Sep 07 2014, ONAM Sunday / Sadhya ,, off to 1000oaks

Sunday Sep 07 2014

Onam....
what an emotional day it was yesterday,,, with raised hopes and expectations ,,, all coming crashing and then raising again and then crashing again.
feeling of wanting to love someone special and to be loved back in return ,,, desperation and what not.... talked with Anl,, who was advising me to start the search the traditional way ,,,, again,, not in a situation to do that at this age... too late.

And the connection on the dance flr with alb,,,,, driving me crazy ,,, addictive ,,, wanting more...  and as per the laws of fuck up that governs my life.... nothing seems to happens was I would want ideally,, not even close to remote... causing more tension and drama than any happiness, love and peace.
REminds me again about....

28 August at 15:52 

Note to Self : Stop barking (chasing) up the wrong tree ..,,, again and again. ... please just LEARN,, already,,,,Just trust your basic instinct, have some self discipline and self respect and walk away...
Somethings are not ment to be. If it was ment to be, it will happen smoothly and effortlessly, with out any drama 

Just have to be carefull again about dancing with my heart...., very very dangerous..... 

Now off to 1000 oaks to a new phase of life and start of life... lets see how that goes.

Cheers


Another bit of creative gushing out of emotions... 

.... afraid to love again

I am afraid

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not care about me
As much as I care about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not love me
As much as I love her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not think about me
As much as I think about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who ignores me
As much as I am focused on her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will never love me
As much as I love her.

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will only hurt me
As much as I adore her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who dances with a closed heart
As much as I dance with my heart

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone

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Sep 05 2014..... afraid to love again

Friday Sep 05 2014.... afraid to love again

I am afraid

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not care about me
As much as I care about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not love me
As much as I love her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who does not think about me
As much as I think about her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who ignores me
As much as I am focused on her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will never love me
As much as I love her.

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone
who will only hurt me
As much as I adore her

Yes I am afraid to fall in love with someone