Monday, Oct 31 2011
Last day of the month, had a tough time sleeping at night as the dumb red-necks living on the floor below had loud obnoxious guest coming in around 2:30am and making all kind of noise and a few old ladies who looked like hookers talking their white trash lingo.
only got out of around 8am. had bru coffee with no sugar. yewwww.
got packing a bit.
now the wait for the news to trigger the other activities.
interview with cap scheduled @ 5pm,,, ahhh how could I have got suckered into this one, now have to drive to the Buddhist temple around 3 and be ready for the interview after finding a place to park.
Monday, October 31, 2011
Sunday, October 30, 2011
Oct 30 2011, bright sunshine after snow storm
Sunday Oct 30 2011,
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
bright sunshine after snow storm, just like life full of extreme shades.
Got some cleaning and packing done. trying to fit into some of old trousers. most of them fit in. Well another reason for me to go out running A LOT and slim down.
was again listening to a few Cumbia songs,,,,, ahhhh only a person who can feel the music and dance with his heart will know what it is, when I say, I am in love with Cumbia.
just as I finish typing this, one of my fav merengue songs come on.... ahhhh if only I had a partner who is also nice and good hearted like me. It would be heaven on earth.
Saturday, October 29, 2011
Oct 29 2011, Snowed in yeww
Saturday, Oct 29 2011
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Woke up early, kind of woke up to see the first of snow falling. But the snow came in around 10am.
watching the pile up stuck at home. Its great to watch snow from a warm place. :)
Not a great fan of the cold.
Human tendency: To make the most off, with what ever is fastest with as little effort as possible. :)
Words that formed, when I started to analyze a few of my recent actions and way of having gone about doing things and executing certain actions to achieve certain results. Not happy with the less than ethical standards I resorted too, thou not hurting any one in the process, I realized that most actions or all actions resorted to or under taken by us human beings are always soaked in such tendencies.
Tendencies to achieve and get most with as little effort as possible. Which is why we as a group have kind of progressed or developed different from other animals who are happy doing and sticking to their own basic way of living.
But with that every tendency to achieve more with less effort, we have developed into begins with more complicated lives. Is it wrong or right is up for debate, but to each his own.
"""What is right for one person is not right for another, or even for the same person at another time. """
Getting drunk like crazy and finishing up on the stock of alcohol that I have, watching the Stanford university, USC game.
Friday, October 28, 2011
Oct 28 2011, Diet ease
Friday, Oct 28 2011
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
woke up around 7 and was checking out to see my proj assignment. seems to be good so far. have to see how it goes in the days ahead, too many loose ends and uncertainty.
Easing into day 3, but today, going to eat stuff and do some work out. Would be trying to stick to fruits as much as possible and avoiding alcohol. Only going to drink on social occasions.
Expecting snow storm latter tonite on the north western corridor. Damm screwed up my plans to go out dancing, don't like getting stuck in the snow when returning. Last time it happened that way.
hmmmm almost a year since I returned from Spain and Portugal.
nice to see pilar the hottest and prettiest spanish gal I got to meet there. Gald to connect with her on facebook, ahhh how I wish that I could speak spanish or she could speak english, we had such a good connection and hmmmmm so beautiful. The best part she also has a twin who is as beautiful and smoking hot . wooooo hmmmm :))) memories, sweet and heart full filling.
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Oct 27 2011 , Day 2 of the Fruit diet
Thursday, Oct 27, 2011
Its day 2 of the Fruit diet, yesterday night I was feeling hungry like crazy, but held on, was craving fries, bread and what not.... glad that phase is over.
Woke up in the morning feeling a bit tired, guess its a good thing as it means the body worked extra hard to compensate for lack of material by compensating it from other parts which have stored up or stacked up.
Started with drinking lots of water. its 10:30am now and will be starting off with eating bannanas
Someone told me that fruits have sugar and thats not good. Well my understanding is that sugar makes me Hyper and that will keep me active and thus burning into the accumulated fat. Actually feeling more charged to get things done and motivated to do some yoga stretches and light work out at home.
Same thing with Coffee, makes me hyper and gets me going to get things done. Just have to balance it out by reducing the intake of FATTY food or FAT creating food like something fried, chocolates (I was an addict, watched the video of children forced into Slavery of the Coca farms and just gave up on a pleasure thats been sustained by the blood or children forced into slavery).
It was a easy decision, based on who I am, same thing that goes for every person in the world. All decisions are based on who you think you are. Once you understand this, every decision become easier. well atleast most.
What I find funny is that people giving up meat, that they eat as food based on the fact that its cruelty to animals, but refuse to give up Chocolate, that which is just a pleasure, and something one can live with out.
********Break up*************
Its me, not you, not your fault at all, its all me ......
(just that I cannot stand lying, manipulative, crooked, selfish, self centered, superficial people. I just end up throwing up and have allergic fits, sleepless nights, causing me to be grumpy and angry during the day). hehehehe
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Its day 2 of the Fruit diet, yesterday night I was feeling hungry like crazy, but held on, was craving fries, bread and what not.... glad that phase is over.
Woke up in the morning feeling a bit tired, guess its a good thing as it means the body worked extra hard to compensate for lack of material by compensating it from other parts which have stored up or stacked up.
Started with drinking lots of water. its 10:30am now and will be starting off with eating bannanas
Someone told me that fruits have sugar and thats not good. Well my understanding is that sugar makes me Hyper and that will keep me active and thus burning into the accumulated fat. Actually feeling more charged to get things done and motivated to do some yoga stretches and light work out at home.
Same thing with Coffee, makes me hyper and gets me going to get things done. Just have to balance it out by reducing the intake of FATTY food or FAT creating food like something fried, chocolates (I was an addict, watched the video of children forced into Slavery of the Coca farms and just gave up on a pleasure thats been sustained by the blood or children forced into slavery).
It was a easy decision, based on who I am, same thing that goes for every person in the world. All decisions are based on who you think you are. Once you understand this, every decision become easier. well atleast most.
What I find funny is that people giving up meat, that they eat as food based on the fact that its cruelty to animals, but refuse to give up Chocolate, that which is just a pleasure, and something one can live with out.
********Break up*************
Its me, not you, not your fault at all, its all me ......
(just that I cannot stand lying, manipulative, crooked, selfish, self centered, superficial people. I just end up throwing up and have allergic fits, sleepless nights, causing me to be grumpy and angry during the day). hehehehe
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Wednesday, October 26, 2011
Oct 26 2011 wed, Diet
Wednesday Oct 26 2011
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
Saw a post by G and was motivated to get back into shape, the staying at home and trying to complete the courses has made its own layers of fat on my person and that pic from her kind of hit me where it should.
Went over to wal mart and got a bunch of fruits and will be on a fruit diet as much as I can for the next few hrs, days.
MY ENHANCEMENT and touch up to make it a self portrait
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Oct 25 2011 high from testosterone release
Tuesday, Oct 25 2011
yesterday was one of the great days, meditation at the Buddhist temple and listening to a new kind of or should I say way of thinking and meditating. taking negativity in and then imagining that your heart, like a washing machine cleans it up and converts it into positive and sending it back to the person or things.
After that to the Van
High on testosterone after my self-imposed staying away from any social interaction for 2 weeks.
Went out for salsa and man, women can smell it and tend to attack you in droves. at one time there were 3 gals asking me to dance and it was kind of heart breaking to say i will get u on the next one. The bad part, I was out of gas and out of shape and out of stamina. that means next priority is to get back to running and getting back into shape.
Lifes Purpose : Spreading Goodness Around
Lifes Focus : Improving Self and making life easier for self and others around.
These words seem to make me happy, because these were the words that came to me, when I was wondering whats my life, what am I doing, what do I intent to do, what is the meaning of all these.... for now my lifes purpose is to "spread goodness".
It was also great getting all the certificates from sk soft for the pdu (professional development units) credits with the project management institute logo.
got 24,, 5 more to be received. on a average of 2 to 1.5 pdus per course.
One of the good things with this company is that I seem to be getting lots of free professional training and resulting certificates. Something I was never able to before. The one time I got for SAP had ended up spending upwards of 20,000 USD for the course and certification exams.
Got call from Raj in the evening saying that i am confirmed for the new job but waiting for the client to ok the statement of work. hopefully it all gets done by this friday and the account team can switch my project allocation, that way we get to beat the Deadline set up by the HR dept for my last day with the company.
yesterday was one of the great days, meditation at the Buddhist temple and listening to a new kind of or should I say way of thinking and meditating. taking negativity in and then imagining that your heart, like a washing machine cleans it up and converts it into positive and sending it back to the person or things.
After that to the Van
High on testosterone after my self-imposed staying away from any social interaction for 2 weeks.
Went out for salsa and man, women can smell it and tend to attack you in droves. at one time there were 3 gals asking me to dance and it was kind of heart breaking to say i will get u on the next one. The bad part, I was out of gas and out of shape and out of stamina. that means next priority is to get back to running and getting back into shape.
Lifes Purpose : Spreading Goodness Around
Lifes Focus : Improving Self and making life easier for self and others around.
These words seem to make me happy, because these were the words that came to me, when I was wondering whats my life, what am I doing, what do I intent to do, what is the meaning of all these.... for now my lifes purpose is to "spread goodness".
It was also great getting all the certificates from sk soft for the pdu (professional development units) credits with the project management institute logo.
got 24,, 5 more to be received. on a average of 2 to 1.5 pdus per course.
One of the good things with this company is that I seem to be getting lots of free professional training and resulting certificates. Something I was never able to before. The one time I got for SAP had ended up spending upwards of 20,000 USD for the course and certification exams.
Got call from Raj in the evening saying that i am confirmed for the new job but waiting for the client to ok the statement of work. hopefully it all gets done by this friday and the account team can switch my project allocation, that way we get to beat the Deadline set up by the HR dept for my last day with the company.
Sunday, October 23, 2011
Oct 23 sunday
Sunday Oct 23
Back after probably the final phase of work on the floor of nars house. About close to 1000sq feet of flooring and then a few meters of fixing the side boards and mold.
now the wait and anticipation of whats in store for monday. It is adding more pressure as its like a do (get the contract) or get laid off situation. And with the lean phase in the economy and the end of the year for any new spending for new projects, its kind of hard. This comp it feels better to be with for a steady career growth and possibly upto date trainings that I get at free of cost. Cannot beat the fact that they paid me for most of this year for hardly any work done and sitting at home most of the time.
Back after probably the final phase of work on the floor of nars house. About close to 1000sq feet of flooring and then a few meters of fixing the side boards and mold.
now the wait and anticipation of whats in store for monday. It is adding more pressure as its like a do (get the contract) or get laid off situation. And with the lean phase in the economy and the end of the year for any new spending for new projects, its kind of hard. This comp it feels better to be with for a steady career growth and possibly upto date trainings that I get at free of cost. Cannot beat the fact that they paid me for most of this year for hardly any work done and sitting at home most of the time.
Saturday, October 22, 2011
Oct 22 Saturday, drowsy from drinking
Saturday, Oct 22 2011
Woke up with a feeling of still been high after yesterday nights drinking. It sure does help reduce stress and relax. But as with all intoxicating substance its always dangerous and addictive in a bad way.
Got the Lamb curry ready (lamb from Australia), kind of not satisfied with the taste. Seems to have kind of lost the touch. well not having as much practice as before. got to get back into cooking up a storm.
taking a few containers with the lamb curry to nars house. his wife has been giving me great food every time I have been there and always giving me some to take home. now to return the containers filled up with my curries. :)
Head off to nars house to help him with the flooring work, 4th weekend spend helping a friend who lives about 80 miles away. Well he is a very nice guy and he deserves all the help he can get. I am for sure in the western terms giving up my person life and other pleasures that I usually focus on during the weekends.
its been weeks since I last danced salsa, hopefully with the good news confirmation on monday, I should get back into it. More than that, need to go to the Buddhist temple in downtown philly and participate in the group (sanga) meditation and discussion of philosophy and living after that. It was so nice to hear so many good people talk about their beliefs. Wow wish I could have met them before, would have been a great growing and learning experience. And could have avoided the all the pain of interacting with the shallow and superficial minded people.
either way a growing experience, pain and heart break are feeling better understood by having experienced it that way when there is love and happiness its much better appreciated.
Woke up with a feeling of still been high after yesterday nights drinking. It sure does help reduce stress and relax. But as with all intoxicating substance its always dangerous and addictive in a bad way.
Got the Lamb curry ready (lamb from Australia), kind of not satisfied with the taste. Seems to have kind of lost the touch. well not having as much practice as before. got to get back into cooking up a storm.
taking a few containers with the lamb curry to nars house. his wife has been giving me great food every time I have been there and always giving me some to take home. now to return the containers filled up with my curries. :)
Head off to nars house to help him with the flooring work, 4th weekend spend helping a friend who lives about 80 miles away. Well he is a very nice guy and he deserves all the help he can get. I am for sure in the western terms giving up my person life and other pleasures that I usually focus on during the weekends.
its been weeks since I last danced salsa, hopefully with the good news confirmation on monday, I should get back into it. More than that, need to go to the Buddhist temple in downtown philly and participate in the group (sanga) meditation and discussion of philosophy and living after that. It was so nice to hear so many good people talk about their beliefs. Wow wish I could have met them before, would have been a great growing and learning experience. And could have avoided the all the pain of interacting with the shallow and superficial minded people.
either way a growing experience, pain and heart break are feeling better understood by having experienced it that way when there is love and happiness its much better appreciated.
Friday, October 21, 2011
Oct 21 2011, Fri, Last day at the company
Friday, Oct 21 2011
After going to sleep late, watching a few dance programs online, passed out on the couch, woke up to the alarm then went to sleep again, woke up to the commotion at the neighbors, then went to sleep again and woke up around 8:30am feeling way lazier, but miles to go.
yesterday evenings call from Raj was a bonus one more week with the company, hopefully the ameri air assignments comes thru, thou its supposed to be more than 80 percent sure, have to still wait for the clients to approve it in writing.
kind of feeling dis oriented. wanted to go out salsa dancing to reward myself for having finished the 56 official hr course thou it took upwards of 100hrs for me to finish it online.
But did not go and decided to stay indoors and watch a few funny serials online. and eat a few Indian junk food or mixtures.
Ahhhh the Tea tastes soo good, hahaha, can't believe I am having it with out sugar.
Got call from the Doc office about my annual checkup, seems to be in great shape. Triglycerides, the upper limit of which should be 150 was about 200 plus, much less than the 465 that it was a few years ago.
Thanks to staying away from shrimps, eating garlic and drinking fresh cut ginger tea, running and hiking.
After going to sleep late, watching a few dance programs online, passed out on the couch, woke up to the alarm then went to sleep again, woke up to the commotion at the neighbors, then went to sleep again and woke up around 8:30am feeling way lazier, but miles to go.
yesterday evenings call from Raj was a bonus one more week with the company, hopefully the ameri air assignments comes thru, thou its supposed to be more than 80 percent sure, have to still wait for the clients to approve it in writing.
kind of feeling dis oriented. wanted to go out salsa dancing to reward myself for having finished the 56 official hr course thou it took upwards of 100hrs for me to finish it online.
But did not go and decided to stay indoors and watch a few funny serials online. and eat a few Indian junk food or mixtures.
Ahhhh the Tea tastes soo good, hahaha, can't believe I am having it with out sugar.
Got call from the Doc office about my annual checkup, seems to be in great shape. Triglycerides, the upper limit of which should be 150 was about 200 plus, much less than the 465 that it was a few years ago.
Thanks to staying away from shrimps, eating garlic and drinking fresh cut ginger tea, running and hiking.
Thursday, October 20, 2011
Oct 20 thrusday, Anticipation and waiting
Thursday, Oct 20 2011
Waiting since morning for the anticipated news, so far no response to the couple of calls I made to bos (going directly to vm), and raj. have to try and follow up around noon.
Beautiful day outside, with the sun shinning brightly, hopefully this is my ticket into proj mgmt full time.
it was a great feeling on having completed about 56 hrs for the prog mgmt, actually must have taken double that time.
Also still on a high after the experience of shooting range, shot 5 different guns, one of them a rifle.
was able to hit 3 times on the center "x", the popular joke among all was, "hey I got my Ex with that shot" hehehe, all the ladies seem to have so much animosity stored inside of them about their ex's.
well nothing new, the majority of the females I come across seem to be only interested in blaming their ex's and not taking any responsibility for their actions. Always expecting to be treated special, always wanting to be told that they are right and selfish to the core and then when they don't get it from others or their partner, as they do not recognize that others/partners are human beings with their own set of requirements and need to be respected for that..... they end up lying to themselves about how bad the other is and not for one moment thinking that they themselves could be wrong and so highly contribute to all the UN-happiness in them selves and thereby making the lives of those around them miserable. And then with every passing day with the amount of lies they convince themselves with , even the honest truth is so lost and then their lies become their own reality.
And with that the pent up frustration towards their ex's.
Well their life, either they realize and learn or will be lost in the circle of karma repeating their mistakes again and again and inviting into their lives the same old misery.
Waiting since morning for the anticipated news, so far no response to the couple of calls I made to bos (going directly to vm), and raj. have to try and follow up around noon.
Beautiful day outside, with the sun shinning brightly, hopefully this is my ticket into proj mgmt full time.
it was a great feeling on having completed about 56 hrs for the prog mgmt, actually must have taken double that time.
Also still on a high after the experience of shooting range, shot 5 different guns, one of them a rifle.
was able to hit 3 times on the center "x", the popular joke among all was, "hey I got my Ex with that shot" hehehe, all the ladies seem to have so much animosity stored inside of them about their ex's.
well nothing new, the majority of the females I come across seem to be only interested in blaming their ex's and not taking any responsibility for their actions. Always expecting to be treated special, always wanting to be told that they are right and selfish to the core and then when they don't get it from others or their partner, as they do not recognize that others/partners are human beings with their own set of requirements and need to be respected for that..... they end up lying to themselves about how bad the other is and not for one moment thinking that they themselves could be wrong and so highly contribute to all the UN-happiness in them selves and thereby making the lives of those around them miserable. And then with every passing day with the amount of lies they convince themselves with , even the honest truth is so lost and then their lies become their own reality.
And with that the pent up frustration towards their ex's.
Well their life, either they realize and learn or will be lost in the circle of karma repeating their mistakes again and again and inviting into their lives the same old misery.
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
Oct 19 Wed 2011, wassup life
Wednesday, Oct 19 2011
A bit of feeling of relief and confidence when I have almost finished the PMP on skillsoft.
And feel a bit more positive energy.
Got to see how the day turns out into,, keeping fingers crossed on the ame air opening. Hopefully something very positive comes out today
A bit of feeling of relief and confidence when I have almost finished the PMP on skillsoft.
And feel a bit more positive energy.
Got to see how the day turns out into,, keeping fingers crossed on the ame air opening. Hopefully something very positive comes out today
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Oct 18 2011 Tuesday
Tuesday Oct 18
got the oil change done and had break fast at dunkin doughnuts. sweet
followed up with raj on the ame air opening in dals.
so far no update.
almost at the end of the scheduled to finish the course. made up lost time on sat by doing a night out on sunday and hence added to the suffering on mon.
got to finish procurement managment tonite and then the ethics by tomorrow. cheers then I would have done about 56 hrs (4 more to go for ethics), actually must have put in double that time.
Mon Oct 17 2011
Was really feeling low after the info that i was not been considered for the wa-mart opening.
And was not able to get the oil change done for lack of slots
was only able to focus and finish the risk management after all the distractions did it from 8pm to 12
got the oil change done and had break fast at dunkin doughnuts. sweet
followed up with raj on the ame air opening in dals.
so far no update.
almost at the end of the scheduled to finish the course. made up lost time on sat by doing a night out on sunday and hence added to the suffering on mon.
got to finish procurement managment tonite and then the ethics by tomorrow. cheers then I would have done about 56 hrs (4 more to go for ethics), actually must have put in double that time.
Mon Oct 17 2011
Was really feeling low after the info that i was not been considered for the wa-mart opening.
And was not able to get the oil change done for lack of slots
was only able to focus and finish the risk management after all the distractions did it from 8pm to 12
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Oct 15 2011, Got my first pair of Glasses, officially a Nerd
Saturday, Oct 15 2011
Woke up around 8am with a extermination to complete the planned courses.
Got cracking on it by 9 and was able to finish half of Human resources part 2, when I got a call from the Doc office asking me come over to collect my classes.
yea.... got my first pair of classes. went there after completing the half and was hoping to do the other half on return.
After I got the glasses, went for a drive from the Docs office and reached Costco. walked about, trying to read small write ups on boxes.... wow so clear and crisp. then was trying to see if I could get people to look at me and see how they reacted, friendly or with a suspicion. was a mixed bag, there was one lady who seemed as thou she wanted to bite me and eat me. uggggg run.
Then called up home and had a good chat with mom and dad.
later called up anl and told him too.
time to get back to learning,, tried starting the car ,,, dammm had left the head lights on that freaking drained out my car batteries..... waited for 30mins and tried starting the car ,,, but no luck.. so called up AAA
that freak took more than an hour to reach me. in between talked with balji in san fran. he seems to tired of living here away from his other family and friends and wants to go back and settle down. so tempting, but my place is a village so very far from the cities, so that would still not be a good vi-able plan for me. Would still have to go to some crowded city and seek employment.
got back around 4 only to find the online site for the course is down for maintenance,, its about 9pm and its still down,,, ahhh.. screwed up plan.
Woke up around 8am with a extermination to complete the planned courses.
Got cracking on it by 9 and was able to finish half of Human resources part 2, when I got a call from the Doc office asking me come over to collect my classes.
yea.... got my first pair of classes. went there after completing the half and was hoping to do the other half on return.
After I got the glasses, went for a drive from the Docs office and reached Costco. walked about, trying to read small write ups on boxes.... wow so clear and crisp. then was trying to see if I could get people to look at me and see how they reacted, friendly or with a suspicion. was a mixed bag, there was one lady who seemed as thou she wanted to bite me and eat me. uggggg run.
Then called up home and had a good chat with mom and dad.
later called up anl and told him too.
time to get back to learning,, tried starting the car ,,, dammm had left the head lights on that freaking drained out my car batteries..... waited for 30mins and tried starting the car ,,, but no luck.. so called up AAA
that freak took more than an hour to reach me. in between talked with balji in san fran. he seems to tired of living here away from his other family and friends and wants to go back and settle down. so tempting, but my place is a village so very far from the cities, so that would still not be a good vi-able plan for me. Would still have to go to some crowded city and seek employment.
got back around 4 only to find the online site for the course is down for maintenance,, its about 9pm and its still down,,, ahhh.. screwed up plan.
Friday, October 14, 2011
Oct 14, Friday, one more week towards deadline
Friday, Oct 14 2011
woke up around 5am and was procrastinating and got out by 6am... struggle, struggle.
struggled to read thru the material on human resources and took the test and got 87%
then went to the apt rental and gave the letter extending the stay for another month.
sent out modified res to ra, lets see, if I get this would be awesome and at place where it would not snow and is closer to the equator and warm and best of all will be having a friend at that location. keeping fingers crossed
woke up around 5am and was procrastinating and got out by 6am... struggle, struggle.
struggled to read thru the material on human resources and took the test and got 87%
then went to the apt rental and gave the letter extending the stay for another month.
sent out modified res to ra, lets see, if I get this would be awesome and at place where it would not snow and is closer to the equator and warm and best of all will be having a friend at that location. keeping fingers crossed
Thursday, October 13, 2011
Oct 13 Thursday 2011,, one more week to go.
Oct 13 Thursday,
Qua Assurance and Qua Control... and need to complete the HR related proces.
Oct 12th Wednesday
Called sharmi again and talked to her about the conditions.
Got a few calls from companies. also from w-mart opening in Cog, would be great to get that.
Completed a few more of Quality , Proj quality planning and was easy to pass these test.
got mail with penalty for home rent. ahhhhh
Oct 11th Tuesday
Called up sharmi but was told will call back about the global pool.never got a call back
Completed the Costing part , estimating and budgeting and controlling costs.
Oct 10th Monday
Anu birthday, sent a mail wishing him.
went for my first buddhist temple and meditated, good group and great discussion after the meditation.
Then hung on there and went salsa dancing, not many people turned up that knew to dance.
Oct 9th Sunday 2011
Tired after doing all the manual labor and floor work.
Got back home around 7pm had the goat curry by nars wife.
Oct 8th Saturday 2011
left early to reach Nar's house, then went about getting stuff to the junk yard . latter went to hom depo and brought stuff instead of renting. turned out to be cheaper.
called up home and talked with mom and dad.
Qua Assurance and Qua Control... and need to complete the HR related proces.
Oct 12th Wednesday
Called sharmi again and talked to her about the conditions.
Got a few calls from companies. also from w-mart opening in Cog, would be great to get that.
Completed a few more of Quality , Proj quality planning and was easy to pass these test.
got mail with penalty for home rent. ahhhhh
Oct 11th Tuesday
Called up sharmi but was told will call back about the global pool.never got a call back
Completed the Costing part , estimating and budgeting and controlling costs.
Oct 10th Monday
Anu birthday, sent a mail wishing him.
went for my first buddhist temple and meditated, good group and great discussion after the meditation.
Then hung on there and went salsa dancing, not many people turned up that knew to dance.
Oct 9th Sunday 2011
Tired after doing all the manual labor and floor work.
Got back home around 7pm had the goat curry by nars wife.
Oct 8th Saturday 2011
left early to reach Nar's house, then went about getting stuff to the junk yard . latter went to hom depo and brought stuff instead of renting. turned out to be cheaper.
called up home and talked with mom and dad.
Friday, October 7, 2011
Oct 07 2011, Friday - Confusion and uncertainity
Friday, Oct 07 2011
Started the day, with having to move the car about 2 blocks early in the morning as they were laying the street. saw a few cars getting towed away. The deadline was 7am.
then got down to trying to contact bos, who again I guess was traveling, tried calling again around 10:30,,,,, going to voice. But got a call back from him after sometime, around 12:20.
Did not give any hope of been able to find an opening or extension in the company, so its bye-bye for sure in 2 more weeks. Surprisingly, still not feeling any fear or pressure.
not sure if thats a good thing or bad.
On his advice called up sharmi and left a msg, who was in charge of the global data base.
Have to start packing the extra boxes I got from costco.
uncertainty and surprising twists and turns are the key words in my life.
when will I ever have some stability?
updated the OS. not sure if there is going to be any performance issue, but now I am able to use the app for calculating my running, walking and other activities. kool thing.
Started the day, with having to move the car about 2 blocks early in the morning as they were laying the street. saw a few cars getting towed away. The deadline was 7am.
then got down to trying to contact bos, who again I guess was traveling, tried calling again around 10:30,,,,, going to voice. But got a call back from him after sometime, around 12:20.
Did not give any hope of been able to find an opening or extension in the company, so its bye-bye for sure in 2 more weeks. Surprisingly, still not feeling any fear or pressure.
not sure if thats a good thing or bad.
On his advice called up sharmi and left a msg, who was in charge of the global data base.
Have to start packing the extra boxes I got from costco.
uncertainty and surprising twists and turns are the key words in my life.
when will I ever have some stability?
updated the OS. not sure if there is going to be any performance issue, but now I am able to use the app for calculating my running, walking and other activities. kool thing.
Thursday, October 6, 2011
Oct 06 2011, Thursday, Just for Today.
Thursday, Oct 06 2011
woke up with a struggle, but was up by 6:30am.
had breakfast and reached the docs office by 9:20am, eyes still good, but a bit short sighted. So might as well go for the glasses frame when its covered by my insurance.
Eyes were still dilated when I got out and the sun was making it tough. Went to costco and the lady at the eye shop asked me to come back for measurements. So went back again. the eye dilation was affecting my driving and vision. After a struggle made it back in my trusty car.
Was not able to read properly cause of the dilation. so skipped the online course.
Posted this inspiring piece on Fb, surprisingly, I found that I was practicing most of it from my own experience and trying to motivate myself.
Kind of paradigm, here I am about the end of my job with the current company and dont seem to be that worried. Earlier had "fear" motivating me to work extra hard and fast to get to the next job.
JUST FOR TODAY
by Vin Vinner on Wednesday, 05 October 2011
1. Just for today, I will be HAPPY. This assumes that what Abraham Lincoln said is true, that "most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be" . Happiness is from within; it is not a matter of externals.
2. Just for today, I will try to adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my family, my business and my luck as they come and fit myself to them.
3. Just for today, I will take care of my body. I will exercise it, care for it, nourish it, not abuse it nor neglect it, so that it will be a perfect machine for my bidding.
4. Just for today, I will try to strengthen my mind, I will learn something useful, I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.
5. Just for today, I will exercise my soul in three ways, I will do somebody a good turn and not get found out. I will do at least two things I don't want to do, as William James suggests, just for exercise.
6. Just for today, I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress as becomingly as possible, talk low, act courteously, be liberal with praise, criticize not at all, nor find fault with anything and not try to regulate not improve anyone.
7. Just for today. I will try to live through this day only, not to tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do things for twelve hours that would appall me if I to keep them up for a life time.
8. Just for today. I will have a program, I will write down what I expect to do every hour, I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it. It will eliminate two pests, hurrying and indecision.
9. Just for today, I will have a quite half-hour all by myself and relax. In this half-hour sometimes I will think of God, so as to get little more perspective into my life.
10. Just for today, I will be unafraid, especially I will not be afraid to be HAPPY, to enjoy what is beautiful, to love, and to believe that those I love, love me.
THINK AND ACT CHEERFULLY,
AND YOU WILL FEEL CHEERFUL.
Cheers to Happiness
woke up with a struggle, but was up by 6:30am.
had breakfast and reached the docs office by 9:20am, eyes still good, but a bit short sighted. So might as well go for the glasses frame when its covered by my insurance.
Eyes were still dilated when I got out and the sun was making it tough. Went to costco and the lady at the eye shop asked me to come back for measurements. So went back again. the eye dilation was affecting my driving and vision. After a struggle made it back in my trusty car.
Was not able to read properly cause of the dilation. so skipped the online course.
Posted this inspiring piece on Fb, surprisingly, I found that I was practicing most of it from my own experience and trying to motivate myself.
Kind of paradigm, here I am about the end of my job with the current company and dont seem to be that worried. Earlier had "fear" motivating me to work extra hard and fast to get to the next job.
JUST FOR TODAY
by Vin Vinner on Wednesday, 05 October 2011
1. Just for today, I will be HAPPY. This assumes that what Abraham Lincoln said is true, that "most folks are about as happy as they make up their minds to be" . Happiness is from within; it is not a matter of externals.
2. Just for today, I will try to adjust myself to what is, and not try to adjust everything to my own desires. I will take my family, my business and my luck as they come and fit myself to them.
3. Just for today, I will take care of my body. I will exercise it, care for it, nourish it, not abuse it nor neglect it, so that it will be a perfect machine for my bidding.
4. Just for today, I will try to strengthen my mind, I will learn something useful, I will not be a mental loafer. I will read something that requires effort, thought and concentration.
5. Just for today, I will exercise my soul in three ways, I will do somebody a good turn and not get found out. I will do at least two things I don't want to do, as William James suggests, just for exercise.
6. Just for today, I will be agreeable. I will look as well as I can, dress as becomingly as possible, talk low, act courteously, be liberal with praise, criticize not at all, nor find fault with anything and not try to regulate not improve anyone.
7. Just for today. I will try to live through this day only, not to tackle my whole life problem at once. I can do things for twelve hours that would appall me if I to keep them up for a life time.
8. Just for today. I will have a program, I will write down what I expect to do every hour, I may not follow it exactly, but I will have it. It will eliminate two pests, hurrying and indecision.
9. Just for today, I will have a quite half-hour all by myself and relax. In this half-hour sometimes I will think of God, so as to get little more perspective into my life.
10. Just for today, I will be unafraid, especially I will not be afraid to be HAPPY, to enjoy what is beautiful, to love, and to believe that those I love, love me.
THINK AND ACT CHEERFULLY,
AND YOU WILL FEEL CHEERFUL.
Cheers to Happiness
Wednesday, October 5, 2011
Oct 05 2011, great start. need more momentum
Wednesday, Oct 05 2011
Called up bos, but so far did not get any response to msgs left. So I guess he is avoiding me and its the final days at cog for me. 2 more weeks to go.
saw vneu on the office communicator, pinged him and asked him about the possiblity of opening in India, but was told that they are having a lul there. And latter nag confirmed that many are sitting on the bench.
So looks like the job scenario is really bad all around
Send out my 1st resume, got back an mail asking about details, sent the reply with a question, never got any reply back.
got to finish the estmating activity and resourse. passed the online test. 82%.
Good going, need to work on sales force. after going out for a bit and be back for the evening, so no salsa tonite as I did not complete 3 .... got to get moving on this ASAP and build up more momentum and then will able to update my resume with another feather.
Called up bos, but so far did not get any response to msgs left. So I guess he is avoiding me and its the final days at cog for me. 2 more weeks to go.
saw vneu on the office communicator, pinged him and asked him about the possiblity of opening in India, but was told that they are having a lul there. And latter nag confirmed that many are sitting on the bench.
So looks like the job scenario is really bad all around
Send out my 1st resume, got back an mail asking about details, sent the reply with a question, never got any reply back.
got to finish the estmating activity and resourse. passed the online test. 82%.
Good going, need to work on sales force. after going out for a bit and be back for the evening, so no salsa tonite as I did not complete 3 .... got to get moving on this ASAP and build up more momentum and then will able to update my resume with another feather.
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Oct 04 2011, re-newed dertermination
Tuesday, Oct 04 2011
Woke up early with renewed determination to get things done on the online course,
.
called up the lab and gave them the insurance details. that was easier than doing it on the web.
The apt inspector from the county came by to check the fire alarms.
around 2:33 finished the definin and sequencing
Then stepped out to go to costco. the streets were cloged with traffic. ufff.
Made it thru the little streets and had a chat with venk. was talking about Qatar and how the average house hold income there were 3 times more than US. No wonder people working there are able to come back to kerala with truck loads of cash and buy up the properties.
The US may also collapse economically soon. its just a question of time. They are all living on credit. That is money belonging to someone else. Its like a Giant Ponzi scam.
Yet the only place in the world, where you can succeed if you have the energy to work and creativity to appeal to the market.
Does not matter who your parents and family is or your background. All depending on your enterprising spirit and risk taking ability.
The land of self made millionaires.
unlike the Lazy Europeans who love to enjoy and lazy around from all the stolen wealth from the colonies.
The greeks, the italians, the spanish, the ultra lazy Czechs, the crazy irish, the portuguese, the drunk Eastern europeans..... all lazy retarded people who only love to waste time doing frivolous things and think that things pay for itself.
And then they go on to blame the gypsies for doing the same things.
hahaha talk about double talk.
Wonder what italian bomb gulia is doing. last time she sent me a card from germany. maybe will try to convince her to make the move to Qatar.
Returned back from costco and had chicken samosas and mini chicken patties from costco. they were surprisingly good.
talked a bit with anil and chatted with a comcast rep to help log me in.
latter watched kama sutra on the free movies on comcast.
now to finish the estimating, resources and duration.... . need inspiration to complete all these courses. 10 down,,,,18 more to go.
went for a walk and a little jog in the cold.
Got this link on FB from ke sina , that was kind of her to share it, Very interesting and thought provoking.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jc-55p1Al9k&feature=related
Woke up early with renewed determination to get things done on the online course,
.
called up the lab and gave them the insurance details. that was easier than doing it on the web.
The apt inspector from the county came by to check the fire alarms.
around 2:33 finished the definin and sequencing
Then stepped out to go to costco. the streets were cloged with traffic. ufff.
Made it thru the little streets and had a chat with venk. was talking about Qatar and how the average house hold income there were 3 times more than US. No wonder people working there are able to come back to kerala with truck loads of cash and buy up the properties.
The US may also collapse economically soon. its just a question of time. They are all living on credit. That is money belonging to someone else. Its like a Giant Ponzi scam.
Yet the only place in the world, where you can succeed if you have the energy to work and creativity to appeal to the market.
Does not matter who your parents and family is or your background. All depending on your enterprising spirit and risk taking ability.
The land of self made millionaires.
unlike the Lazy Europeans who love to enjoy and lazy around from all the stolen wealth from the colonies.
The greeks, the italians, the spanish, the ultra lazy Czechs, the crazy irish, the portuguese, the drunk Eastern europeans..... all lazy retarded people who only love to waste time doing frivolous things and think that things pay for itself.
And then they go on to blame the gypsies for doing the same things.
hahaha talk about double talk.
Wonder what italian bomb gulia is doing. last time she sent me a card from germany. maybe will try to convince her to make the move to Qatar.
Returned back from costco and had chicken samosas and mini chicken patties from costco. they were surprisingly good.
talked a bit with anil and chatted with a comcast rep to help log me in.
latter watched kama sutra on the free movies on comcast.
now to finish the estimating, resources and duration.... . need inspiration to complete all these courses. 10 down,,,,18 more to go.
went for a walk and a little jog in the cold.
Got this link on FB from ke sina , that was kind of her to share it, Very interesting and thought provoking.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Jc-55p1Al9k&feature=related
Monday, October 3, 2011
Oct 03 2011, week of financial trumoil in europe
Monday, Oct 03 2011
woke up to the news of Greece defaulting and boy oh boy, the finacial market tanked.
So set up my agenda to only go salsa dancing as reward if I can finish 2 of the Time management chapter.
its now 7:30pm and still have not started.
Frustrating as it is, and to top it all, its cold 40degF and this apartment having central heat from the apt management, they are only required to switch it on a particular date as per the direction of the government.
missing my old apt, had all the wonderful facilities and it costed like wise.
Oct 02 2011
got up early and we started working on the flooring and then went to home depot to return the rented equipments. then got biriyani from the hotel and after having that went to newark airport drop off viki. whos flight got re-routed via denver.
Its already sub-zero in the north where he is , sioux city.
woke up to the news of Greece defaulting and boy oh boy, the finacial market tanked.
So set up my agenda to only go salsa dancing as reward if I can finish 2 of the Time management chapter.
its now 7:30pm and still have not started.
Frustrating as it is, and to top it all, its cold 40degF and this apartment having central heat from the apt management, they are only required to switch it on a particular date as per the direction of the government.
missing my old apt, had all the wonderful facilities and it costed like wise.
Oct 02 2011
got up early and we started working on the flooring and then went to home depot to return the rented equipments. then got biriyani from the hotel and after having that went to newark airport drop off viki. whos flight got re-routed via denver.
Its already sub-zero in the north where he is , sioux city.
Saturday, October 1, 2011
OCT 01 2011, Saturday, Loyalty
Saturday Oct 01 2011,
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Loyalty, was thinking about peoples relationship and why some people seem to have committed relationships compared to the others.
LOYALTY.
Loyalty is faithfulness or a devotion to a person, country, group, or cause and not giving up at the signs of trouble.
Loyalty is what keeps families together under dire circumstances of natures tests.
For loyalty to flourish or grow, Inputs are Parents, Culture (like Indians), Heritage, surrounding, friends who think like wise are few.
Depth of these feelings or revelation of this trait in character is more profound when there is sincerity in a person. When a person is more sincere, they show more depth. When a person is not sincere, they are usually very shallow and fickle minded. Which in turn makes them drift from one relationship to another and are never stable nor reliable.
Which again brings out the statement, loose character ed person or person of very loose character and moral.
LOYALTY, so is said to be a noble trait.
Now I got to drive about 70 plus miles to help out Nar to Help him do the floors of his new house, have to find something nice to gift him on his house warming that happened on Thursday.
hmmmmm racking my brain for that. grrrrr ,, aaahh,, oooohh,,, eee aaaa,,, hehahahaaha. nice to start of the day with laughter.
Again I wonder how many of the people in the western world would feel the sense of loyalty to go help a frined with work on laying out the wooden floor by traveling 75+75 miles == 150 miles about 200kms on a weekend.?
Guess thats where we get to know the basic difference in behavior between people of different cultures.
People with no sense of Loyalty often do not even love of like their own culture or hardly know anything about their own heritage and are always looking at the grass on the other side of the river which seems to be glowing green.
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Loyalty, was thinking about peoples relationship and why some people seem to have committed relationships compared to the others.
LOYALTY.
Loyalty is faithfulness or a devotion to a person, country, group, or cause and not giving up at the signs of trouble.
Loyalty is what keeps families together under dire circumstances of natures tests.
For loyalty to flourish or grow, Inputs are Parents, Culture (like Indians), Heritage, surrounding, friends who think like wise are few.
Depth of these feelings or revelation of this trait in character is more profound when there is sincerity in a person. When a person is more sincere, they show more depth. When a person is not sincere, they are usually very shallow and fickle minded. Which in turn makes them drift from one relationship to another and are never stable nor reliable.
Which again brings out the statement, loose character ed person or person of very loose character and moral.
LOYALTY, so is said to be a noble trait.
Now I got to drive about 70 plus miles to help out Nar to Help him do the floors of his new house, have to find something nice to gift him on his house warming that happened on Thursday.
hmmmmm racking my brain for that. grrrrr ,, aaahh,, oooohh,,, eee aaaa,,, hehahahaaha. nice to start of the day with laughter.
Again I wonder how many of the people in the western world would feel the sense of loyalty to go help a frined with work on laying out the wooden floor by traveling 75+75 miles == 150 miles about 200kms on a weekend.?
Guess thats where we get to know the basic difference in behavior between people of different cultures.
People with no sense of Loyalty often do not even love of like their own culture or hardly know anything about their own heritage and are always looking at the grass on the other side of the river which seems to be glowing green.