life goes on. Atleast I can rest and be assured in my own conscious that I tried like no man has ever tried.
After that feeling of been insulted and taken for granted and treated so sickenly, even the slightest gesture of kindness of even a fleeting smile from a lady passing by makes me feel appreciated.
That’s how low I have gone in terms of screwing up my own human dignity.
I just pray to god that he never plays this cruel trick with anyone. Please.
Or maybe there is a higher reason. Was listening to a country music station where a guy sings about meeting his school time crush when he was with his wife. Looking back he used to pray to god every night to help, make her his. But now he thanks god for all the wishes he DID NOT GRANT.
Time will reveal the future.
Atleast I am glad, that I did not end up marrying the girls I used be in love and used to pray really hard to god to be married to them. But now when I look back at that, I feel like thanking god for NOT granting my wish.
That song yesterday evening with the lovely clear sky sunset. Was really touching and deeply moving.
Back to working on the Dept of Labor documents and having it scanned. to be sent to DOL new York and Virginia states..
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Aug 05, Thu, moms birthday
Wednesday, Aug 05 2010
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
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woke up lazy as hell, body needing more rest after two days of different work out and reading the novel well into the night.
Made it to work by 7 in time for Conf with India.
Around 8 called up Home to wish mom on her Birth day, ended up talking with dad and got to know that mom had gone to the neighboring house of her cousin. Rather her Grand dads house.
So called them up and talked with cousin sreji and spooked her by changing my voice and asking personal family questions. She as ever the one who never takes things laying down, got agressive and abusive to what she thought was a crank call. hehehe, it was nice to see she still had that live wire spirit.
And then she turned to the sweet person she is and wanted to know when I was coming to get married.
Latter, talked with me mom and wished her. :)
Feeling home sick now ahhh
11:45 completed Project Management Test using Brainbench. got 3.25 , 5 down, 4 more to go.
Need to buy a gift for Narayan for his Birthday, planning on visiting him on sat and then have to go to temple too..... long time.
Ahhh how I wish that I could just go back home and visit all the family, just visit, no pressure to marry or anything like that.
Afternoon return back for lunch. was supposed to go with a few guys, then I opted out as there was not enough space for 6 guys in muralis new car.
Tried calling Eva a few times, did not pick up the phone.. well must be busy or must be delibrately doing it as its part of her culture and life to ignore people who care. But will always complain about how other people are so bad and how different its in her own culture, coming from someone who has no clue as to what her own culture is. Maybe that is the problem with most of the western people, they did not grow up with information and knowledge of their own culture and are always looking at other peoples culture and finding it fascinating. Thou she grew up at the same place for more than 25 years, never heard her say that she had a friend in her own neighborhood. Thats such a sad thing.
Around afternoon tested the Associate ph # button with the older version I took a back up with. worked on my machine but not on server.
4pm Then was brain storming and bach said Ajy had the similar problem and it was related to the new patch of software that was causing it.
Pinged ajy on the chat and he told me the remdy, after that it seems to work.
Checked out the proj, made modification and then checked back in. yeaaa thats another issues down. out at 7:30pm,, phew really did some work today.
In between 1pm and 3pm when others were out ended up calling the Dept of labour to complain about the non-payment of wages when I worked in NY. Tried the NY no and got thru to a sweet and caring sounding lady Agnes , wow, she was so nice and telling me so many things, I would have asked her to marry me.
Then she said that since my employer is based in VA state, I should try to call them up and complain, Then she gave me her direct phone number. waaaawu. I am so impressed by her.
Started a series of calls, from one dept to another and in the end reached the LAbour law dept. Who guided me to go and fill up a form from their web site. Was filling up the form when I noticed that they do not handle cases where the contract was performed out side VA state. bummer. so called up Agnes again she gave me her email and asked me to send her the documents.
8pm went for a ride to Khols to check out the shop, then to Ross and then to Wall mart. back home and crashed on the bed.
woke up around 10:30pm and cooked long sting beans with turmeric powder and meat masala. yummy..
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
Aug 04 ,, day of meeting and presentation
Wednesday Aug 04 2010
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Woke up around 4 and was tossing and truning. did not feel like getting up even after the alarm went off at 5am. But after saying oooommm namaaaa shivya just pushed myself out of bed at 5:30am.
Day of making presentation to client team about CTI. not sure what their objective is. its been about 4 months and I have not done any real productive work that I am used to doing usually. And now we have got another girl in Bangalore that is going to join the team next week.
So the troubling question in my mind is whats really happening, I don't have enough to that makes me fee justified for the salaray I am paid. what is the idea of having another person in.
Will it be just knowledge transfer and then I get moved to some other project in some other place, with they were transprant about their plans, So that even I can mentally prepare myself for any change in location and Client.
7:05am made it to the conf, damm they started on time before me.
Saw eva online, sent her a msg and then she puts her status to Busy with out even replying.. hehehe its so strange or is it just human tendency to claim all kinds of Culture and then critizing others and then do things that are not considered as good culture..... Guess some people use Culture as an excuse. And Eva is a person who is so far from practicing her own culture, does not even know to cook the traditional food of Czech and her mom had to tell us that there are Traditional authentic Czech food. So she is person like many who use the story line of "in my Culture" for her own convinence and to manipulate to get her own things done or to impose her will.
Well thats another reason i think I am not the best ambasador of my own culture either. Atleast I keep the core values of living and know to cook some Malu food. :)
It was strange to get two msgs from Malini in one day. Seems to be going thru something. Most likely because her parents are here and she is counting the days towards their leaving by next week. Not sure if its in a good way or bad. Not sure if she is close to her parents or dad or mom.
Last yeat it was with Eva and her parents. It was nice to meet them. Thou going to Czech would mean that we would need a translator to communicate. And going by what Eva seems to say, not sure if she will be there. Well I will just go by the flow if she is not there, then I will just go to other places to explore on my own.
Life is too short to waste much on other people who maybe having their own agenda and plans. :)
had meeting with clients around 11:30 ,, was not bad as I thought and got to know more about their plans going forward. More focus seems to be to strengthen the off shore team and have one point of contact here who can take care of both Avaya and Siebel.
Now thinking about it, looks like Mat can be the point of contact for cts and then the girl in bangalore can easily take over and do what ever is required to do at the siebel end.
Got home, and then started reading the novel from John Grisham, "Summons". Wanted to go for a run. But wanted to do that around 9pm.
By then I was feeling a bit lethargic and was only able to motivate myself to go to the gym and do some fast cycling. well something is better than nothing.
Got back home and heated the rice and chicken curry. Wanted to make some beans fry. maybe tomorrow.
Again off to bed with the book.... passed out somewhere in between. Ahh its be so long since I read my last novel. Should start getting into it, now that I am trying to live with out a TV. Can seen the huge 50 inch ples HD TVs thru the windows of my other neighbors. The images are so clear even at the very distant that I am in. wow to technology.
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Woke up around 4 and was tossing and truning. did not feel like getting up even after the alarm went off at 5am. But after saying oooommm namaaaa shivya just pushed myself out of bed at 5:30am.
Day of making presentation to client team about CTI. not sure what their objective is. its been about 4 months and I have not done any real productive work that I am used to doing usually. And now we have got another girl in Bangalore that is going to join the team next week.
So the troubling question in my mind is whats really happening, I don't have enough to that makes me fee justified for the salaray I am paid. what is the idea of having another person in.
Will it be just knowledge transfer and then I get moved to some other project in some other place, with they were transprant about their plans, So that even I can mentally prepare myself for any change in location and Client.
7:05am made it to the conf, damm they started on time before me.
Saw eva online, sent her a msg and then she puts her status to Busy with out even replying.. hehehe its so strange or is it just human tendency to claim all kinds of Culture and then critizing others and then do things that are not considered as good culture..... Guess some people use Culture as an excuse. And Eva is a person who is so far from practicing her own culture, does not even know to cook the traditional food of Czech and her mom had to tell us that there are Traditional authentic Czech food. So she is person like many who use the story line of "in my Culture" for her own convinence and to manipulate to get her own things done or to impose her will.
Well thats another reason i think I am not the best ambasador of my own culture either. Atleast I keep the core values of living and know to cook some Malu food. :)
It was strange to get two msgs from Malini in one day. Seems to be going thru something. Most likely because her parents are here and she is counting the days towards their leaving by next week. Not sure if its in a good way or bad. Not sure if she is close to her parents or dad or mom.
Last yeat it was with Eva and her parents. It was nice to meet them. Thou going to Czech would mean that we would need a translator to communicate. And going by what Eva seems to say, not sure if she will be there. Well I will just go by the flow if she is not there, then I will just go to other places to explore on my own.
Life is too short to waste much on other people who maybe having their own agenda and plans. :)
had meeting with clients around 11:30 ,, was not bad as I thought and got to know more about their plans going forward. More focus seems to be to strengthen the off shore team and have one point of contact here who can take care of both Avaya and Siebel.
Now thinking about it, looks like Mat can be the point of contact for cts and then the girl in bangalore can easily take over and do what ever is required to do at the siebel end.
Got home, and then started reading the novel from John Grisham, "Summons". Wanted to go for a run. But wanted to do that around 9pm.
By then I was feeling a bit lethargic and was only able to motivate myself to go to the gym and do some fast cycling. well something is better than nothing.
Got back home and heated the rice and chicken curry. Wanted to make some beans fry. maybe tomorrow.
Again off to bed with the book.... passed out somewhere in between. Ahh its be so long since I read my last novel. Should start getting into it, now that I am trying to live with out a TV. Can seen the huge 50 inch ples HD TVs thru the windows of my other neighbors. The images are so clear even at the very distant that I am in. wow to technology.
Tuesday, August 3, 2010
Aug 03 Tuesday,, need to send out damage claims
Tuesday, Aug 03 2010
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Narayans birthday, got to call him soon.
Need to send the damage to the moving company,
Call Dept of LAbour against Apex - 2000 for not giving me my 2 weeks salary.
okay,,,get moving...
Go to see that Soile just got married. She is the sweetest and the best. So sincere that any guy would just want to marry her.
Read the long blog of Eva, seems to have spent a lot of time today to about finish up with the Travel stories.
Did not seem interested in reply to my msgs.
Thats ok, thats how she is, thou she seems to put in all kinds of great quotes from great people, it all does not seem to get into her deeply. More of her own immaturity and superficiality. Which is not something new.
How does depth come into people. IS is only when they are really hurt deeply? or if they have the sincerity to be true to themslves? She seems to be a great example of someone nice yet living in some kind of strange fantasy world of her own. Not much thought of her own career and need to contribute in a positive way to the development around in the world. Just more interested in enjoy the scenes of the trip and not much interested in contributing to the drive. Which ofcourse requires work and taking on of responsibility and been accountable.
Well that is life. Again this morning murali was crying preptually about this is not right about the company and that is not right, well I am done trying to tell him anything, just listen to him and then nodd and think ok fool I would have told you my opinion, but you are not someone who would like others opinion, or suggestion for you to improve your state.
So to hell with you and keep rolling in your own shit. I am not even going to shed a tear or my brain power into caring for you... hehehehe... well that was not so tough,, the caring is the tough part. Ignoring and been self centered is the easiest part.
12 noon got back home for some breakfast and getting documents for claiming the damage.
now its 1pm heading back....
Talked with Narayan. wished him on his special day.
Then took the brain bench exams I was supposed to take
Passed all the four at the first attempt, just going by my feeling and common sense.
1 Business Communication 3.32
2)Customer Requirement Analysis 2.85
3) Managing People (US) 3.51 (among the top 90% percentile)
4) Presentation Skill 3.20
not bad. need to go thru 5 more as part of mid year requirements for corporate standing.
Went for a fast run and walk and fast run felt exhausted and then watched the last episode of the bachelorate on abc internet.
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Narayans birthday, got to call him soon.
Need to send the damage to the moving company,
Call Dept of LAbour against Apex - 2000 for not giving me my 2 weeks salary.
okay,,,get moving...
Go to see that Soile just got married. She is the sweetest and the best. So sincere that any guy would just want to marry her.
Read the long blog of Eva, seems to have spent a lot of time today to about finish up with the Travel stories.
Did not seem interested in reply to my msgs.
Thats ok, thats how she is, thou she seems to put in all kinds of great quotes from great people, it all does not seem to get into her deeply. More of her own immaturity and superficiality. Which is not something new.
How does depth come into people. IS is only when they are really hurt deeply? or if they have the sincerity to be true to themslves? She seems to be a great example of someone nice yet living in some kind of strange fantasy world of her own. Not much thought of her own career and need to contribute in a positive way to the development around in the world. Just more interested in enjoy the scenes of the trip and not much interested in contributing to the drive. Which ofcourse requires work and taking on of responsibility and been accountable.
Well that is life. Again this morning murali was crying preptually about this is not right about the company and that is not right, well I am done trying to tell him anything, just listen to him and then nodd and think ok fool I would have told you my opinion, but you are not someone who would like others opinion, or suggestion for you to improve your state.
So to hell with you and keep rolling in your own shit. I am not even going to shed a tear or my brain power into caring for you... hehehehe... well that was not so tough,, the caring is the tough part. Ignoring and been self centered is the easiest part.
12 noon got back home for some breakfast and getting documents for claiming the damage.
now its 1pm heading back....
Talked with Narayan. wished him on his special day.
Then took the brain bench exams I was supposed to take
Passed all the four at the first attempt, just going by my feeling and common sense.
1 Business Communication 3.32
2)Customer Requirement Analysis 2.85
3) Managing People (US) 3.51 (among the top 90% percentile)
4) Presentation Skill 3.20
not bad. need to go thru 5 more as part of mid year requirements for corporate standing.
Went for a fast run and walk and fast run felt exhausted and then watched the last episode of the bachelorate on abc internet.
Monday, August 2, 2010
Aug 02 2010 Mon,, start of 1st week
Monday Aug 02 2010
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Great start after spending time alone in contemplation and enjoying time with my self. Got a lot of things done and also started reading a book by John Grisham, yesterda, Don't remember the last time I was reading a book.
Never the less, fell asleep early and then as usual moved from the couch to the bed around 1am troubled a bit by the acidity from eating the spicy chicken curry I got to make yesterday. Got to balance it with yogurt.
Well woke up 5am but tried to mediate with a sleepy head. Hope tomorrow I will just get out and freshen up, have a shower and then mediate.
Birthday day month,,,, should call up mom, naryan, and others....
Got to work early , Ashish was introduced to the off shore team as the new PM. Got chatting with eva, she seems to get angry or touchy for no reason at all. Tried to explain to her. Looks like its more of her own EGO and Arrogance that seems to make her think that no should tell her anything and that she is too way up above anyone to be told anything. Guess I just have to take the why should I even care and bother about you, if you know everything and you are way up above all and do not need any kind of help from anyone or just me, so be it. I should just try to control my own foolishness of overly caring and I should feel less bad or hurt cause of her reaction. :)
Get to the war room around 9:30 only to have Tanya come in for their meeting so was not able to test out the screen pop for call coming thru .
Afternoon go and get AAA memebership. basic.
Then go over to the Honda show room to get a quote. damm the part cost about 33 dollars and the labour was like 150 to fix the latch that opens the hood.
need to send across the fax with the details of the damage and see what I can get out off that from the moving company.
around 3pm get a msg from sangi asking me about the pop. Tell her I am working on it and will get it across to her in the night.
then 4 to 6:30 there was the KT from Kris to Ashish so after that I go to the war room do a few more tests with modifications and send my report and suggestion to Sangi @7:30.
Get home around 7:50 kind of exhausted, wondering if I should really go for salsa as I promised Laura from Dominican republic. Check the mail to see a mail from her saying that she is tired too, so tell her not to worry as I was at work for 13 plus hrs and I am exhausted too.
Then get a mail from malini telling me how exhausted she is from taking her parents around for the past month or so and wanted to go out with me as soon as they are get on to the flight to India. hmmm
Tell her about my wanting to go to Europe, soak in the culture and go hiking in czech and slovakia and maybe go to greece, check out some museums and history.
No mood to go out running either, mentally kind of exhausted.
watch baseball world junior between Tai-pe and austraila . happy to see aussies get beaten.
okaay might as well catch up on the John grisham novel and see what the plot is evolving into.
Its funny how he was describing about the pain the hero was going thru because his wife left him and went on to marry someone else with out any explanaiton. And I was able to feel his pain and the hundred thousand questions that creeep up cause of the actions of women who think that they are above any kind of accountability.
So proud and arrogant that they think that they are above every one , Divas who think that men are just born to be their slaves. Well good for such women.
Well some men are like that too,
Just today afternoon, when I tired to tell murali that he could get a $14 worth of certificate for the test he cleared. His reaction was, "what will I do with that". Good question, but the way he worded it and said, was full of Arrogance and huge Ego, like these things do not matter at all and that I was a fool to even suggest something nice for him. Its a certificate for soft skills of business communications, a great add on to the Resume. But with that attitude, next time I hope I am more in control and not even think or rather try my best to recommend anything that I think is good for him. Because I am not interested in been at the receiving end of someone elses Eogistical Arrogance and feeling of Superiority. If you think that you are superior, okay, just have fun with your life.
All I have to do is harden my feelings of wanting to do good and help ya. And let nature teach you good or bad, or give you good or bad, or help u positively or negatively or help you prevent or help you progress ,,,,,
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Great start after spending time alone in contemplation and enjoying time with my self. Got a lot of things done and also started reading a book by John Grisham, yesterda, Don't remember the last time I was reading a book.
Never the less, fell asleep early and then as usual moved from the couch to the bed around 1am troubled a bit by the acidity from eating the spicy chicken curry I got to make yesterday. Got to balance it with yogurt.
Well woke up 5am but tried to mediate with a sleepy head. Hope tomorrow I will just get out and freshen up, have a shower and then mediate.
Birthday day month,,,, should call up mom, naryan, and others....
Got to work early , Ashish was introduced to the off shore team as the new PM. Got chatting with eva, she seems to get angry or touchy for no reason at all. Tried to explain to her. Looks like its more of her own EGO and Arrogance that seems to make her think that no should tell her anything and that she is too way up above anyone to be told anything. Guess I just have to take the why should I even care and bother about you, if you know everything and you are way up above all and do not need any kind of help from anyone or just me, so be it. I should just try to control my own foolishness of overly caring and I should feel less bad or hurt cause of her reaction. :)
Get to the war room around 9:30 only to have Tanya come in for their meeting so was not able to test out the screen pop for call coming thru .
Afternoon go and get AAA memebership. basic.
Then go over to the Honda show room to get a quote. damm the part cost about 33 dollars and the labour was like 150 to fix the latch that opens the hood.
need to send across the fax with the details of the damage and see what I can get out off that from the moving company.
around 3pm get a msg from sangi asking me about the pop. Tell her I am working on it and will get it across to her in the night.
then 4 to 6:30 there was the KT from Kris to Ashish so after that I go to the war room do a few more tests with modifications and send my report and suggestion to Sangi @7:30.
Get home around 7:50 kind of exhausted, wondering if I should really go for salsa as I promised Laura from Dominican republic. Check the mail to see a mail from her saying that she is tired too, so tell her not to worry as I was at work for 13 plus hrs and I am exhausted too.
Then get a mail from malini telling me how exhausted she is from taking her parents around for the past month or so and wanted to go out with me as soon as they are get on to the flight to India. hmmm
Tell her about my wanting to go to Europe, soak in the culture and go hiking in czech and slovakia and maybe go to greece, check out some museums and history.
No mood to go out running either, mentally kind of exhausted.
watch baseball world junior between Tai-pe and austraila . happy to see aussies get beaten.
okaay might as well catch up on the John grisham novel and see what the plot is evolving into.
Its funny how he was describing about the pain the hero was going thru because his wife left him and went on to marry someone else with out any explanaiton. And I was able to feel his pain and the hundred thousand questions that creeep up cause of the actions of women who think that they are above any kind of accountability.
So proud and arrogant that they think that they are above every one , Divas who think that men are just born to be their slaves. Well good for such women.
Well some men are like that too,
Just today afternoon, when I tired to tell murali that he could get a $14 worth of certificate for the test he cleared. His reaction was, "what will I do with that". Good question, but the way he worded it and said, was full of Arrogance and huge Ego, like these things do not matter at all and that I was a fool to even suggest something nice for him. Its a certificate for soft skills of business communications, a great add on to the Resume. But with that attitude, next time I hope I am more in control and not even think or rather try my best to recommend anything that I think is good for him. Because I am not interested in been at the receiving end of someone elses Eogistical Arrogance and feeling of Superiority. If you think that you are superior, okay, just have fun with your life.
All I have to do is harden my feelings of wanting to do good and help ya. And let nature teach you good or bad, or give you good or bad, or help u positively or negatively or help you prevent or help you progress ,,,,,
Sunday, August 1, 2010
AUG 01 2010 sun and month of Bdays
Sunday August 1st 2010
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Woke up on the couch 5am. hahahaha guess was not able to reach the BRoom.
then started making a list of things to do. Should stop slacking off, anyways today and this week week the forecast is rain.
let me get cracking.
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Woke up on the couch 5am. hahahaha guess was not able to reach the BRoom.
then started making a list of things to do. Should stop slacking off, anyways today and this week week the forecast is rain.
let me get cracking.
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