Saturday, Mar 31 2012
need to finish off with the documentations on the visa and the irs.
gloomy day outside, just like in vancouver, great day to make love at home with someone special.
Saturday, March 31, 2012
Mar 30, 2012. farwel party
Friday, Mar 30 2012
the day of farwel party.
was surprised to hear the scumbag rav say shit bout my sincere suggestion to him to get the inspection done on his car.
That jerk is kind of trying to play the power game of been rude and ignoring my questions and taking off in directions and not letting me complete what I am talking. Just want to let it go and keep away from him and no more suggesting of any of my ideas to him.
the day of farwel party.
was surprised to hear the scumbag rav say shit bout my sincere suggestion to him to get the inspection done on his car.
That jerk is kind of trying to play the power game of been rude and ignoring my questions and taking off in directions and not letting me complete what I am talking. Just want to let it go and keep away from him and no more suggesting of any of my ideas to him.
Mar 29 2012..... day of meetings
Thursday, Mar 29 2012
day of meetings and driving the guys as they had their cars at the garage.
day of meetings and driving the guys as they had their cars at the garage.
Wednesday, March 28, 2012
Mar 28 2012.. Feel charged with energy
Wednesday, Mar 28 2012
feel charged with Energy,, lets see how the day goes by,, it was great reading loudly the book by dale carnige.. can't believe its been years that I had this book and only readying here and there based on random selection of chapters or pages...
feel charged with Energy,, lets see how the day goes by,, it was great reading loudly the book by dale carnige.. can't believe its been years that I had this book and only readying here and there based on random selection of chapters or pages...
Tuesday, March 27, 2012
Mar 26 2012, meditation and salsa
Monday, MAr 26 2012
reached work around 8:45 got out by 5 15 and was at the meditation by 6:30.. interesting subject of discussion;. about happiness and how to keep a tab and control on our generic urge to feel happy at the loss that someone suffer,, especially the freaky kind of happiness one feels at the loss suffered by someone who hurt us.
It was great dancing the salsa and bachata after such a long time.. and what a night it was... great crowd, of super hot gals.. like the doors of heaven just opened up and rained hoties .
reached work around 8:45 got out by 5 15 and was at the meditation by 6:30.. interesting subject of discussion;. about happiness and how to keep a tab and control on our generic urge to feel happy at the loss that someone suffer,, especially the freaky kind of happiness one feels at the loss suffered by someone who hurt us.
It was great dancing the salsa and bachata after such a long time.. and what a night it was... great crowd, of super hot gals.. like the doors of heaven just opened up and rained hoties .
Sunday, March 25, 2012
Mar 25 2012, Latin culture based on deception in mariage
Sunday, Mar 25 2012
Was looking at some of the latin related comments and relating it to the latin culture that I got to experience and come across during my interactions.
There seems to be a deep level of conservative inclination in the way of life, very religious, seems to be very deeply involved in religions festivals and other community acitvity.
But when it comes to maintaining matrimonial alliance , maintaining loyalty and been faithful to ones partners..... Its considered something of a low level part of character.
In fact people are more encouraged to have affairs after marrying and guys are encouraged to have a girlfriend on the side.
When asked, what if their wifes have affairs (which they seem to do), some laugh off and say, "as long as I don't know about it, I am fine."
Interesting, how they have accepted that and rather like to live a life that is FAKE and maintain the show of family, love, honesty, loyalty ,,,, when deep down they just behave like animals.
No wonder, me and Jas thought that sure the spanish gals are just very sexy in appearence and would interest us only in matter of sex and not a group that we would consider for a long term married life and family.
Still think of the gal in madrid when dancing salsa, who was rubbing herself all over me and telling "you are the man, ...." Then I get to know that she is there with her boyfriend. Because as soon as he came in she kind of pulled away a bit from me. Did not feel like going in between them. Not a good thing to do that. It would be like stealing some elses dreams.
And during the course of the night, there was a situation where they both got into a fight because she danced with another guy and he walked away after hitting her on the shoulder. And I did see her sitting in the corner and talking on the phone. easy pick when one is emotionally down or had just got out dumped or got out of an affair. most gals just fall for the next guy who gives her his shoulder..... (another thing for me to always look out for, how long they have been single.... need to be more than 6 months atleast, other wise it will be another rebound relation after another that they always seem to get into, the never ending parade of relationships of the fake and foolish)
No not for me. The thing that intrigues me is, she looked like a nerd and a very intelligent gal, who among the few spanish people who was able to speak intelligently. my weakness for intelligent nerdy gals who can hold a conversation, unlike the dumb ones who make we want to run away.
Again back to the deception and lack of loyalty in relationship that seems to be MAN thing to do for the latin men, (as women would not come out with their stories for fear of been branded a bitch).
Even in the salsa scene, many latin men just come out to hunt for the foolish eastern european women who are looking in their own ways to match their fantasies of a latin lover. But little do they realize that the stories are far from reality of the mens fantasies,,,, hehehe cause most of these men are just looking for a quick fuck or a random booty call to fulfill they quest for quick fuck. For which they would go out of their way to serenade the idiotically foolish women. Mostly see eastern european and japanese gals in Salsa clubs fall for these guys and then latter end up crying and bitching about how they were cheated, how they latter got to know that the guy has had multiple partners and then some of the gals got threatened by the guys wifes.. .. so much of drama.
Suddenly reminded of one of the guy in salsa, vit du, who eva dated. hehehe, it was fun watching him running about the polish hall trying to seduce one eastern european gal after another. The gals who knew about his desperation just asked him to get lost, but that despot would never back off. Kept going after yet another new gal. I hope I never become that cheap and desparate. eva was not the only one, there was kim, rutie, tamar and a few otherss.. ahh ha, not go forget how he was trying a smooth line on gia. She not been that foolish did not fall for his lines, or alteast from what she told me. unlike what kim, rutie and tamar told me. And to see that eva had these type of taste in men was a revaltion from others. Well she was always on the fence when it came to honesty, wanting to be honest, but yet again like her mom, she just was not honest and loyal. More leaning towards a life of fake deception and thinking that she could get away with lying and playing games. Games,,, that was what love was to her. Still shocked that she said I was not playing a good game....
Well just wish her the best and send out good vibrations for her and hopefully she will mature into a better person with stronger character.
Its also funny, all these gals who I thought were nice and nerdy, were all involved with these guys, were hit on by the likes of vit dur, then the nutty palestin guy nidl, and a few of the smooth talking persian guys in the salsa crowd,, all these guys were there just to score. And in the end all these gals gravitated towards me, lucky I got to know about the other gals association with these crazy bastards before I got any closer, except for eva, who I ended up with as I did not know what had happened during my time away from Van and living in winter peg.
Glad to see rut, and kim now in a committed relationship , maturing up and sticking to their guys thru thick and thin. And very glad I did not get into deep relationship with these gals when they were rebounding from their earlier foolish adventrues.
But it does say a thing about me, that I was getting attracted to gals who seem to be come off after been dumped. And in my foolishness assuming that they may be looking like me for long term relationships, when they might have been after been burnt on the short term one, at that time.
Guess I was and am a strange attraction for people who incline towards long term, but deep down they are not ready for the long term at that time. I make them feel special and great about them selves and suddenly they start thinking that hmmmmm I am special, I deserve much more, why spend my life away with this guy..... and there they go,, again on the witch hunt from short term after another... just like tamar, joha and eva.
cheeers to their life and them discovering or rather coming out of that cycle and not keep repeating the same mistakes of going for short term. Which will only happen if they can back off from the cycle, for an year or more and be able to analyze their behavior latter. Its just not possible to take a look at our own behavior when we are deeply there in the pond. only after we get out of it on to the shore will we be able to take an analytical approach and try to work on stopping our urge and instinct to be sucked into a particular direction.
I am so glad that this time in Philly and dalls has given me enough time to improve on my instincts and proud that I was able to resist the urge to get drawn and drowned in the same cycle of attraction. So glad I was able to refuse the temptation and proud to have not lowered my character.
Which in turn made me wonder today about the latin guys and their constantly been revolving in the same circle of behavior and karma. It takes getting out of it to realise that . or we are doomed to be repeating the same mistakes.
Afternoon, head off to costco..... the best part was the lovely , reaching out smile from a baby who was in a cart and been pushed by the dad. she just looked at me , her face lit up like she recognized an old best friend and smiled wide.... okay that could be written off as some kind of freak happening, baby must be thinking of something else..... okay after a few more mins of walking around our paths cross again in an alise... she had the nipple sucker in her mouth.. was passing by the cart she was in and again our eyes met... she removed the nipple sucker from her mouth and gave me a huge smile and that baby did not have even a tooth..... wooooow.. my heart is touched and feel blessed. Babies know a pure soul when they see one and they reach out like they know someone who is like them... .pure and true .... I am smiling from ear to ear thinking about that sweet , sincere, pure smile toothless, lovely smile.. .hehehe...
Was looking at some of the latin related comments and relating it to the latin culture that I got to experience and come across during my interactions.
There seems to be a deep level of conservative inclination in the way of life, very religious, seems to be very deeply involved in religions festivals and other community acitvity.
But when it comes to maintaining matrimonial alliance , maintaining loyalty and been faithful to ones partners..... Its considered something of a low level part of character.
In fact people are more encouraged to have affairs after marrying and guys are encouraged to have a girlfriend on the side.
When asked, what if their wifes have affairs (which they seem to do), some laugh off and say, "as long as I don't know about it, I am fine."
Interesting, how they have accepted that and rather like to live a life that is FAKE and maintain the show of family, love, honesty, loyalty ,,,, when deep down they just behave like animals.
No wonder, me and Jas thought that sure the spanish gals are just very sexy in appearence and would interest us only in matter of sex and not a group that we would consider for a long term married life and family.
Still think of the gal in madrid when dancing salsa, who was rubbing herself all over me and telling "you are the man, ...." Then I get to know that she is there with her boyfriend. Because as soon as he came in she kind of pulled away a bit from me. Did not feel like going in between them. Not a good thing to do that. It would be like stealing some elses dreams.
And during the course of the night, there was a situation where they both got into a fight because she danced with another guy and he walked away after hitting her on the shoulder. And I did see her sitting in the corner and talking on the phone. easy pick when one is emotionally down or had just got out dumped or got out of an affair. most gals just fall for the next guy who gives her his shoulder..... (another thing for me to always look out for, how long they have been single.... need to be more than 6 months atleast, other wise it will be another rebound relation after another that they always seem to get into, the never ending parade of relationships of the fake and foolish)
No not for me. The thing that intrigues me is, she looked like a nerd and a very intelligent gal, who among the few spanish people who was able to speak intelligently. my weakness for intelligent nerdy gals who can hold a conversation, unlike the dumb ones who make we want to run away.
Again back to the deception and lack of loyalty in relationship that seems to be MAN thing to do for the latin men, (as women would not come out with their stories for fear of been branded a bitch).
Even in the salsa scene, many latin men just come out to hunt for the foolish eastern european women who are looking in their own ways to match their fantasies of a latin lover. But little do they realize that the stories are far from reality of the mens fantasies,,,, hehehe cause most of these men are just looking for a quick fuck or a random booty call to fulfill they quest for quick fuck. For which they would go out of their way to serenade the idiotically foolish women. Mostly see eastern european and japanese gals in Salsa clubs fall for these guys and then latter end up crying and bitching about how they were cheated, how they latter got to know that the guy has had multiple partners and then some of the gals got threatened by the guys wifes.. .. so much of drama.
Suddenly reminded of one of the guy in salsa, vit du, who eva dated. hehehe, it was fun watching him running about the polish hall trying to seduce one eastern european gal after another. The gals who knew about his desperation just asked him to get lost, but that despot would never back off. Kept going after yet another new gal. I hope I never become that cheap and desparate. eva was not the only one, there was kim, rutie, tamar and a few otherss.. ahh ha, not go forget how he was trying a smooth line on gia. She not been that foolish did not fall for his lines, or alteast from what she told me. unlike what kim, rutie and tamar told me. And to see that eva had these type of taste in men was a revaltion from others. Well she was always on the fence when it came to honesty, wanting to be honest, but yet again like her mom, she just was not honest and loyal. More leaning towards a life of fake deception and thinking that she could get away with lying and playing games. Games,,, that was what love was to her. Still shocked that she said I was not playing a good game....
Well just wish her the best and send out good vibrations for her and hopefully she will mature into a better person with stronger character.
Its also funny, all these gals who I thought were nice and nerdy, were all involved with these guys, were hit on by the likes of vit dur, then the nutty palestin guy nidl, and a few of the smooth talking persian guys in the salsa crowd,, all these guys were there just to score. And in the end all these gals gravitated towards me, lucky I got to know about the other gals association with these crazy bastards before I got any closer, except for eva, who I ended up with as I did not know what had happened during my time away from Van and living in winter peg.
Glad to see rut, and kim now in a committed relationship , maturing up and sticking to their guys thru thick and thin. And very glad I did not get into deep relationship with these gals when they were rebounding from their earlier foolish adventrues.
But it does say a thing about me, that I was getting attracted to gals who seem to be come off after been dumped. And in my foolishness assuming that they may be looking like me for long term relationships, when they might have been after been burnt on the short term one, at that time.
Guess I was and am a strange attraction for people who incline towards long term, but deep down they are not ready for the long term at that time. I make them feel special and great about them selves and suddenly they start thinking that hmmmmm I am special, I deserve much more, why spend my life away with this guy..... and there they go,, again on the witch hunt from short term after another... just like tamar, joha and eva.
cheeers to their life and them discovering or rather coming out of that cycle and not keep repeating the same mistakes of going for short term. Which will only happen if they can back off from the cycle, for an year or more and be able to analyze their behavior latter. Its just not possible to take a look at our own behavior when we are deeply there in the pond. only after we get out of it on to the shore will we be able to take an analytical approach and try to work on stopping our urge and instinct to be sucked into a particular direction.
I am so glad that this time in Philly and dalls has given me enough time to improve on my instincts and proud that I was able to resist the urge to get drawn and drowned in the same cycle of attraction. So glad I was able to refuse the temptation and proud to have not lowered my character.
Which in turn made me wonder today about the latin guys and their constantly been revolving in the same circle of behavior and karma. It takes getting out of it to realise that . or we are doomed to be repeating the same mistakes.
Afternoon, head off to costco..... the best part was the lovely , reaching out smile from a baby who was in a cart and been pushed by the dad. she just looked at me , her face lit up like she recognized an old best friend and smiled wide.... okay that could be written off as some kind of freak happening, baby must be thinking of something else..... okay after a few more mins of walking around our paths cross again in an alise... she had the nipple sucker in her mouth.. was passing by the cart she was in and again our eyes met... she removed the nipple sucker from her mouth and gave me a huge smile and that baby did not have even a tooth..... wooooow.. my heart is touched and feel blessed. Babies know a pure soul when they see one and they reach out like they know someone who is like them... .pure and true .... I am smiling from ear to ear thinking about that sweet , sincere, pure smile toothless, lovely smile.. .hehehe...
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Mar 24 2012, SAT day of household work
Saturday, Mar 24 2012
Woke up slowly out of bed by around 10 ,,,,, slowly and lazly and got cooking on the ginger tea... yumm.
then called up home and listened to the complaints from parents about how hot it is there for the summer,, could not help by laugh at their complaining about 32 deg C temp and with all the greenry around. Well guess its a very human nature to complain when suddenly, well not suddenly , but when ever put in situations that would be different from their ideal comfort zone.
But nature itself is not like that, it is always changing and swining into extremes in pockets of the world. One could use that to spread the Fear psychosis of doom and calamity or just take it in stride and ride it out , like riding out a storm.
Same with life, in the end we all are going to die and perish. its just that our ego of immortality and been extra special compared to other living creatures or assumption of everlasting immortality been our speciality makes us do and want things , we can easily live without having.
Woke up slowly out of bed by around 10 ,,,,, slowly and lazly and got cooking on the ginger tea... yumm.
then called up home and listened to the complaints from parents about how hot it is there for the summer,, could not help by laugh at their complaining about 32 deg C temp and with all the greenry around. Well guess its a very human nature to complain when suddenly, well not suddenly , but when ever put in situations that would be different from their ideal comfort zone.
But nature itself is not like that, it is always changing and swining into extremes in pockets of the world. One could use that to spread the Fear psychosis of doom and calamity or just take it in stride and ride it out , like riding out a storm.
Same with life, in the end we all are going to die and perish. its just that our ego of immortality and been extra special compared to other living creatures or assumption of everlasting immortality been our speciality makes us do and want things , we can easily live without having.
Mar 23 2012 , the day just breezes by
Friday, Mar 23 2012
It was funny how I got to work with the resulution of getting things done and started of working on the elearning and got couple of courses done and then instead of 1 hr it took around 3 hrs to complete and when I started of on the other part of getting the scripts and cases ,,,, got interrupted and after that was not able to get back on track... got lost in coversations.
it was night talking with raj bal. atleast we have a common enemy to be carefull about. the crooked lady ush... damm what a chatter box piece of mouth and too boot it with has a very crooked attitude and mentality. just hope that rav does not get too carried away with her stories.
It was funny how I got to work with the resulution of getting things done and started of working on the elearning and got couple of courses done and then instead of 1 hr it took around 3 hrs to complete and when I started of on the other part of getting the scripts and cases ,,,, got interrupted and after that was not able to get back on track... got lost in coversations.
it was night talking with raj bal. atleast we have a common enemy to be carefull about. the crooked lady ush... damm what a chatter box piece of mouth and too boot it with has a very crooked attitude and mentality. just hope that rav does not get too carried away with her stories.
Thursday, March 22, 2012
Mar 22 2012.. leading the stutus meeting,, Phew!
Thursday, Mar 22 2012,
leading the stutus meeting was a huge hurdle in personally over coming my fears and trying to keep my thoughts and wits together.
thou not the best of performance , it was not the worst from me either......
have to get more confident about my own abilites and work on improving my persentation skills, over come my shyness and stop been scared of public attention.
Wonder how it came naturally to Eva and others to be seeking the center of attention and rather been able to thrive in it, unlike me who thrived in my own cocoun and world and collapsed personally when all eyes are on me.
leading the stutus meeting was a huge hurdle in personally over coming my fears and trying to keep my thoughts and wits together.
thou not the best of performance , it was not the worst from me either......
have to get more confident about my own abilites and work on improving my persentation skills, over come my shyness and stop been scared of public attention.
Wonder how it came naturally to Eva and others to be seeking the center of attention and rather been able to thrive in it, unlike me who thrived in my own cocoun and world and collapsed personally when all eyes are on me.
Mar 21 2012... productive wed
Wednesday, Mar 21 2012
had a productive afteroon with the meeting and clearing up a lot of issues and doubts
had a productive afteroon with the meeting and clearing up a lot of issues and doubts
Tuesday, March 20, 2012
Mar 20 2012, heart pounding tuesday
Tuesday, Mar 20 2012
woke up early with intentions of getting moving as per the scheduled ,, but was only able to get out of bed by 6:20.. out of the house by 7:20 and reached work around 8:05am//
got subway sandwich for lunch again ,, 2nd day in a row.... this continous coughing is getting to me. it felt like heart burn, now I realise that even Dad has this intermittent coughing and not something any of the docs were able to figure out. kind of don't want to feel more scared and loose my sleep thinking about some kind of funny named disease and having to take medication for it.
conducted the interview for d, seemed to be more greared towards upper management of managing projects in cal cents than working lower down the order. would be a good person to provide leadership for people who maybe new to the game in the company.
now to conduct another interview of a punj guy who claims to know panch languages and completed degreee in ukraine and toronto.. is it fake,,, remains to be seen.
woke up early with intentions of getting moving as per the scheduled ,, but was only able to get out of bed by 6:20.. out of the house by 7:20 and reached work around 8:05am//
got subway sandwich for lunch again ,, 2nd day in a row.... this continous coughing is getting to me. it felt like heart burn, now I realise that even Dad has this intermittent coughing and not something any of the docs were able to figure out. kind of don't want to feel more scared and loose my sleep thinking about some kind of funny named disease and having to take medication for it.
conducted the interview for d, seemed to be more greared towards upper management of managing projects in cal cents than working lower down the order. would be a good person to provide leadership for people who maybe new to the game in the company.
now to conduct another interview of a punj guy who claims to know panch languages and completed degreee in ukraine and toronto.. is it fake,,, remains to be seen.
Monday, March 19, 2012
Mar 19 2012, mundane monday
Monday, Mar 19 2010. woke up well , feeling better from no more cloud of cold and blocked nose.
got to work around 8:15... but had a tough time focusing. something or other came by, saw the stocks of Apple zoom by 600 after their announcment of dividens and buy back.
Looks like the world will be moving away from the old boxes of computers into a world of touch screen tablets, with only music and pics stored,, and a few video games... and the rest of programs and other things moving on to the cloud computing space. Which means all we will need is a tablet and connection to the internet.
was not able to go to the meditation secession and that ment no salasa...
back at home, to interview a guy from infosys for some new openings .... now reflecting on the conversation looks like he was probably also interviewed for the opening I just got into at bbell. and poor guy got placed on hold.
got to work around 8:15... but had a tough time focusing. something or other came by, saw the stocks of Apple zoom by 600 after their announcment of dividens and buy back.
Looks like the world will be moving away from the old boxes of computers into a world of touch screen tablets, with only music and pics stored,, and a few video games... and the rest of programs and other things moving on to the cloud computing space. Which means all we will need is a tablet and connection to the internet.
was not able to go to the meditation secession and that ment no salasa...
back at home, to interview a guy from infosys for some new openings .... now reflecting on the conversation looks like he was probably also interviewed for the opening I just got into at bbell. and poor guy got placed on hold.
Mar 18 sunday blew past
Sunday, Mar 18 2012
it just blew past. did not get much done, best thing, did not buy any booze or drink after Vis left. cheers keep up the good work.
watched some online soccer matches and nba games
it just blew past. did not get much done, best thing, did not buy any booze or drink after Vis left. cheers keep up the good work.
watched some online soccer matches and nba games
Saturday, March 17, 2012
Mar 17 Sat, no mood to hike
Saturday, Mar 17 2012
woke up early, with intentions to go hiking, but the deep inside feeling of weekenss and all the pending work of scanning and uploading the visa docs made the decision to go on the beer hike a difficult thing to say no too.
bright beautiful day outside. but have to regain my strength and then think of the next day and next superficial external things that would make me happy.
superficial external..... that would mean everything from dancing, to eating exotic food, to going out for some games, hiking, TV, movies, internet, facebook, talking to friends.... everything.
tried calling up home no one was picking up the phone wonder what happened now.
saw lub o on the skype after a long time. nice man. wish i could say the same things about the ladies in his life. both mom and daughter seem to be a lot alike in character of getting angry at others. with lil respect or consideration for others way of life and thinking. well Karma is a bitch that always catchs up. I am so out of that loop and the hours I wasted been concerned about a person who was lost in her own selfish cocoon.
So gald my mind if free from thinking and been concerned about her wel been. just forgive her and wish her the best and good feelings and hopefully she grows into a better person and not screwing up the lifes of other people and others screwing her.
Wonder what happend to the affair she had with that guy in bangalore she went to see. thought that the second time she went she was probalby hoping to hook up with him. But my assesment was that he was just using her for sex and as can be seen from his dis-honest dispostion and ability to bull shit without much difficulty ,, like many north indians and many people who grew up in business environment....
It was a learning experience to see even some of my close friends change into some kind of dis-honest, back stabbing un trust worthy scumb bags after they entered into businesss. To them the only central focus of their life became Money. and more money, no matter how they got it.
woke up early, with intentions to go hiking, but the deep inside feeling of weekenss and all the pending work of scanning and uploading the visa docs made the decision to go on the beer hike a difficult thing to say no too.
bright beautiful day outside. but have to regain my strength and then think of the next day and next superficial external things that would make me happy.
superficial external..... that would mean everything from dancing, to eating exotic food, to going out for some games, hiking, TV, movies, internet, facebook, talking to friends.... everything.
tried calling up home no one was picking up the phone wonder what happened now.
saw lub o on the skype after a long time. nice man. wish i could say the same things about the ladies in his life. both mom and daughter seem to be a lot alike in character of getting angry at others. with lil respect or consideration for others way of life and thinking. well Karma is a bitch that always catchs up. I am so out of that loop and the hours I wasted been concerned about a person who was lost in her own selfish cocoon.
So gald my mind if free from thinking and been concerned about her wel been. just forgive her and wish her the best and good feelings and hopefully she grows into a better person and not screwing up the lifes of other people and others screwing her.
Wonder what happend to the affair she had with that guy in bangalore she went to see. thought that the second time she went she was probalby hoping to hook up with him. But my assesment was that he was just using her for sex and as can be seen from his dis-honest dispostion and ability to bull shit without much difficulty ,, like many north indians and many people who grew up in business environment....
It was a learning experience to see even some of my close friends change into some kind of dis-honest, back stabbing un trust worthy scumb bags after they entered into businesss. To them the only central focus of their life became Money. and more money, no matter how they got it.
MAr 16, Fri, dragged the day thru sicknes
Friday, Mar 16,
got to work around 8:15 and dragged the day thru continuous sneezing and feeling the swelling under my right eye. continuous visit to the wash room.
went out for Indian lunch at ams
got to work around 8:15 and dragged the day thru continuous sneezing and feeling the swelling under my right eye. continuous visit to the wash room.
went out for Indian lunch at ams
Thursday, March 15, 2012
Mar 15 2012 still sick but a better day
Thursday, Mar 15 2012
woke up again with a reluctance to get out of bed. made it out of home by 7:30 and reached by 8:15
just one meeting and getting the doc signed by rav . not to upload it.
woke up again with a reluctance to get out of bed. made it out of home by 7:30 and reached by 8:15
just one meeting and getting the doc signed by rav . not to upload it.
Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Mar 14 2012 Wednesday sickness
Wednesday Mar 14 2012
Had a tough time getting out of bed, but made it out even thou I was awake by 5am got out by 6:30 and out of the house by 7:30 reached work by 8:10
got my pin and pass word reset. took some beating around the bush.
had a meeting to brain storm about the test cases... then was feeling sick and so headed out after letting rav and anj know about it.
wanted to go and get my car into inspection, but was feeling too sick to try anything out of the house... good god it looks and feels so warm and fuzzy with the warm temperature... paradise climate.
But me stuck at home scanning and uploading docs for filing the visa.
dammm.. its almost 8hrs straight that I have been getting the docs together.
in between called up bos and talked to him about the manager letter ,, was told to get the sign from my immediate manager... so rav it is
then when asked him about career change options into managment,, he was talking all kinds of crap and about how I was not ready to take in the tech at the bost n proj.... only after the call did I realise that it was not true,, I was just there to coordinate and help the guys at off shore in banglo.. which I did by working day and night..... and then to be told that I did not or was not ready to learn.. was a hit below the belt.. well thats life.
thinking in the buddhist way, I have to accepet it for what it is and not feel bad about it, ,, now I feel like smiling and just thinking happy thoughts and letting it go.
so easy it is when u start practicing it.
Had a tough time getting out of bed, but made it out even thou I was awake by 5am got out by 6:30 and out of the house by 7:30 reached work by 8:10
got my pin and pass word reset. took some beating around the bush.
had a meeting to brain storm about the test cases... then was feeling sick and so headed out after letting rav and anj know about it.
wanted to go and get my car into inspection, but was feeling too sick to try anything out of the house... good god it looks and feels so warm and fuzzy with the warm temperature... paradise climate.
But me stuck at home scanning and uploading docs for filing the visa.
dammm.. its almost 8hrs straight that I have been getting the docs together.
in between called up bos and talked to him about the manager letter ,, was told to get the sign from my immediate manager... so rav it is
then when asked him about career change options into managment,, he was talking all kinds of crap and about how I was not ready to take in the tech at the bost n proj.... only after the call did I realise that it was not true,, I was just there to coordinate and help the guys at off shore in banglo.. which I did by working day and night..... and then to be told that I did not or was not ready to learn.. was a hit below the belt.. well thats life.
thinking in the buddhist way, I have to accepet it for what it is and not feel bad about it, ,, now I feel like smiling and just thinking happy thoughts and letting it go.
so easy it is when u start practicing it.
Tuesday, March 13, 2012
Mar 13 2012.. Feeling sickness coming on
Tuesday, Mar 13 2012
went to bed yesterday with a feeling of sickness coming on,,, was sneezing a lot. eyes told me the story of strain, and then hitting the wash room time and again told me that there is some kind of work happening in the body to produce all the out put of toxins.
anyways got out of work around 4:30 and went for the title and registration plates. since they don't take card had to get out and get to the atm, which was again broke. so then had to think fast and went for the drive thru. luckily got it and went back.
passed by the old apt of mine in lansdale and felt nostalagic, A very beautifullly warm day, with lots of hot looking gals out running. hmmmm guess this is the first day they all get to show their sexy legs to the sun or their legs get kissed by the sun.
stopped by the chinese shop to get noodles. Atlast breaking the spell of the sick experience of chinese food at las vegas.
And two of my Facebook friends got engaged to their girlfriends.
one has been with the gal for quite long time. the other there just seems to be the magic of chemistry and love appearing even in their pics.... cheers to them and their future forever.
went to bed yesterday with a feeling of sickness coming on,,, was sneezing a lot. eyes told me the story of strain, and then hitting the wash room time and again told me that there is some kind of work happening in the body to produce all the out put of toxins.
anyways got out of work around 4:30 and went for the title and registration plates. since they don't take card had to get out and get to the atm, which was again broke. so then had to think fast and went for the drive thru. luckily got it and went back.
passed by the old apt of mine in lansdale and felt nostalagic, A very beautifullly warm day, with lots of hot looking gals out running. hmmmm guess this is the first day they all get to show their sexy legs to the sun or their legs get kissed by the sun.
stopped by the chinese shop to get noodles. Atlast breaking the spell of the sick experience of chinese food at las vegas.
And two of my Facebook friends got engaged to their girlfriends.
one has been with the gal for quite long time. the other there just seems to be the magic of chemistry and love appearing even in their pics.... cheers to them and their future forever.
Monday, March 12, 2012
Mar 12 2012 Grumpy monday with time change
Monday, Mar 12 2012
It was a grumpy monday with the time change and having to get up an hour early, Body clock not responding well. Guess it has been the theme of the day for every one. Thou I was late in starting off from home 7:30am. was able to reach work by 8. That means every one or majority of the people maybe also feeling the pressure and adjustment difficulties of the 1 hr jump.
Had lunch buffet at the indian place, amms ok, liked the masala chai more than anything.
atleast couple of things were fixed, one the leak in the sink, fixed by the maintence.
and the online payment .. kool
It was a grumpy monday with the time change and having to get up an hour early, Body clock not responding well. Guess it has been the theme of the day for every one. Thou I was late in starting off from home 7:30am. was able to reach work by 8. That means every one or majority of the people maybe also feeling the pressure and adjustment difficulties of the 1 hr jump.
Had lunch buffet at the indian place, amms ok, liked the masala chai more than anything.
atleast couple of things were fixed, one the leak in the sink, fixed by the maintence.
and the online payment .. kool
Sunday, March 11, 2012
Mar 11 2012,, spring forward
Sunday, Mar 11 2012
was confused in the morning about the times showing up on the clock and on the computer,, then realized that it was time to spring the clock forward.... what a hoot.
had difficulty adjusting to the time jumping forward.
trying to catch up on stuff.
called up vis and was able to talk for a few, got to know information about the betrayer of my trust.
latter called avr and left msg. who called back when I was at wal mart and told him the news.
towards night around 9pm went for a run. not much.. but after yesterday 10 mile hike it felt not that tuff for my first run this year.
was confused in the morning about the times showing up on the clock and on the computer,, then realized that it was time to spring the clock forward.... what a hoot.
had difficulty adjusting to the time jumping forward.
trying to catch up on stuff.
called up vis and was able to talk for a few, got to know information about the betrayer of my trust.
latter called avr and left msg. who called back when I was at wal mart and told him the news.
towards night around 9pm went for a run. not much.. but after yesterday 10 mile hike it felt not that tuff for my first run this year.
Saturday, March 10, 2012
Mar 10 2012 Sat hiking
Saturday, Mar 10 2012
off to hiking and meeting new people.. this will be a funny hike in a polish neighborhood of philly.
off to hiking and meeting new people.. this will be a funny hike in a polish neighborhood of philly.
Mar 09 2012 fri
fri Mar 09 2012
got out of home around 7:30 and reached work by 8:05...that was nice given the fact that I had very lil sleep the night after some heavy merengue after a long time. nooo not heavy, felt heavy after about a few months of dancing merengue.
was nice to see the coment on Face boo from Bri getta about missing dancing with me.... so sweet, she could easily become a super model, with a very high IQ and the cool facial expression of very propotional face and a killer smile.
got out of home around 7:30 and reached work by 8:05...that was nice given the fact that I had very lil sleep the night after some heavy merengue after a long time. nooo not heavy, felt heavy after about a few months of dancing merengue.
was nice to see the coment on Face boo from Bri getta about missing dancing with me.... so sweet, she could easily become a super model, with a very high IQ and the cool facial expression of very propotional face and a killer smile.
Thursday, March 8, 2012
Mar 08 2012, Full moon, watch out for the crazies
Thursday Mar 08 2012,
Its Full moon, watch out for the crazies on the roads. Scientific explanation has it that with the extremes in the pull of the moon and sun, the brain matter and other fluids in beings gets stretched, and there by causing a few imbalances. Effects the people who are delicately threading and are border line cases...... Flips them off easily..
Its Full moon, watch out for the crazies on the roads. Scientific explanation has it that with the extremes in the pull of the moon and sun, the brain matter and other fluids in beings gets stretched, and there by causing a few imbalances. Effects the people who are delicately threading and are border line cases...... Flips them off easily..
Wednesday, March 7, 2012
Mar 07 2012 busy day, licence of penn st
Wednesday, Mar 07 2012
busy day, by afternoon got my new license.
busy day, by afternoon got my new license.
Tuesday, March 6, 2012
Mar 06 2012 tuesday need to get lease
Tuesday, Mar 06 2012
need to get the lease from the office and then apply for new drivers licence.
need to get the lease from the office and then apply for new drivers licence.
Mar 05 mon start of week
Monday, Mar 05 2012
start of week..
evening to Buddhist meditation secessionn
Then for some dancing
start of week..
evening to Buddhist meditation secessionn
Then for some dancing
Sunday, March 4, 2012
Mar 04 2012 Un selfishness
Sunday, Mar 04 2012
Was reading a new parents post on Fb and realized that
Many people experience the sense of giving and been unselfish when they become parents. And suddenly without even knowing they are practicing the virtues preached by all religions. Loving, GIVING, COMPASSION, UN-selfishness....., :)))))
This is something I have been discovering for myself, and more so when I started going to the buddhist temple and having the interactions and discussion they have after reading a quote.
The feeling of feeling from your heart a sense of goodness towards the good people I know, people who did bad things to me, people who are strangers and in my own way extending those feeling to my own self. Which seems to put a prepetual smile on my face.
Had a difficult time trying to feel those good feelings towards a few people who hurt me badly recently. But then after much thought and analysis, realized that I need to forgive them and just let them experience their own karma based on their own actions. I cannot do anything and having that resentment towards them was making me bitter and helping the negativity in me. For my own benefit and that the great positive energy in the world I should just forgive them and send good thoughts and energy thinking about them.
Was reading a new parents post on Fb and realized that
Many people experience the sense of giving and been unselfish when they become parents. And suddenly without even knowing they are practicing the virtues preached by all religions. Loving, GIVING, COMPASSION, UN-selfishness....., :)))))
This is something I have been discovering for myself, and more so when I started going to the buddhist temple and having the interactions and discussion they have after reading a quote.
The feeling of feeling from your heart a sense of goodness towards the good people I know, people who did bad things to me, people who are strangers and in my own way extending those feeling to my own self. Which seems to put a prepetual smile on my face.
Had a difficult time trying to feel those good feelings towards a few people who hurt me badly recently. But then after much thought and analysis, realized that I need to forgive them and just let them experience their own karma based on their own actions. I cannot do anything and having that resentment towards them was making me bitter and helping the negativity in me. For my own benefit and that the great positive energy in the world I should just forgive them and send good thoughts and energy thinking about them.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
Mar 03 2012 Hiking
Saturday, Mar 03 2012
Started the day with trying to set up the preliminary preparation for cooking the meat curry. And then headed off for some group hiking. Interesting route and was interesting visiting a European style castle and church. wow who would have thought that there would be one in the middle of the hiking trail so close to the city.
This place is really interesting.
was interesting to get jud on tape doing the repeat of the river cross over for my camera. she is a adventures sportive person and very sweet too. wish she would have been living close by , we could have had a great time to gether discovering all kinds stuff and exploring the world over.... ahh well
got back home with body aching all over.
now to get going on the meat curry and finish the pending cooking
Started the day with trying to set up the preliminary preparation for cooking the meat curry. And then headed off for some group hiking. Interesting route and was interesting visiting a European style castle and church. wow who would have thought that there would be one in the middle of the hiking trail so close to the city.
This place is really interesting.
was interesting to get jud on tape doing the repeat of the river cross over for my camera. she is a adventures sportive person and very sweet too. wish she would have been living close by , we could have had a great time to gether discovering all kinds stuff and exploring the world over.... ahh well
got back home with body aching all over.
now to get going on the meat curry and finish the pending cooking
Friday, March 2, 2012
Mar 02 2012 day just drifted by
Friday, Mar 02 2012
at work by 8am did not see ann who seems to have come in before me. she has a very heat warming smile like she is in love with me. ahhhh if only it was true.
at work by 8am did not see ann who seems to have come in before me. she has a very heat warming smile like she is in love with me. ahhhh if only it was true.
Thursday, March 1, 2012
Mar 01 2012, show down
Thursday, Mar 01 2012
was feeling still pissed at the way rav was talking and behaving,, kind of getting irritate with his repeated talk of how he did xyz in his past project,, great things to say to someone who is new to the field, and the worst part is that he was with only one client.... and I had over 10 clients and yet I don't beat my own drum and go seeking attention on how great I am.
kind of seems to think that he could get way with bull shitting to people.
might work with new bies like than or others who are new to the application.
anyways had a talk with him and tired to reason with him,,,,, if he has half of any brain cells might be able to comperhend and try to work as a team.
was feeling still pissed at the way rav was talking and behaving,, kind of getting irritate with his repeated talk of how he did xyz in his past project,, great things to say to someone who is new to the field, and the worst part is that he was with only one client.... and I had over 10 clients and yet I don't beat my own drum and go seeking attention on how great I am.
kind of seems to think that he could get way with bull shitting to people.
might work with new bies like than or others who are new to the application.
anyways had a talk with him and tired to reason with him,,,,, if he has half of any brain cells might be able to comperhend and try to work as a team.