Aug 09 2014 , volunteer and movie

Saturday Aug 09 2014

went early morning around 9 to volunteer for the burrito making proj,  thou there was satsang and was thinking of staying back. Ended up taking the 100 burritos to Rescue mission center . and they needed more to as they feed about 300 plus people and more towards end of the month.

Towards evening decided to go for the movie

hmmmm interesting read :::
Someone who is truly interested in you will find an endless number of reasons why they must see you. 
Someone who is just playing around—or confused about their own feelings—will find an endless number of excuses why they just don't have the time. 

*******makes sense, ,,,, reminds me of the will smith quote ::
Don't chase people, Be yourself, do your own thing and work hard.
The right people,, the ones who really matter and belong in your life, will come to you . And Stay   

ok off to see the The Hundred-Foot Journey .. ideally would have loved to go with someone,,, but hey , life of newbie in a new town, just have to live the moment and do my own thing  ,, when the right people come in at the right time,, added bonus 

was asleep and around 11:30 woke up to see the msg from alb about going to some mexican place and asking if I would be there. too worn out for any expedition .. and it was funny how she chooses not to answer any direct questions? kind of a turn off and does not help build trust .... as avoiding to answer kind of constitutes a kind of walled lie.

Aug 06 2014 4th day in isolation

Wednesday Aug 06 2014

Its my 4th day in isolation at home. Trying to cut away all the temptation and glitter around me and trying to withdraw in , focus and get centered.

just went out for a bit for bank related work and was back.

only open was Facebook which I hope to eventually be able to cut down more.

Aug 04, loosy goosy way of life

Monday, Aug 04 2014

Its one thing to fall for someone, in a thunderbolt struck moment locked in eternity, seeing something amazing in them, imagining and creating a very endearing persona..... The very passing thought of their Eyes, Smile, Lips and cute Cheeks makes your heart beat faster, drenching you in waves of happiness and hope ....  
***********and another thing when you realize that you could never live happily with the real person, cause of their bitchy superiority talk, looking down on others and you, selfish, self-centered, loosy goosy woosy irresponsible princessy way of life, over critical, sarcastic,,,  

Its one thing to fall for someone, in a thunderbolt struck moment locked in eternity, seeing something amazing in them, imagining and creating a very endearing persona..... The very passing thought of their Eyes, Smile, Lips and cute Cheeks makes your heart beat faster, drenches you in waves of happiness and hope ....   ***********and another thing when you realize that you could never live happily with the real person, cause of their bitchy superiority talk, looking down on others and you, loosy goosy woosy irresponsible princessy way of life, over critical, sarcastic,,,  

Jul 27 , End of month, crazy exposures to extremes

Sunday, July 27 2014

Almost End of month, crazy exposures to extremes .

hahahahaha oh boy,,,,, Russel in Florida,,, so can relate to the story he said... hahahaha... wow
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OXxg3lO6sNI&feature=share

I am not a perfect person, I make a lot mistakes. But I really appreciate those people who stay with me after knowing how I really am.
[from a quote shared on FB]

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Saturday, Jul 26 2014

Emotionally drained  Consolation is, helping in the effort to make 847 burritos — at Amma Los Angeles

Wrist hurt after having flipped 600 plus burritos the last two weekends.. corporal tunnel ??

Was feeling very low, around evening went for a walk to the world series beach volleyball.. woooofff,, the hot looking perfect bodies and bums of hot chicks ,,, rather some of natures exquisite creations is mind blowing.
Then returned back


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Friday, July 25 2014

was out shopping at costco and walmart for grocery and house hold supplies.

Towards evening went to watch the world series of beach volley ball.
Boy oh boy, its filled with lovely gals in two piece bikinis... not sure if I will find any other bodies interesting and inspiring as the beauties there.

Thursday July 24 2014

Random thoughts of mine on FB
I sincerely believe and see that there is MORE - GREATER GOOD and GOOD PEOPLE in this world than any bad. We just have to be more conscious when we see it and appreciate it and not keep taking it for granted. 
Open your eyes to the GREATER GOOD Happening all around you

Started day with Yoga on the beach
Yeaaa Yoga. Felt really centered and good today..... free of some burden and thoughts  — at Dharma's Yoga on the Bluff

Went to laguna beach to check out ISKON there. but it was closed. and the whole area was crowded with beach goers.. for gods sake its mid week  and its crowded like an indian market.
wonder how it is during weekends?

Also kind of fine tuned these thoughts of mine.

SHARING IS CARING, IF YOU CARE, SHARE! :) [draft version]

24 July 2014 at 08:52

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"Every time you have an opportunity to communicate, you have an opportunity to change lives"

Its also true in the case of Facebook (FB) as a medium of communication.
Having the power of media (FB) to reach out to friends and all those who care to check on your Facebook, gives us the opportunity to reach out, share and spread our positive thoughts and messages, in the most non-intrusive way possible.

You never know who is going thru what in their life?
Just that chance of seeing or reading a positive message that you cared to share, might brighten up their day, change the direction of their life.
It Maybe for a few minutes, hours, days or even their life.
And who knows they would end up spreading it to others they come across, a chain of events, THAT YOU CARED TO SHARE, leading to a better world.
All because you choose to share a positive inspiring message or bit of information in/about your life.

Thanks to facebook and youtube, we got see babies laughing and boy oh boy, did it not mellow the hardest of hearts and melt the coldness within!?
We got to see puppies, kittens and baby elephants fill our hearts with their sweet innocent happy expression and playfulness.

If you care , then please share messages and information that might help change someones life.

You have one of the most powerful instruments that normal people years ago never had. The power of Facebook for sharing and reaching a wider audience.
Not just sucking in what the media controlled by vested interested throw in our direction (mostly negative news) causing panic and creating hopelessness.
We now have the power to voice our own goodness, positive messages, that would probably make a difference in someone else's life in ways we would probably not be aware off.

IF YOU CARE, SHARE!

Cause
SHARING IN CARING :)

I got inspired to run and improve my health after seeing the regular feed on my FB home page of a FB friend going out running.
Then when I started sharing my running info, another friend of mine got inspired to start running..... this was one good example of spreading and inspiring positive change in the lives of others.

Then there was this article that got me moving away from coffee to healthier Tea.

I see articles shared by people doing yoga, working on healthy eating habits and I have been inspired to try and try adopt the positive practices for what I believe is greater good. :)

There are times when it feels like I have no energy to get thru the day, but thanks to some inspiring and motivating posts by kind FB Friends, just reading a few feeds turning up on the Home page, stopped the downward slide I was in and got my spirits soaring again and helped me walk around with a smile. :)

THANK YOU ALL FOR INSPIRING ME AND GUIDING ME INTO BECOMING A BETTER PERSON. (physically, emotionally, philosophically, psychologically, improving my strength in character, ,,,,)

I sincerely believe and see that there is MORE and GREATER GOOD and GOOD PEOPLE in this world than any bad. We just have to be more conscious when we see it and appreciate it and not keep taking it for granted. Open your eyes to the GREATER GOOD Happening all around you :)

Jun 25 , water less Wednesday

Wednesday, Jun 25 2014

Was lazy to get out of bed, even thou I had planned on an agenda of doing some yoga and working out.... totally forgot about the water been cut off today ..... ahhh bummer

it was nice to get the couple of pics from st monic fron geniv from phila.

got to see the clip from

hahahahaha,,,,, the 100 foot journey, cant wait to see the movie,,,, Indian and french cooking competition,,, ... memories from a couple of weeks ago,,, cooking South Indian food under the guidance of the most prettiest practical thinking pastries chef from South West of France .. ..... ahhhh why could I not have Just fallen for someone eternal there,,,, could have had my fav food for life,, and wooo the cute french accent as bonus,, her voice is like she is singing a melody !!!!!!..... why is it that we never get to pick and choose who we fall in love .....

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So reminded of saswath.... her cute accent and the way in which she shook her head like an indian.


** listening to this song,,, 
aaahhhhh it was like some one was pulling at the strings of my heart....
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=450p7goxZqg&feature=share

Tuesday Jun 24 2014

Got call from maynk mat for the wel-pointe opening

then on a whim was trying to figure out and put my confused thoughts and the history of the past few months into perspective...

Pure Soul

24 June 2014 at 13:33

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Every guy who is highly sexual in his relationships, (as all guys tend to be) one day ends up falling head over heals for that someone in the MOST NON-SEXUAL way possible.

All his thoughts then tend to center around her,
Wanting to just reach out to that one persons soul,
wanting to hug that soul, with in her and unite it, with his own soul.
Wanting and hoping that it would just blend in  seamlessly and unite, like water and milk,
Wanting to then just rest up peacefully ever-after meeting his soul mate who completes the missing part of his soul.

In the most mellow possible way, his heart just dances around like whiffs of smoke trying to reach out to her in every possible way and hoping that her heart and soul would somehow magically feel the same and reach back to the aura of his soul filled love and their hearts would just gel, interlock and spiral up dancing towards the skies as one.

In my case, I fell in or was taken in by a random smile of someone I did not even know. Was not interested in any way to dance with her as I thought that she was from the inner club of snobs and performers that I see in every new town, who I just prefer to keep away from.

Two weeks latter which was filled with repeated images of her smile most of the time,,,,, stepped up and thought let me atleast give it a shot, no knowing she might be different.

Asked her to dance!
Boom!... first words out of her "on 1 or on 2"....
.......... wooooo holly molly,,,, major Red flag that I foolishly ignored, she is after all a elitist Salsa Snob, lost in the world of counting 1 , 2 and what not..... a kind of comment only people who are more into show dancing and showing off their superiority (immaturity) tend to do in the name partner dancing. 

A part of me just wanted to yell, just shut the F up and dance... can you?

Thou taken aback, even thou she seemed very sweet, playful, innocent, beautiful looking and pretty. (also another reason most pretty gals are a huge turn off for me, cause of their lack of been grounded.... as men always tend to place them on a pedestal, so they end up earning the right to be high headed and look down on others,,, Economic theory of Supply and demand at work,,,,, well guess they have their own rights to what ever makes them happy,,
would I be like that if I was some very good looking , sought after person?? maybe I would be even more arrogant, who knows,,,,, but then I am not hollywood star material and would rather keep away from people who are in demand...., and  they and their behavior is something I prefer not to put up with or be around)... [on a side note I am reminded of something someone used to constantly tell about me when I was a kid, """there is a reason why horses do not have horns"",, snide remarks made in reference to my height with respect to my energy]

Anyway back to story,,, Ended up saying, "oops sorry, I am bad at math, I am an illiterate, cannot count, you okay with that and just dancing?", to which she with a blank face and stare,,, nodded.
She probably was thinking, oh boy! this guy does not know to dance, god help me for the next 5 mins of hell.... booohooo! :(

Well the dance was okay, she seemed to follow, but not connect, something was missing and felt a bit off.
So I thought, thats where it ends, no physical chemistry...

But as lifes twists and turns holds, ended up chatting with her again accidentally and poof, she was working at something , like I did at the start of my career, not the ideal use of our skills and training.
But hey we all have to do things to survive . And boom there you go again, the Soul taking over the logic of the brain.

Again the tingling of soul and wanting to reach out to someone whos smile that fateful night had opened up a hole in my heart and subsequent waves of feelings,, confusion, light headedness, causing me to smile like a fool,,,, feelings.... spilling over into words..... ahh the foolishness of infatuation and falling in LOVE..... or something close to it.

Had I gone by my logical conclusions based on the dance, I should not have bothered much to dance with her. But then the soul takes over and so does circumstances.

In the battle between logic and the matter of the soul, when I was feeling strong, I just tried every possible way to keep away from her. But the soul is sneaky and always slips in and takes over with flimsy excuses to justify.
As I tired to push and pull away, something or the other happened and the soul again wanted to reach out and connect for the one last time,
oh! just this once,,,  to help her out with that connection of common start of our career.....
ahh how I know the feeling of been in a very foreign land, away from family and roots,,,,,
how simple and down to earth our life styles are
how much we have in common,
how we like to be away from major luxuries in life
how we love to travel
how we are so intellectually-spiritually inclined
how we care about our actions affecting the world and environment,,,,

ah! all the ways that the soul could think about to lie and fool the logical brain.... and all this in the most possible non-sexual way. Pure out from the bottom of my heart, just with the hope of for-ever holding her to my heart and the wings of my arms...... nothing more,,, just that purity of union of the heart and soul...

There are things people do on an instinct and there are things that people do when they are able to logically think thru. The pure soul just does it on an instinct and does the right heart warming thing. Then most of use are not pure souls, we have the bitterness of our past experiences of been taken advantage off, or the heart been locked up and trying to instinctively protect itself..... trying to built walls and fences, that would hurt anyone trying to reach out to help us or love us....

So where does the soul come off in all this?
why should it feel attracted to another?
why should it care to make an attempt to reach out?
why should it try again and again to connect, only to be disregarded and shot down?
why should it go thru the bitterness of been let down?
why should it feel at all, if its not meant to be??????


................. To be continued.

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Monday jun 23 2014

Again back to drowning my sorrows and stocking up on beer to work up the courage to ask the snobs to dance salsa... Numbs the NO effect ... Testing out all kinds of theories  — at pch 

well started with a series of 5 "no"s tonite,,,, and just took one person to say yes and then the ball started rolling..... funny how the minds of gals work....  ,,,,, overly superficial and shallow to describe at best  ,, such a turn off.... I would have just given up and sat it out after the 2nd no.. just that the alcohol helped ignore the negativity and move on to the next. ..
Just one high energy gal with the brightest beautiful smile and laughter when dancing,,,,   ... filled up my heart with the warmth of her smile 

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Start of a new Phase,,, Closing down the Phone# in Canada....,,, early morning Interviews from the East Coast.... (one from really east,,, PEI)... watching Football and more interviews....... 
Fingers crossed on the uncertainty of what tomorrow holds  ,,,,, charming life  
There are some things I can change and have to accept the fact of not having the power/will power/or what ever, to change many. 
Have to find Happiness in the little things in life and PEACE within, above all, helps me sleep like a child  


 Another interview over,,,,, good god,, some Indian women (interviewer) are really mean and bitchy..... its like the power has gone to their head and they tend to think others are their slaves...... grrrrr.. 
Even in salsa, I think from my past experience, have never had a good experience with women of Indian and Iranian origin.. always ,, always feel that they take me for granted and are mean to me....
The sweetest nicest, people are from Tibet and Nepal.  ,, so heart warmingly sweet and kind.... ahhhh.. so sweet, I feel like doing anything and everything for them 

""" When someone truly cares about you, they make an effort not an excuse"""
True,, true,,, ,,,,, and when they make excuses,,, u know that ur not among their priorities  ,,,, and when you make the effort,,, the question becomes,, do they appreciate your efforts or tend to feel powerful and take you for granted!!!????