Tuesday, Nov 29 2011,
Got back home late from van go , tried to pack a few stuff.
woke up early around 5am and started with the packing and organizing.
around 8:30am the movers come in and man it coincides with the conf call meeting .
for some reason the conf got put off as Nim was not able to come. latter when checking the net, saw the bankruptcy filing by the co I am about to go to in dal.
good god this is a kind of blind siding.
well my stuff is moving and so am I. things have been set into motion.
Give the remaining 7 bottles of carona beer and the packet of lays chips to the moving guys.
around 11 get call from the guy coming to get my car... so booked rental at the airport so that I could drop it off there.
around 12:25 the guy with the tow truck comes from Delaware and the compiles a list of dents and scratches on my car and gives me the document.
Around 1 try to call up the guys to see if anyone could drop me off at the airport or to the closest rail station. none seem to pick up the call. damm fkrs.
then ajy returned the call after I walked 3 miles to the rail station ,, damm rain.
told him that I am already in the station and if I am not able to make it will call him back for help.
got to the airport by 4:50 and got the car... driving back was one hell of a screw up in the sever rain and road conditions at the peak office hours and with sun setting around 4:30 every thing was eerily dark.
Tuesday, November 29, 2011
Monday, November 28, 2011
Nov 28 , 2011 Mon. waiting on movers
Monday, Nov 28 2011
Waiting for the movers to contact. Not sure what is going to happen. Hopefully they can come in atleast by tomorrow and I can move into a hotel.
Waiting for the movers to contact. Not sure what is going to happen. Hopefully they can come in atleast by tomorrow and I can move into a hotel.
Sunday, November 27, 2011
Sun Nov 27 2011,
Sunday, Nov 27 2011
Back from NJ after a brief attempt at painting nar's house.
and as usualy great food that brought out the usual greediness in me and I went shamelessly gobble, gobble.
got back to base around 5pm... sun set.
Back from NJ after a brief attempt at painting nar's house.
and as usualy great food that brought out the usual greediness in me and I went shamelessly gobble, gobble.
got back to base around 5pm... sun set.
Saturday, November 26, 2011
Nov 26 Sat, hectic coordiantion
Saturday Nov 26 2011
rush to get things done, completed and to get some gift for nar. For all the support he and his family gave me and helped me with.
off to wal mart and then to nj, got to be back early tomorrow to see if I can get the last of packing done.
hahaha was watching this youtube put up by prks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR12Z8f1Dh8&feature=player_embedded#!
so true, girl white, with black heart... so reminded me of someone.. hehehe.
Reached venkata temple around 2 got out by 3 , took some pongal and tamrind rice for nar and family
presented his daughter with a puppy doll and nar with the drill set.
Latter got my cloths to wash and did the laundry in the basement.
rush to get things done, completed and to get some gift for nar. For all the support he and his family gave me and helped me with.
off to wal mart and then to nj, got to be back early tomorrow to see if I can get the last of packing done.
hahaha was watching this youtube put up by prks
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YR12Z8f1Dh8&feature=player_embedded#!
so true, girl white, with black heart... so reminded me of someone.. hehehe.
Reached venkata temple around 2 got out by 3 , took some pongal and tamrind rice for nar and family
presented his daughter with a puppy doll and nar with the drill set.
Latter got my cloths to wash and did the laundry in the basement.
Friday, November 25, 2011
Nov 25 2011, Black friday
Friday, Nov 25 2011
called up a potential vendor of cog to see if they could move my stuff out by 29th. have to wait out the weekend.
continue pking
Thursday, Nov 24 2011
Thanks giving day.
initiated the re loc.
Finished with the bking of flght, htl, car.
working on pking.
evening around 6pm drive out and on a crazy thought drive to wal mart and find it open. was surprised to see people there.
Enter in to find out that they are starting the thanks giving sale by 10pm and 12 midnight.
walk around and see the lines of people queuing up for the video consols and TVs. wow. my first time ever to see all these in 11 years of living in the Americas.
Slowly see the piles of Gujjus and many other indians making game plans to get out the max benifit. families spliting up and standing in different queues. wow. And then was surprised to see people speaking Araby also there with their families and kids. along with latin americans who did not seem much organized and calculating as the indians were.
Got to see cops come in to try and control the crowd where a waffle maker was been sold for $2. Was wondering have all the gujjus who eat dal rice and roti started eating waffles and syrup after coming to US or were they planning on becoming waffle eater? hahaha that would be funny. Or maybe they are going to use it to make chappathis or dosas.
Anyways non of them were listening the cops shouting and it was like a scene out of india at the ration shop where every one is crowding in and the strongest gets to make it to the top and grab the tool.
Hanging around there I end up buying 3 wrangler jeans for $30 and 3 levi staruss T-shirts. and then also brought containers 30 piece for $7 and 26 piece for $7.... could not resist the deals. After 11 years I succumbed to the mad rush of Thanks giving discount shopping .
called up a potential vendor of cog to see if they could move my stuff out by 29th. have to wait out the weekend.
continue pking
Thursday, Nov 24 2011
Thanks giving day.
initiated the re loc.
Finished with the bking of flght, htl, car.
working on pking.
evening around 6pm drive out and on a crazy thought drive to wal mart and find it open. was surprised to see people there.
Enter in to find out that they are starting the thanks giving sale by 10pm and 12 midnight.
walk around and see the lines of people queuing up for the video consols and TVs. wow. my first time ever to see all these in 11 years of living in the Americas.
Slowly see the piles of Gujjus and many other indians making game plans to get out the max benifit. families spliting up and standing in different queues. wow. And then was surprised to see people speaking Araby also there with their families and kids. along with latin americans who did not seem much organized and calculating as the indians were.
Got to see cops come in to try and control the crowd where a waffle maker was been sold for $2. Was wondering have all the gujjus who eat dal rice and roti started eating waffles and syrup after coming to US or were they planning on becoming waffle eater? hahaha that would be funny. Or maybe they are going to use it to make chappathis or dosas.
Anyways non of them were listening the cops shouting and it was like a scene out of india at the ration shop where every one is crowding in and the strongest gets to make it to the top and grab the tool.
Hanging around there I end up buying 3 wrangler jeans for $30 and 3 levi staruss T-shirts. and then also brought containers 30 piece for $7 and 26 piece for $7.... could not resist the deals. After 11 years I succumbed to the mad rush of Thanks giving discount shopping .
Wednesday, November 23, 2011
Nov 23 2011 Wednesday, waiting for the news
Wednesday Nov 23 2011
Waiting for the news from the meeting between nim and mrk.
updated sri in blr about the info, looks like san (the wanna be) already got to him before me.
Watched the video on anger by dalailama... hahaha so true.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7_0IJTBoNA&feature=share
If only few people realized and were able to control it. But like a few people said, it could be a result of chemical imbalance in their physical body. Some can be cured or kept in check by artificial medicines. But again in some its because of all the anger they developed during their childhood, towards their siblings, towards their parents who neglected them and choose career over parenting.
Meditation is one way to go, helps one learn to calm oneself down, lower the Blood pressure and control the heart rate.
Reading about Buddhism and understanding the philosophical concepts and meaning as applicable to ones own life could help a lot. Especially when the anger is related to our Ego and understanding the effects of our blown up ego, thats constantly seeking attention and approval.
Waiting for the news from the meeting between nim and mrk.
updated sri in blr about the info, looks like san (the wanna be) already got to him before me.
Watched the video on anger by dalailama... hahaha so true.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=A7_0IJTBoNA&feature=share
If only few people realized and were able to control it. But like a few people said, it could be a result of chemical imbalance in their physical body. Some can be cured or kept in check by artificial medicines. But again in some its because of all the anger they developed during their childhood, towards their siblings, towards their parents who neglected them and choose career over parenting.
Meditation is one way to go, helps one learn to calm oneself down, lower the Blood pressure and control the heart rate.
Reading about Buddhism and understanding the philosophical concepts and meaning as applicable to ones own life could help a lot. Especially when the anger is related to our Ego and understanding the effects of our blown up ego, thats constantly seeking attention and approval.
Tuesday, November 22, 2011
Monday, November 21, 2011
Nov 21 2011,,, Accountability
Monday, Nov 21 2011
Accountability is the word thats striking me every time I am now on facebook. More because of my nephews and niece listing me as their uncle on facebook friends. These future Engineers and Doctors are now turning out to be a big pressure on me on face book. The pressure of living upto the role model they maybe looking upto.
For sometime I was feeling nice to have them on as facebook friends. But now feeling overly self conscious and not able to put up things and subjects that maybe "x" rated or something that I usually express easily with no sense of been accountable.
Was thinking about my life and the gals in my life. Looks like I have a tendency to chase away people. More like testing to see if they are strong material for a life long partnership. And it did not take much to find that out. Lucky me in many ways, that I was able to weed out the superficial and shallow ones.
Been married to them would have only made my life a living hell every day.
The unfortunate and sad part for them, they never really got to know and experience the full and real me, who is the nicest, the most romantic, loyal, sincere, honest, willing to cross the 7 seas for the one who would earn my love with her own self-less, loving and giving attitude of love towards me.....
Nov 20 2011 Sunday.
Spend the day helping nar rake the leaves around his house and assembling the blower. Another lesson learnt.
met some of his other friends from work.
Had a great mutton curry and fried rice with fish curry at his house.
Accountability is the word thats striking me every time I am now on facebook. More because of my nephews and niece listing me as their uncle on facebook friends. These future Engineers and Doctors are now turning out to be a big pressure on me on face book. The pressure of living upto the role model they maybe looking upto.
For sometime I was feeling nice to have them on as facebook friends. But now feeling overly self conscious and not able to put up things and subjects that maybe "x" rated or something that I usually express easily with no sense of been accountable.
Was thinking about my life and the gals in my life. Looks like I have a tendency to chase away people. More like testing to see if they are strong material for a life long partnership. And it did not take much to find that out. Lucky me in many ways, that I was able to weed out the superficial and shallow ones.
Been married to them would have only made my life a living hell every day.
The unfortunate and sad part for them, they never really got to know and experience the full and real me, who is the nicest, the most romantic, loyal, sincere, honest, willing to cross the 7 seas for the one who would earn my love with her own self-less, loving and giving attitude of love towards me.....
Nov 20 2011 Sunday.
Spend the day helping nar rake the leaves around his house and assembling the blower. Another lesson learnt.
met some of his other friends from work.
Had a great mutton curry and fried rice with fish curry at his house.
Saturday, November 19, 2011
Nov 19 2011 , Connecting with the past
Saturday, Nov 19 2011
I was great connecting with Vid on facebook and seeing her mail. Wow, who would think that facebook would allow me to connect with one the gals I used to have a crush on when in high school.
She has as expected, has a very mature and intelligent personalty. Something I admired about her. mother of two kids now, who surprisingly look like her.
Connecting with her brought back memories of teen life, the ups, the downs, the struggle of trying to make it, the falls that led to lowering of my self esteem. The memories of family conditions, dad moving away on transfer and me trying to be the one in the family in his absence. Getting screwed in maths cause of lack of direction and the new found freedom and many times mis using the freedom. Guilt of which still haunts me and wish I had done things different.
Well as someone said yesterday, its experience gained when things don't happen the way you wanted it to happen.
Now the daunting decision, should I make the trip to NJ? its almost 2 pm... got lost in the long exchange of mails to vid.
I was great connecting with Vid on facebook and seeing her mail. Wow, who would think that facebook would allow me to connect with one the gals I used to have a crush on when in high school.
She has as expected, has a very mature and intelligent personalty. Something I admired about her. mother of two kids now, who surprisingly look like her.
Connecting with her brought back memories of teen life, the ups, the downs, the struggle of trying to make it, the falls that led to lowering of my self esteem. The memories of family conditions, dad moving away on transfer and me trying to be the one in the family in his absence. Getting screwed in maths cause of lack of direction and the new found freedom and many times mis using the freedom. Guilt of which still haunts me and wish I had done things different.
Well as someone said yesterday, its experience gained when things don't happen the way you wanted it to happen.
Now the daunting decision, should I make the trip to NJ? its almost 2 pm... got lost in the long exchange of mails to vid.
Friday, November 18, 2011
Nov 18 2011 fri ,, the temptation
Friday, Nov 18 2011
Beautiful sunny day, welcome. So good to feel the sun after the gloomy few days of clouds and early darkness,,, dark by about 4:45.
the temptation of going into facebook, every time I get on the computer. Avoided it consciously so far, difficult as it is to go check on whats happening in the world of facebook friends. most of them I hardly know. But the sharing of interesting subject matters and videos makes it very interesting and tempting to get back into.
I remember reading somewhere, that traditions are followed to get people together and share. That is why most of the traditions focus on sharing with the family and friends. There by creating bonds and strengthening existing bonds and making relationship stronger.
Facebook is one tool that seems to broaden the spectrum of sharing and there by creating bonds that would never have.
So why is it so addictive, one reason been that most people who are addicted to it (like me) are looking for some kind of belonging, some kind of constant bond (which all human beings need ). In times different or when relocating from ones native land was not popular, there was the bond and sense of belonging to the family, relatives, the neighborhood, village.
But with the development of transportation, making travel and movement of people around the world easier and faster, relocating to foreign lands have become easier. And as human need for bonding with fellow humans is a requirement as is food. The quest for bonding, to overcome the feelings of loneliness, takes us to the universe of internet and Facebook. Where its feels easier to share thoughts and get into discussions with people who one would not in real life. And it feels easier to open a part of your life to strangers whos name we would not know had it not been for Facebook.
12 to 2 cust expt mgmt... nice conversation.
its about 3:20 need to get out and chill.. cold with the sun out.. maybe out for another hour...need to make the most of it.
Beautiful sunny day, welcome. So good to feel the sun after the gloomy few days of clouds and early darkness,,, dark by about 4:45.
the temptation of going into facebook, every time I get on the computer. Avoided it consciously so far, difficult as it is to go check on whats happening in the world of facebook friends. most of them I hardly know. But the sharing of interesting subject matters and videos makes it very interesting and tempting to get back into.
I remember reading somewhere, that traditions are followed to get people together and share. That is why most of the traditions focus on sharing with the family and friends. There by creating bonds and strengthening existing bonds and making relationship stronger.
Facebook is one tool that seems to broaden the spectrum of sharing and there by creating bonds that would never have.
So why is it so addictive, one reason been that most people who are addicted to it (like me) are looking for some kind of belonging, some kind of constant bond (which all human beings need ). In times different or when relocating from ones native land was not popular, there was the bond and sense of belonging to the family, relatives, the neighborhood, village.
But with the development of transportation, making travel and movement of people around the world easier and faster, relocating to foreign lands have become easier. And as human need for bonding with fellow humans is a requirement as is food. The quest for bonding, to overcome the feelings of loneliness, takes us to the universe of internet and Facebook. Where its feels easier to share thoughts and get into discussions with people who one would not in real life. And it feels easier to open a part of your life to strangers whos name we would not know had it not been for Facebook.
12 to 2 cust expt mgmt... nice conversation.
its about 3:20 need to get out and chill.. cold with the sun out.. maybe out for another hour...need to make the most of it.
Thursday, November 17, 2011
Nov 17 2011, Staying away from Facebook.
Thursday, Nov 17 2011
Trying to stay away from Facebook. wasting a lot of time I could have productively put to use in improving my knowledge and life.
Retrospect:
Will people who are predominantly selfish be able to understand the other person,,,,, nope, not in my experience.
Any signs of selfishness, RUN,
Because every family seems to have one, who is mamas kid or dadads kid... and many in the western world are from nuclear families, who don't even know their first cousins, unlike in more conservative countries where there is a lot of bonding between family memebers. I have on my facebook, the kids of my cousin sister, cousin brother and cousin sisters grand kids... This kind of family bonding usually instills more team behavior, and there are also very selfish people in my family, and their behavior and NON-attachment towards the family stands out.
So one of the criteria if one is in search of a loyal life partner for long term stability and happiness would be to look for this feature in a potential partner.
The closer they are and talk about the other people in their family, the more they are groomed as team players. They are usually caring and are inclined to listen to what the other is saying and not act all angry and screwed up and attack you for even having a different opinion and make you look like the biggest villain in world history.
got call from anl wanting to know the address of a Doc, I had left the phone in the wash room and did not hear any,, just heard a mild ringing towards the end. had 3 missed calls.
called him back.... latter he realized that he was calling me up from the address I gave him... hehehe.. new building and new address of doc so was not turning up on his Gps.
2:25 pm ahhhh so tempting to get back into facebook. its really an addiction.
well will see who will triumph and how long I can stay away from it.
If I can stay away from it for more than 24hrs it would be an achievement.
10 more hours to go for the day to end and maybe hitting the bed early would help me and contribute to another 8hrs.. then to dray thru fri and the weekends....
went for walk around 5 that turned into a mini run,, was wearing jeans.. boy was it cold out there, chill wind blowing. got back after about 2.5 miles. legs are now aching.
7:30 and back to the 3 hrs of project classes. upto 10:30 to 10:45 pm...
Trying to stay away from Facebook. wasting a lot of time I could have productively put to use in improving my knowledge and life.
Retrospect:
Will people who are predominantly selfish be able to understand the other person,,,,, nope, not in my experience.
Any signs of selfishness, RUN,
Because every family seems to have one, who is mamas kid or dadads kid... and many in the western world are from nuclear families, who don't even know their first cousins, unlike in more conservative countries where there is a lot of bonding between family memebers. I have on my facebook, the kids of my cousin sister, cousin brother and cousin sisters grand kids... This kind of family bonding usually instills more team behavior, and there are also very selfish people in my family, and their behavior and NON-attachment towards the family stands out.
So one of the criteria if one is in search of a loyal life partner for long term stability and happiness would be to look for this feature in a potential partner.
The closer they are and talk about the other people in their family, the more they are groomed as team players. They are usually caring and are inclined to listen to what the other is saying and not act all angry and screwed up and attack you for even having a different opinion and make you look like the biggest villain in world history.
got call from anl wanting to know the address of a Doc, I had left the phone in the wash room and did not hear any,, just heard a mild ringing towards the end. had 3 missed calls.
called him back.... latter he realized that he was calling me up from the address I gave him... hehehe.. new building and new address of doc so was not turning up on his Gps.
2:25 pm ahhhh so tempting to get back into facebook. its really an addiction.
well will see who will triumph and how long I can stay away from it.
If I can stay away from it for more than 24hrs it would be an achievement.
10 more hours to go for the day to end and maybe hitting the bed early would help me and contribute to another 8hrs.. then to dray thru fri and the weekends....
went for walk around 5 that turned into a mini run,, was wearing jeans.. boy was it cold out there, chill wind blowing. got back after about 2.5 miles. legs are now aching.
7:30 and back to the 3 hrs of project classes. upto 10:30 to 10:45 pm...
Wednesday, November 16, 2011
Nov 16, 2011 the wait continues
Wednesday, Nov 16 2011
And so continues the wait for the date.
Kind of reminds me of the time I was waiting for the approval of US visa in India, waking up every day, with a feeling of uncertainty, not know which direction life is going to go. The days when life makes you feel helpless as things are pending because of external factors.
But the good news, is that I am able to do some courses and have time to do things that would help me improve myself. Just have to de-focus on the things I can do.
Have to do the packing up too..... thou about 65 percent is done.
The wait,, and the test of patience... :) beauty of life.
Around afternoon, called up nim again and got to him,,, said mrk was putting off to coordinate with his business team and hence the delay in letting us know the start date, worst case scenario, start date is Jan.
ahhh now I have a deadline to meet for the renewal of my current lease.... been here for 4 months.. and no more 1 month extension. have to sign a 3 month lease at the minimum, paying 100 more..
And so continues the wait for the date.
Kind of reminds me of the time I was waiting for the approval of US visa in India, waking up every day, with a feeling of uncertainty, not know which direction life is going to go. The days when life makes you feel helpless as things are pending because of external factors.
But the good news, is that I am able to do some courses and have time to do things that would help me improve myself. Just have to de-focus on the things I can do.
Have to do the packing up too..... thou about 65 percent is done.
The wait,, and the test of patience... :) beauty of life.
Around afternoon, called up nim again and got to him,,, said mrk was putting off to coordinate with his business team and hence the delay in letting us know the start date, worst case scenario, start date is Jan.
ahhh now I have a deadline to meet for the renewal of my current lease.... been here for 4 months.. and no more 1 month extension. have to sign a 3 month lease at the minimum, paying 100 more..
Tuesday, November 15, 2011
Nov 15 2011, confusion
Tuesday, Nov 15 2011
Well nothing like the confusion that come about when you are told that you are needed on a job to manage and achieve x,y,z and then when you reach the place of work of about to reach the place of work, get to know that someone else who is supposed to be working at helping you do "z" is of the opinion that he is been recruited to "x,y,z"..... and he has never done "z" always had some other person do "z" more had managed people doing "z".
Still no info from client on possible start dates.
just got msg from rj about it been followed up, got call from sre from bglr, seems to also in the same un-certain stage.
then sent out msg to kri about the contact on his team to help me do 'z',, get sant but seems was traveling. send out a mail and then latter get a call... and thats when I get to know about the "z" guys thoughts are "x,y,z".... hmmmm
Well nothing like the confusion that come about when you are told that you are needed on a job to manage and achieve x,y,z and then when you reach the place of work of about to reach the place of work, get to know that someone else who is supposed to be working at helping you do "z" is of the opinion that he is been recruited to "x,y,z"..... and he has never done "z" always had some other person do "z" more had managed people doing "z".
Still no info from client on possible start dates.
just got msg from rj about it been followed up, got call from sre from bglr, seems to also in the same un-certain stage.
then sent out msg to kri about the contact on his team to help me do 'z',, get sant but seems was traveling. send out a mail and then latter get a call... and thats when I get to know about the "z" guys thoughts are "x,y,z".... hmmmm
Monday, November 14, 2011
Nov 14 2011 Another week
Monday, Nov 14 2011
Another hectic week of non stop classes for further development for 6 days....... will not be able to go out to dance or socialize as the classes are online in the evening. But should be worth it to learn more and improve self and have to the tools to improve life of self and others.
Just got to know of a cousins,,, cousin working in same company, initially had got mixed up with the names, turns out to be cousin sisters husbands family.
initially was assuming that it was my cousin who is the Doctors relations or something.
Was Looking at the pic taken of me and sa, she looks so beautiful. sweet as hell and great to dance with. Compatibility. It was funny to see her stop for a break as I thought that she had more stamina.
Well when adrenaline kicks in, it makes you into a superman.
opened the window to get a wiff of aroma, the smell of dry-damp leaf, freshly mixed with the air blowing in. Smelled like home.
*-*****************
Dude I feel your plain.
Lied, cheated and Betrayed its just dis speakable.
The feeling of been stabbed in the back for your only sin and mistake of trusting someone with your heart. :'(
"Satyameva Jayate" (satyam-eva jayate सत्यमेव जयते) (Sanskrit: "Truth Alone Triumphs")
Its funny to see the reaction of some people even after getting caught in their maze of lies and deceit.
Not a word of remorse or "sorry I lied because.....".
But rather following it up with more lies and deceit.
They choose to try to become "Smarter at Lying than becoming sincere and NOT lie".
Another hectic week of non stop classes for further development for 6 days....... will not be able to go out to dance or socialize as the classes are online in the evening. But should be worth it to learn more and improve self and have to the tools to improve life of self and others.
Just got to know of a cousins,,, cousin working in same company, initially had got mixed up with the names, turns out to be cousin sisters husbands family.
initially was assuming that it was my cousin who is the Doctors relations or something.
Was Looking at the pic taken of me and sa, she looks so beautiful. sweet as hell and great to dance with. Compatibility. It was funny to see her stop for a break as I thought that she had more stamina.
Well when adrenaline kicks in, it makes you into a superman.
opened the window to get a wiff of aroma, the smell of dry-damp leaf, freshly mixed with the air blowing in. Smelled like home.
*-*****************
Dude I feel your plain.
Lied, cheated and Betrayed its just dis speakable.
The feeling of been stabbed in the back for your only sin and mistake of trusting someone with your heart. :'(
"Satyameva Jayate" (satyam-eva jayate सत्यमेव जयते) (Sanskrit: "Truth Alone Triumphs")
Its funny to see the reaction of some people even after getting caught in their maze of lies and deceit.
Not a word of remorse or "sorry I lied because.....".
But rather following it up with more lies and deceit.
They choose to try to become "Smarter at Lying than becoming sincere and NOT lie".
Sunday, November 13, 2011
Nov 13 2011, lazy day with grey clouds
Sunday, Nov 13 2011
Woke up from sleep around 7 but got out of bed only around 9am.
Had coffee and have a slight hang over from drinking lots of beer yesterday night. Stomach still feels full with the loads of Lamb curry in coconut gravy that I cooked.. ahhhh my best tasting lamb curry so far.
yummmmm
Face book is getting crowded with many more cousins joining in. Its a great way to connect with the rest of the family that I seldom get to see.
The funny part, all the new generation cousins who are doing their graduation are all studying Engineering or Medical. Its like no one is interested in the other faculties. Or they all have very high IQ thats required for an Engineer or Doc.
And also the fact that it is commonly considered that people who are not into Engineering or Doc are Dumb and of low intellectual level.
I am a bit inclined to believe that, thou many of the older cousins did Masters in other subjects, they usually topped their classes and universities. So there is something in the Gene or DNA in the family thats helping with the higher than average IQ.
Another responsibility on facebook now, have to be careful what I write and put up, as its also going to be seen by some impressionable little ones in the family.
Want to be a good role model for them to look up too. :)
Woke up from sleep around 7 but got out of bed only around 9am.
Had coffee and have a slight hang over from drinking lots of beer yesterday night. Stomach still feels full with the loads of Lamb curry in coconut gravy that I cooked.. ahhhh my best tasting lamb curry so far.
yummmmm
Face book is getting crowded with many more cousins joining in. Its a great way to connect with the rest of the family that I seldom get to see.
The funny part, all the new generation cousins who are doing their graduation are all studying Engineering or Medical. Its like no one is interested in the other faculties. Or they all have very high IQ thats required for an Engineer or Doc.
And also the fact that it is commonly considered that people who are not into Engineering or Doc are Dumb and of low intellectual level.
I am a bit inclined to believe that, thou many of the older cousins did Masters in other subjects, they usually topped their classes and universities. So there is something in the Gene or DNA in the family thats helping with the higher than average IQ.
Another responsibility on facebook now, have to be careful what I write and put up, as its also going to be seen by some impressionable little ones in the family.
Want to be a good role model for them to look up too. :)
Saturday, November 12, 2011
Nov 12 2011 SAT, great lamb curry
Saturday, Nov 12 2011
My whole apt is stinking with the lamb curry I made yesterday with ground coconut, dry fried and then ground mint leaf. wowooooo the aroma.
Made part of the meat dry instead of curry and had it with Carona beer... yuuummmm
,,,,, woke up to the phone call from nar, who was going to Va, so now I don't have to go to New jersey to help him with the work on his house.
don't feel like going for the hike either, maybe I will just chill with a couple of malayalam movies and then maybe visit costco for sampling food.
Still feel on a high after the rock-star like performance on wed at the salsa place. wooo its addictive. No wonder so many people love to be the center of attention. Oh crap ,,, its nothing but a load of superficiality, that is a world that comes crashing down soon because of its shallowness.
Gald I am able to be grounded and don't like to be lost in the world of performance and performers.
My whole apt is stinking with the lamb curry I made yesterday with ground coconut, dry fried and then ground mint leaf. wowooooo the aroma.
Made part of the meat dry instead of curry and had it with Carona beer... yuuummmm
,,,,, woke up to the phone call from nar, who was going to Va, so now I don't have to go to New jersey to help him with the work on his house.
don't feel like going for the hike either, maybe I will just chill with a couple of malayalam movies and then maybe visit costco for sampling food.
Still feel on a high after the rock-star like performance on wed at the salsa place. wooo its addictive. No wonder so many people love to be the center of attention. Oh crap ,,, its nothing but a load of superficiality, that is a world that comes crashing down soon because of its shallowness.
Gald I am able to be grounded and don't like to be lost in the world of performance and performers.
Friday, November 11, 2011
Nov 11 2011,, 11-11-11 , day of 11 11 action.
Friday, Nov 11 2011
working on planning the packing, move and all other logistics. not sure if I may be needed to extend my stay here for a few days or what I need to do.
Hoping to post this at 11:11 am
yeaa,, made it,,, with some trial and error. hmm another thing learnt .
Trying to get more info about the reloc to dls. so far only got to know the one person that I am working with...
will be a new kind of feeling trying to manage people and project in the US in an officially designated way as Senior Manager.
Now I have to behave more responsibly, with more sense of accountability, watch what I am saying, be more conscious of my manners, body language, be a role model who would inspire and motivate others to do better and bring out the best in them.
:)
Called up nims again to see if there has been any result from his talk with mark. but looks like his talk will be on monday, hence have to wait it out and see.
working on planning the packing, move and all other logistics. not sure if I may be needed to extend my stay here for a few days or what I need to do.
Hoping to post this at 11:11 am
yeaa,, made it,,, with some trial and error. hmm another thing learnt .
Trying to get more info about the reloc to dls. so far only got to know the one person that I am working with...
will be a new kind of feeling trying to manage people and project in the US in an officially designated way as Senior Manager.
Now I have to behave more responsibly, with more sense of accountability, watch what I am saying, be more conscious of my manners, body language, be a role model who would inspire and motivate others to do better and bring out the best in them.
:)
Called up nims again to see if there has been any result from his talk with mark. but looks like his talk will be on monday, hence have to wait it out and see.
Thursday, November 10, 2011
Nov 10 2011 ,, turn around
Thursday, Nov 10 2011
Full moon, woke up around 9 and got to see the mail with the go ahead for the move to dals.. eyaaaa Txs here I come.
called up sri in Bangalore as he would be working with me. Need to get to know the other guy who was recruited.
sent out mails to the act team so that I can get working on the other logistics...
4:00pmmm and dammm again project start put on hold cause of long weekend. kind of feeling jittery about the whole business.
Wednesday Nov 09 2011
End ed up going to mix for salsa.. wow it started with about 20 ladies and 3 guys.... Felt like in heaven with all the ladies coming over and asking to dance, even the girl I was afraid to ask , because she looked so pretty, came over and asked me to dance twice.... woww what a night.
Full moon, woke up around 9 and got to see the mail with the go ahead for the move to dals.. eyaaaa Txs here I come.
called up sri in Bangalore as he would be working with me. Need to get to know the other guy who was recruited.
sent out mails to the act team so that I can get working on the other logistics...
4:00pmmm and dammm again project start put on hold cause of long weekend. kind of feeling jittery about the whole business.
Wednesday Nov 09 2011
End ed up going to mix for salsa.. wow it started with about 20 ladies and 3 guys.... Felt like in heaven with all the ladies coming over and asking to dance, even the girl I was afraid to ask , because she looked so pretty, came over and asked me to dance twice.... woww what a night.
Tuesday, November 8, 2011
nov 08 2011 working it
Tuesday, Nov 08 2011
Wokeup with a bit of struggle to get out of bed. Motivation, what do I do with a tempting offer that I turned down will all expense paid, just so that I can continue with the current company with the hope of a bit of stability.
Having to have to wait for the green signal for the job in dals, not sure how that will turn out. My bonous for this year is surely screwed as I did not bill enough to even make my productivity. which has gone and is sliding down much below 50.
All this economic uncertainity caused by the lazy sloths in European Union. Who just want to drink, get drunk and party. How long did they think all the stolen wealth would last? Once you run out of liquid assets, it either liquidate the non-liquid ones or face bankruptcy, and if you have not positioned yourself for the future, then you are doomed to be screwed. Anarchy and lawlessness to follow soon. The beauty of greece and italy lost in its quest for superficial , short term pleasures.
Wokeup with a bit of struggle to get out of bed. Motivation, what do I do with a tempting offer that I turned down will all expense paid, just so that I can continue with the current company with the hope of a bit of stability.
Having to have to wait for the green signal for the job in dals, not sure how that will turn out. My bonous for this year is surely screwed as I did not bill enough to even make my productivity. which has gone and is sliding down much below 50.
All this economic uncertainity caused by the lazy sloths in European Union. Who just want to drink, get drunk and party. How long did they think all the stolen wealth would last? Once you run out of liquid assets, it either liquidate the non-liquid ones or face bankruptcy, and if you have not positioned yourself for the future, then you are doomed to be screwed. Anarchy and lawlessness to follow soon. The beauty of greece and italy lost in its quest for superficial , short term pleasures.
Monday, November 7, 2011
Nov 07 2011, Europeans are Sloths.
Monday, Nov 07 2011
Europeans are Sloths, a worn out society whos labour laws seem to induce more of a slothish attitude than motivate people to work... hahaha,, so well said by the Chinese.
Well not much different from what I was saying after my trip to europe and my subsequent realization after interacting with people.
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Loyalty, Respect are earned by a person based on their strength of character.
Trust is bestowed on people, we either break it or prove that we are worthy of the trust placed on us.
True achievers do it on the strength of their own Character, Attitude and Will Power.
Say "NO" to drugs the "First Time" and "Every Time". :)
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It was good going for a walk and run for about 3.5 miles in one hour. So motivated to do it again today.
maybe by afternoon.
got to do the laundary too.... yea to get to it.
Europeans are Sloths, a worn out society whos labour laws seem to induce more of a slothish attitude than motivate people to work... hahaha,, so well said by the Chinese.
Well not much different from what I was saying after my trip to europe and my subsequent realization after interacting with people.
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Loyalty, Respect are earned by a person based on their strength of character.
Trust is bestowed on people, we either break it or prove that we are worthy of the trust placed on us.
True achievers do it on the strength of their own Character, Attitude and Will Power.
Say "NO" to drugs the "First Time" and "Every Time". :)
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It was good going for a walk and run for about 3.5 miles in one hour. So motivated to do it again today.
maybe by afternoon.
got to do the laundary too.... yea to get to it.
Sunday, November 6, 2011
Nov 06 2011 Sunday, daylight saving
Sunday 06 nov 2011
woke up late around 10am.. and the clock was showing 11am which was good yesterday before the day light saving change.
realised that when having biriyani from the pakisthani punjabi restaurant. So went around the house to change all the clocks, the cooking range and the microwave.
Sat 05 nov 2011
went for hiking after a long time with sid and group. explored phi downtown. got to park in a very run down area, all kinds of broken down buildings.
Went to the terminal to have dinner and a beer, the original idea was to stay put in downtown and explore the salsa.
But after I returned to my car around 7pm, and tried to start the car, it would not start, Then I got to see that I had left the head lights on .... dammm had ended up doing the same thing a few days ago at the cost parking lot.
Called up aaa and the call gets routed to California.. tell the sweet lady that I am calling for philadelphia,, she was not able to understand, then I said, philly.. ohh and she understood ,,,, hehehe, how peoples sense of originality gets lost with all the short cuts we take in life..
So the call gets transfered and another sweet lady answers and she asks me for any landmarks, business close by!!??, to which I could only tell her that its a very run down area, with broken down buildings.... (it was kind of like pictures of war ravaged cities).
Did not expect the AAA guy to come in early, was scared and so was waiting at a distance on a busier road with lights. Had to run up to that truck that came to help. Looks like even he was scared and we just started off the car and phew what a relief...
And at the right moment, my cell phone dies on me too... woooo what a close call.
Hit the road and got stuck in traffic, that took me back to the sweet lil village I am living in. ahhhh the drive in traffic was slow and I was lost in thoughts with the exploration of my mind, my pattern of thoughts and Buddhism. Should I go for the intense mediation secession in downtown on sunday morning or just do it at home.
Guess sitting it out at home won.
woke up late around 10am.. and the clock was showing 11am which was good yesterday before the day light saving change.
realised that when having biriyani from the pakisthani punjabi restaurant. So went around the house to change all the clocks, the cooking range and the microwave.
Sat 05 nov 2011
went for hiking after a long time with sid and group. explored phi downtown. got to park in a very run down area, all kinds of broken down buildings.
Went to the terminal to have dinner and a beer, the original idea was to stay put in downtown and explore the salsa.
But after I returned to my car around 7pm, and tried to start the car, it would not start, Then I got to see that I had left the head lights on .... dammm had ended up doing the same thing a few days ago at the cost parking lot.
Called up aaa and the call gets routed to California.. tell the sweet lady that I am calling for philadelphia,, she was not able to understand, then I said, philly.. ohh and she understood ,,,, hehehe, how peoples sense of originality gets lost with all the short cuts we take in life..
So the call gets transfered and another sweet lady answers and she asks me for any landmarks, business close by!!??, to which I could only tell her that its a very run down area, with broken down buildings.... (it was kind of like pictures of war ravaged cities).
Did not expect the AAA guy to come in early, was scared and so was waiting at a distance on a busier road with lights. Had to run up to that truck that came to help. Looks like even he was scared and we just started off the car and phew what a relief...
And at the right moment, my cell phone dies on me too... woooo what a close call.
Hit the road and got stuck in traffic, that took me back to the sweet lil village I am living in. ahhhh the drive in traffic was slow and I was lost in thoughts with the exploration of my mind, my pattern of thoughts and Buddhism. Should I go for the intense mediation secession in downtown on sunday morning or just do it at home.
Guess sitting it out at home won.
Friday, November 4, 2011
Nov 04 2011. Dalas on my mind
Friday, Nov 04 2011
Woke up late after going out dancing to the slsa. great night with a great bachata with a extremely beautiful lady. woooo she could easily have been a movie star.
best part she followed so nicely and easily.
Another lady was complaining that I did not turn up last week and it was her Bday.. what could I say, just sorry, and wished her a happy birth day.
got cal from chk about the interview results,,, they wanted me but at 20% lower price. To which I said, naw, does not make sense for me to do that.
Feeling much better about life and things happening. Just need to focus on day to day life and improving myself intellectually and physically by working out. Mind and body goodness.
again went to a new place for meditaion, soon I will be known more for visiting buddhist temples than the hindu ones.
got to know about the 3 hr intense secession in downtown, maybe I should try that this weekend. lets see how that goes.
Woke up late after going out dancing to the slsa. great night with a great bachata with a extremely beautiful lady. woooo she could easily have been a movie star.
best part she followed so nicely and easily.
Another lady was complaining that I did not turn up last week and it was her Bday.. what could I say, just sorry, and wished her a happy birth day.
got cal from chk about the interview results,,, they wanted me but at 20% lower price. To which I said, naw, does not make sense for me to do that.
Feeling much better about life and things happening. Just need to focus on day to day life and improving myself intellectually and physically by working out. Mind and body goodness.
again went to a new place for meditaion, soon I will be known more for visiting buddhist temples than the hindu ones.
got to know about the 3 hr intense secession in downtown, maybe I should try that this weekend. lets see how that goes.
Thursday, November 3, 2011
Nov 03 2011, good interview
Thursday, Nov 03 2011
interview at 10am and it went really well. just that they expect me to come and start working ASAP. Which mean, I can only get upto 3 weeks before I can get all the documentation done and join them, but have to get the other permits and stuff which could take 4 weeks including puting up my resignation in my current co.
ahhh and they have a proj lined up in dal that got put off to nov 21 (at best estimates). is it a sure thing.. nope was supposed to report on nov 7 and then that got put off. that reduced my confidence in the probability . now even after my talk with Ra it did not do much to my confidence.
started organizing, re-organizing the boxes that I had packed just 3 months ago for the move then. so much of junk and not sure items.
puuuuuffff... why does the timing of things get so complicated. why can't I just get the job in dls? and everything should be good and peaceful for sometime atleast.
kind of getting hardened to my own logical thinking of fairness and justice after getting burned so often and not able to feel much sympathy towards other people who may be suffering. Or is it cause of my own resignation to the Mortal facts that nothing is permanent and hence me and others need to be open for the worst case scenario, much like the controlling of the false feelings and thoughts of immortality.
interview at 10am and it went really well. just that they expect me to come and start working ASAP. Which mean, I can only get upto 3 weeks before I can get all the documentation done and join them, but have to get the other permits and stuff which could take 4 weeks including puting up my resignation in my current co.
ahhh and they have a proj lined up in dal that got put off to nov 21 (at best estimates). is it a sure thing.. nope was supposed to report on nov 7 and then that got put off. that reduced my confidence in the probability . now even after my talk with Ra it did not do much to my confidence.
started organizing, re-organizing the boxes that I had packed just 3 months ago for the move then. so much of junk and not sure items.
puuuuuffff... why does the timing of things get so complicated. why can't I just get the job in dls? and everything should be good and peaceful for sometime atleast.
kind of getting hardened to my own logical thinking of fairness and justice after getting burned so often and not able to feel much sympathy towards other people who may be suffering. Or is it cause of my own resignation to the Mortal facts that nothing is permanent and hence me and others need to be open for the worst case scenario, much like the controlling of the false feelings and thoughts of immortality.
Wednesday, November 2, 2011
Nov 02 2011, Calmer day
Wednesday, Nov 02 2011 (11-02-2011 --> 11022011)
Well did not have much motivation waking up, the proj start been held up and all, with the client wanting every one to join up at the same time instead of me going there 1st and getting a lay of the land. But.....
Now to wait it out and let the forces and powers that are, to pull, push and take matters in direction as destined.
Well did not have much motivation waking up, the proj start been held up and all, with the client wanting every one to join up at the same time instead of me going there 1st and getting a lay of the land. But.....
Now to wait it out and let the forces and powers that are, to pull, push and take matters in direction as destined.
Tuesday, November 1, 2011
Nov 01 2011, Birth month
Tuesday, Nov 01 2011
Bright and shinny day , trying to pack up stuff and organizing my stuff. Finishing up on the food and not buying any new food.
watching the news on greece screwing its self more. Those lazy Europeans are toast. soon none of those lazy pigs in europe will be able to travel around like they own the world. The Chinese and Indians all who are working hard will be there travelling about and as always these pigs will again try to steal from them with all kinds of crookedness.
Well its in their DNA, try to live on other peoples work and efforts, zero sense of accountability and no sense of working hard and living. Just lost in drinking and screwing about and making babies and then moving on without taking care of the babies into other relationships and making more bastard babies who grow up with no sense of values and moral for lack of good role models in their life.
I am so happy and glad that my parents are always together, maybe not the best and ideal couple, but they stayed together and gave us direction and acted as good role models to live up to, in terms of moral, values and sense of accountability.
Was looking out of the window, when I saw a couple of teens, maybe 13 or 14, walking, the guy dark was talking animatedly, the gal lighter skinned (Caucasian) was braiding her hair and walking along on his left side. Then what looked like the end of his story, he seemed to stop and look at her, she reached out with her right hand under his chin, palms extending to his right ears, continuing to walk and kissed him.
Awww such a sweet feeling love. Some are so fortunate to have found beautiful reciprocating love.
Why does it seem like all my past were just one sided love affairs, why is it that I end up opening my heart and laying it at the foot of selfish, value less, superficial women, who then just kick and smash up heart that I take a long time to recover and heal. WHY?
For the 2nd day, the interview was a no show. looks like the managers who were supposed to call me are working 10 peoples jobs and not able to find time to interview me.
the move to dalls seems to be on hold as per the info from the practic manager. ahhhh almost booked the ticket.
Bright and shinny day , trying to pack up stuff and organizing my stuff. Finishing up on the food and not buying any new food.
watching the news on greece screwing its self more. Those lazy Europeans are toast. soon none of those lazy pigs in europe will be able to travel around like they own the world. The Chinese and Indians all who are working hard will be there travelling about and as always these pigs will again try to steal from them with all kinds of crookedness.
Well its in their DNA, try to live on other peoples work and efforts, zero sense of accountability and no sense of working hard and living. Just lost in drinking and screwing about and making babies and then moving on without taking care of the babies into other relationships and making more bastard babies who grow up with no sense of values and moral for lack of good role models in their life.
I am so happy and glad that my parents are always together, maybe not the best and ideal couple, but they stayed together and gave us direction and acted as good role models to live up to, in terms of moral, values and sense of accountability.
Was looking out of the window, when I saw a couple of teens, maybe 13 or 14, walking, the guy dark was talking animatedly, the gal lighter skinned (Caucasian) was braiding her hair and walking along on his left side. Then what looked like the end of his story, he seemed to stop and look at her, she reached out with her right hand under his chin, palms extending to his right ears, continuing to walk and kissed him.
Awww such a sweet feeling love. Some are so fortunate to have found beautiful reciprocating love.
Why does it seem like all my past were just one sided love affairs, why is it that I end up opening my heart and laying it at the foot of selfish, value less, superficial women, who then just kick and smash up heart that I take a long time to recover and heal. WHY?
For the 2nd day, the interview was a no show. looks like the managers who were supposed to call me are working 10 peoples jobs and not able to find time to interview me.
the move to dalls seems to be on hold as per the info from the practic manager. ahhhh almost booked the ticket.