Tuesday Nov 30 2010
got back late after some great merengue and bachata. Then woke up early to get talking with Sweta about the set up in bangalore. she gave me to believe that they do not have the siebel much but more of raw cti work going on there and that they are recruiting more people in the CTI group. needing about 150 more.
got chatting with ajit when the issue of CATS time sheet came up. asked him about my last dates and he insisted on KT. told him its all in place.
Then asked him about sending out my resume to hari and bosco. Latter he asked me to send my resume and then he forwarded it to them with me in the CC.
So felt a bit better about that.
in the evening it was a toss between going out running the cold or going out salsa dancing again to the reef.
just got back from running 1 mile ,,, hehehe,,, yep about 1.7kms approx. hahaha feels so cheap compared to narayan and sara running the marathons and about 7 to 8 miles in one hr..
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
Monday, November 29, 2010
Nov 29 heater repair
Mon Nov 29 2010
Woke up, but with difficulty got out of bed and then decided to connect from home. Chatted with sweta for sometime about the preparation of the proj going live. Then heated up the food and had brunch.
Around 11 the repair guy came in for fixing up the heating unit. Seems a wasp build a house at the out let and the flame was getting shut off. Only latter got to know that the repair man broke the house and may be destroyed the eggs in it. Felt bad that a few living creatures were killed and their house destroyed for the pleasure of my warm room.
:(
Then by afternoon went to office , attended a foolish meeting organized by the nut case Tony.
got out and checked the la liga match and saw that Barcelona trashed Real Madrid by 5 goals... ahhh how could that happen. shocker. bummer...
Woke up, but with difficulty got out of bed and then decided to connect from home. Chatted with sweta for sometime about the preparation of the proj going live. Then heated up the food and had brunch.
Around 11 the repair guy came in for fixing up the heating unit. Seems a wasp build a house at the out let and the flame was getting shut off. Only latter got to know that the repair man broke the house and may be destroyed the eggs in it. Felt bad that a few living creatures were killed and their house destroyed for the pleasure of my warm room.
:(
Then by afternoon went to office , attended a foolish meeting organized by the nut case Tony.
got out and checked the la liga match and saw that Barcelona trashed Real Madrid by 5 goals... ahhh how could that happen. shocker. bummer...
Sunday, November 28, 2010
Nov 28, sunday Heater not working
Sunday, Nov 28 2010
The Heater seems to have a problem. Only the fan seems to be working. The heat seems to have stopped. Got to go and complain to the management or to peco.
Had to put on the heat via the cooking range.
Anyways after yesterdays upset stomach from eating Indian food. I don't think I will go visit Indian restaurant for a long time to come. Guess these guys just use liberal amounts of MSG.
Yesterdays hike must have been really grueling as I can feel my legs aching.
The Heater seems to have a problem. Only the fan seems to be working. The heat seems to have stopped. Got to go and complain to the management or to peco.
Had to put on the heat via the cooking range.
Anyways after yesterdays upset stomach from eating Indian food. I don't think I will go visit Indian restaurant for a long time to come. Guess these guys just use liberal amounts of MSG.
Yesterdays hike must have been really grueling as I can feel my legs aching.
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Nov 27 Sat hiking
Saturday, Nov 27 2010
Woke up early and went hiking with sidneys group. then for Indian buffet with the group at Amans.
Woke up early and went hiking with sidneys group. then for Indian buffet with the group at Amans.
Nov 26 Black friday
Friday, Nov 26 2010
went to sleep late and woke up late for the back friday.
got out of the house around 2 and wanted to see what happened at the malls. oh god the black friday shopping was still on after people were out @ 3am ...phew all the roads closer to the malls were kind of stuck with traffic jams.
went to traget to check out the westing house TV of 40 inches they were selling for 289.
but it seems it was sold out.
Then went to staples and got a 8GB mem stick for $11. that was cheap.
went to sleep late and woke up late for the back friday.
got out of the house around 2 and wanted to see what happened at the malls. oh god the black friday shopping was still on after people were out @ 3am ...phew all the roads closer to the malls were kind of stuck with traffic jams.
went to traget to check out the westing house TV of 40 inches they were selling for 289.
but it seems it was sold out.
Then went to staples and got a 8GB mem stick for $11. that was cheap.
Nov 25 Thanks giving weekend
Thursday Nov 25 2010
Thanksgiving weekend in US. ended up watching a few malu movies and one hindi movie on the youtube.
Thanksgiving weekend in US. ended up watching a few malu movies and one hindi movie on the youtube.
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Nov 23 B day
Tuesday Nov 23 2010
Birthday,, got call from home.
went to work around 1pm. got back home around 7pm.. hehehe I am not living as per spanish standard time of working.
After a lot of self debating, went to Reef for the first time. great place to dance because the level of dancers was much better. and the chicks were hotter and sexier. hmmmm
met the lady who said it felt like mediating when dancing the bachata with me. Turns out to be from Italy.. ahhh I am naturally attracting Italians. Is there some kind of link there or is the universe trying to tell me something. Maybe I need to go to Italy. ;) got back home around 2:30am.
Birthday,, got call from home.
went to work around 1pm. got back home around 7pm.. hehehe I am not living as per spanish standard time of working.
After a lot of self debating, went to Reef for the first time. great place to dance because the level of dancers was much better. and the chicks were hotter and sexier. hmmmm
met the lady who said it felt like mediating when dancing the bachata with me. Turns out to be from Italy.. ahhh I am naturally attracting Italians. Is there some kind of link there or is the universe trying to tell me something. Maybe I need to go to Italy. ;) got back home around 2:30am.
Monday, November 22, 2010
Nov 22. moooon day
Monday, Nov 22 2010
woke up as usual around 5am decided to wfh. so was able to have breakfast, go thru the learning material for PMP and then have lunch before heading off to work around 12:30noon.
out from work after a lot of just waiting for the clock to strike 5.
Get call from narayan, who just got back from india and had participated in the philly marathon.
Then was debating to do to Van Gogh for salsa or go tomorrow to Reef.
Should I shave tonite or no?
8pm get call from anil who just got out of work after they tried to go live the second time and failed...
Talking with him realized that I need to get yogurt for myself. So head out and get the yogurt from Genaurdies... wow atlast they have plain yogurt.
woke up as usual around 5am decided to wfh. so was able to have breakfast, go thru the learning material for PMP and then have lunch before heading off to work around 12:30noon.
out from work after a lot of just waiting for the clock to strike 5.
Get call from narayan, who just got back from india and had participated in the philly marathon.
Then was debating to do to Van Gogh for salsa or go tomorrow to Reef.
Should I shave tonite or no?
8pm get call from anil who just got out of work after they tried to go live the second time and failed...
Talking with him realized that I need to get yogurt for myself. So head out and get the yogurt from Genaurdies... wow atlast they have plain yogurt.
Sunday, November 21, 2010
Nov 21, Blue moon day
Sunday, nov 21 2010
supposed to be Blue moon day, given to the the 3rd of the season, which are supposed to have only 3 full moons per season. When there are 4 full moons in a season the 3rd one is called the Blue moon.
woke up late in the afternoon after a great night out of salsa dancing and meeting some great gals. Behtney and then kate. Ending up meeting a lot of kates. The dance with kate was awesome. we were laughing and lots of eye contact and flirting and perfect ending with dips. wowow... She seemed to love the expression on my face and was also making expression and protecting me as I was protecting her from the dancers around the overly crowded dance floor.
She seemed so excited after the dance. Filled up my heart to see someone feeling so happy after dancing with me. woo hooo.
Ate the remaining Biriyani that I had got from Jersey city..... Dear old Hyderabadi Biriyani... I think the Al-watan biriyani from vancouver is still the best.
supposed to be Blue moon day, given to the the 3rd of the season, which are supposed to have only 3 full moons per season. When there are 4 full moons in a season the 3rd one is called the Blue moon.
woke up late in the afternoon after a great night out of salsa dancing and meeting some great gals. Behtney and then kate. Ending up meeting a lot of kates. The dance with kate was awesome. we were laughing and lots of eye contact and flirting and perfect ending with dips. wowow... She seemed to love the expression on my face and was also making expression and protecting me as I was protecting her from the dancers around the overly crowded dance floor.
She seemed so excited after the dance. Filled up my heart to see someone feeling so happy after dancing with me. woo hooo.
Ate the remaining Biriyani that I had got from Jersey city..... Dear old Hyderabadi Biriyani... I think the Al-watan biriyani from vancouver is still the best.
Saturday, November 20, 2010
Nov 20 2010 Sat
Saturday, Nov 20 2010
Got started with cleaning up the wash room and then heating up the Chicken biriyani with coffee.
watched Rugby on internet.
Contemplating about life and the past in terms of relationships, jobs, people I got to meet, some living lasting beautiful memories, many living scars with their mean selfish behavior, people I wish I had never met and had kept away from. But on second thoughts, because of these bad evil people I appreciate and value more of the good people in my life. Trade off, but something I could really live without.
Well atleast I know now with a stronger feeling the type of people I need to keep my distance and withdraw from.
About 12 now. maybe go to costco to check out.
Got started with cleaning up the wash room and then heating up the Chicken biriyani with coffee.
watched Rugby on internet.
Contemplating about life and the past in terms of relationships, jobs, people I got to meet, some living lasting beautiful memories, many living scars with their mean selfish behavior, people I wish I had never met and had kept away from. But on second thoughts, because of these bad evil people I appreciate and value more of the good people in my life. Trade off, but something I could really live without.
Well atleast I know now with a stronger feeling the type of people I need to keep my distance and withdraw from.
About 12 now. maybe go to costco to check out.
Friday, November 19, 2010
Nov 19, off to JFK airport for Air India
Friday, Nov 19 2010
Goto to get on the road by 10am at least. but before that off to work and hope to make it there by 7:10am at least. woke up around 5 and now its 6:30am...yeaaaahh
Goto to get on the road by 10am at least. but before that off to work and hope to make it there by 7:10am at least. woke up around 5 and now its 6:30am...yeaaaahh
Thursday, November 18, 2010
Nov 18....JFK airport and Air India flight.
Thursday, nov 18 2010
It was great going for a run yesterday night in the cold. did not go far. but now feel good that I can do that run comfortably next time with out feeling the need to motivate myself to overcome the not so great feeling of having to run very long and far.
woke up early then slept again and woke up with a jolt around 6:30am and made it to work by 7:40am. Got hold of sweta and briefed her on the things happening here. And decided to meet up tomorrow on the call before I head to JFK airport for the Air India flight to New Delhi.
Got chatting with Vibu to know about Athira and Deepu. Well supposed to be a great day today or rather start of a great phase today in all respects and in getting the connection with new LOVE.. ;) hehehe.. about time to find a Honest, Loyal women.
Tired of putting up and been taken for granted by all these sick, lying, cheating women, who think that I must be some kind of idiot that they can just fool and mess around with all the drama.
Invest my time in quality women who have character and value in their thinking and attitude.
And watch out for the signs and not make the mistake of compromising and thinking that they will probably improve with the right direction. No they don't Eva is a great example of someone who will never improve no matter what positive info she is fed. A great example of someone whos head is so wrapped in selfishness, anger and crookedness.
Her only reason for not having ending up in a mental hospital is that she keeps reading the philosophical words and is able to temporarily be safe. But don't think she understands the depth of the words. Its just like a shallow outer coat, that disappears at the first rain.
Well shallow people all over the world are like that. Their true color always comes out when it really matters. No matter how glossy and appealing they appear when they are putting on an act.
hehehe,,, just have to let go of such people at the earliest. cheers
It was great going for a run yesterday night in the cold. did not go far. but now feel good that I can do that run comfortably next time with out feeling the need to motivate myself to overcome the not so great feeling of having to run very long and far.
woke up early then slept again and woke up with a jolt around 6:30am and made it to work by 7:40am. Got hold of sweta and briefed her on the things happening here. And decided to meet up tomorrow on the call before I head to JFK airport for the Air India flight to New Delhi.
Got chatting with Vibu to know about Athira and Deepu. Well supposed to be a great day today or rather start of a great phase today in all respects and in getting the connection with new LOVE.. ;) hehehe.. about time to find a Honest, Loyal women.
Tired of putting up and been taken for granted by all these sick, lying, cheating women, who think that I must be some kind of idiot that they can just fool and mess around with all the drama.
Invest my time in quality women who have character and value in their thinking and attitude.
And watch out for the signs and not make the mistake of compromising and thinking that they will probably improve with the right direction. No they don't Eva is a great example of someone who will never improve no matter what positive info she is fed. A great example of someone whos head is so wrapped in selfishness, anger and crookedness.
Her only reason for not having ending up in a mental hospital is that she keeps reading the philosophical words and is able to temporarily be safe. But don't think she understands the depth of the words. Its just like a shallow outer coat, that disappears at the first rain.
Well shallow people all over the world are like that. Their true color always comes out when it really matters. No matter how glossy and appealing they appear when they are putting on an act.
hehehe,,, just have to let go of such people at the earliest. cheers
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Nov 17,,,,,,
Wednesday 17 nov 2010
got to work by 7:50 and did not do much other than getting to the status meeting at 10. then back home for the beef curry with rice around 12:30pm.
have another meeting around 3... wish it was not there then I could have just stayed home and tried to do some thing the skill soft and finished some process management topics.
got to work by 7:50 and did not do much other than getting to the status meeting at 10. then back home for the beef curry with rice around 12:30pm.
have another meeting around 3... wish it was not there then I could have just stayed home and tried to do some thing the skill soft and finished some process management topics.
Tuesday, November 16, 2010
Nov 16 tuesday, does not feel right today
Tuesday nov 16. 2010,,
Even thou had a great night out dancing with some sweet connections with people whos names I do not even know. (well they don't mine either).
Waking up in the morning did not feel right. Weather outside said it all with the drizziling.
Then at work got to know that ashi whos parents he was expecting to come to US to help with his wifes pregnancy had their Visa app rejected by the US consulate. Such a heart breaking and screwed up situation to all the plans he must have made. And no valid reason given as to reason for rejection.
For a few fleeting moments our dreams and life is in the hands of the few people who tend to think that they are gods and play with it. POWER and its mis-use has always been a big part of human beings abuse.
does physical appearence matter, as much as we like to sound like who are full of virtue, we all still have a certain degree of shallowness about us.
As I see a sweet looking gal at salsa, with a very sweet smile always on her face, like she was born with that smile, I am not able to think of anything else but feel the pull on the upper part of my heart like its doing a happy dance. It was like i was falling in love. the same sensations. Why is this happening. is it cause i am associating her disarming smile and face to an image of the ideal women full of sincerity, loyalty and innocence, associating it to the image of someone I could just lower my guard trust her fully to not break my heart and just be my goofy self?
Doing what I do naturally with out any pretentsions and still expect her to love me unconditionally.
Even thou had a great night out dancing with some sweet connections with people whos names I do not even know. (well they don't mine either).
Waking up in the morning did not feel right. Weather outside said it all with the drizziling.
Then at work got to know that ashi whos parents he was expecting to come to US to help with his wifes pregnancy had their Visa app rejected by the US consulate. Such a heart breaking and screwed up situation to all the plans he must have made. And no valid reason given as to reason for rejection.
For a few fleeting moments our dreams and life is in the hands of the few people who tend to think that they are gods and play with it. POWER and its mis-use has always been a big part of human beings abuse.
does physical appearence matter, as much as we like to sound like who are full of virtue, we all still have a certain degree of shallowness about us.
As I see a sweet looking gal at salsa, with a very sweet smile always on her face, like she was born with that smile, I am not able to think of anything else but feel the pull on the upper part of my heart like its doing a happy dance. It was like i was falling in love. the same sensations. Why is this happening. is it cause i am associating her disarming smile and face to an image of the ideal women full of sincerity, loyalty and innocence, associating it to the image of someone I could just lower my guard trust her fully to not break my heart and just be my goofy self?
Doing what I do naturally with out any pretentsions and still expect her to love me unconditionally.
Monday, November 15, 2010
Nov 15, KT presentation
Monday, nov05 2010
tired to wake up early after a great night of salsa. got to work around 8am. 8:30 made the international presentation and KT for M on C.
Got to see the mails from the jack arse tony to others. thanks to susan forwarding it to me.
some arses are so stuck on playing the blame game and not taking any responsibility or focusing on trying to solve the issues. That in the end they throw every one out of focus.
anyways was able to look at the new issue that came up of Pref language not getting set back to English. great to find the solution even before the QC was logged.
Great to become friends with rucika and mary via FB. Two malus.
8pm off to Vango for some merengue and sexy bachata. Noticed that the bottles put up on the wall had Van Gogh paintings in them. so thats why its Vango.
Danced a very sensual dance with a lady, with eyes closed. She latter said it was like meditation. It sure was.
tired to wake up early after a great night of salsa. got to work around 8am. 8:30 made the international presentation and KT for M on C.
Got to see the mails from the jack arse tony to others. thanks to susan forwarding it to me.
some arses are so stuck on playing the blame game and not taking any responsibility or focusing on trying to solve the issues. That in the end they throw every one out of focus.
anyways was able to look at the new issue that came up of Pref language not getting set back to English. great to find the solution even before the QC was logged.
Great to become friends with rucika and mary via FB. Two malus.
8pm off to Vango for some merengue and sexy bachata. Noticed that the bottles put up on the wall had Van Gogh paintings in them. so thats why its Vango.
Danced a very sensual dance with a lady, with eyes closed. She latter said it was like meditation. It sure was.
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Nov 14. childrens Day in India
Sunday Nov 14 2010
Feeling better after a good nights sleep. Scotch helped too.
Hiking in the afternoon, then some cuban salsa in the evening.... yea the good times are rolling.
Its Childrens day in India.
The day all school going kids look forward to, getting some kind of sweets from their teachers.
Phew... what a great beef curry creation, my best so far I think. Everything fell into place and did not miss out adding anything. Got to add a few veggies too making it a wholesome healthy curry.
Hiking was great too. got to meet a few nice people new to the group. Beautiful hike for a sunday.
Now to get ready and head for some cuban salsa...
Absolutely amazing little place called Cuba in chestnut hill, with a very friendly crowd. Had a bachata with ahira and people clapped after the dance. It felt good to be appreciated and thou I don't think that I am anywhere near good. I just improvise and try to play by the feel of the song. And sometimes the moves just come out from the heart. And one gal thought I was trained in ball room or some hi-fi kind of dancing.
Got mail from malini wanting to coordinate going out next weekend. well I am not sure where I might go or feel like going. just do not wish to commit to something I am not sure.
Feeling better after a good nights sleep. Scotch helped too.
Hiking in the afternoon, then some cuban salsa in the evening.... yea the good times are rolling.
Its Childrens day in India.
The day all school going kids look forward to, getting some kind of sweets from their teachers.
Phew... what a great beef curry creation, my best so far I think. Everything fell into place and did not miss out adding anything. Got to add a few veggies too making it a wholesome healthy curry.
Hiking was great too. got to meet a few nice people new to the group. Beautiful hike for a sunday.
Now to get ready and head for some cuban salsa...
Absolutely amazing little place called Cuba in chestnut hill, with a very friendly crowd. Had a bachata with ahira and people clapped after the dance. It felt good to be appreciated and thou I don't think that I am anywhere near good. I just improvise and try to play by the feel of the song. And sometimes the moves just come out from the heart. And one gal thought I was trained in ball room or some hi-fi kind of dancing.
Got mail from malini wanting to coordinate going out next weekend. well I am not sure where I might go or feel like going. just do not wish to commit to something I am not sure.
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Nov 13 sat and at work since morning
Saturday Nov 13 2010
was not able to sleep with the reported issue that was happening. was trying to figure out what the issue was.
Was drifting in and out of sleep and trying to check the nagging issue. So early morning 7:30 reach work and then see that there has been an update. Deny the avaya guy finds the bug. when we were all focused on something else he found the quote close for one number missing. " ' " , just that one lil thing caused so much problems.
So when the other joined in the call around 9:30am suggested to do a test. Again the arse hole Tony was at his scarcastic best trying to be the best arse in the world.
Then after some explanation, all decide to hook up at 11am
The tests go well and fine. just that another bug / issues becomes evident.
Then again a series of waiting for them to finish the tests... George joins on chat with me and susan. who was kind enough to join me in the war-room early morning at 11. we debate about the issue and then I tell that I will try to simulate it on t5 on monday.
Around 1:30 we take off towards home. And again i missed a great opportunity to go hiking with a huge crowd today. More people seem to come in after seeing my pics.. hehehe I am now a famous hiker and iPhone photographer.
Watch paquia fight in the evening and then head out for salsa.
Replied to malin mail asking me to come for salsa some place she wants to go.
was not able to sleep with the reported issue that was happening. was trying to figure out what the issue was.
Was drifting in and out of sleep and trying to check the nagging issue. So early morning 7:30 reach work and then see that there has been an update. Deny the avaya guy finds the bug. when we were all focused on something else he found the quote close for one number missing. " ' " , just that one lil thing caused so much problems.
So when the other joined in the call around 9:30am suggested to do a test. Again the arse hole Tony was at his scarcastic best trying to be the best arse in the world.
Then after some explanation, all decide to hook up at 11am
The tests go well and fine. just that another bug / issues becomes evident.
Then again a series of waiting for them to finish the tests... George joins on chat with me and susan. who was kind enough to join me in the war-room early morning at 11. we debate about the issue and then I tell that I will try to simulate it on t5 on monday.
Around 1:30 we take off towards home. And again i missed a great opportunity to go hiking with a huge crowd today. More people seem to come in after seeing my pics.. hehehe I am now a famous hiker and iPhone photographer.
Watch paquia fight in the evening and then head out for salsa.
Replied to malin mail asking me to come for salsa some place she wants to go.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Nov 12, Fri, Prod Go live,
Friday, Nov 12, 2010
hahaha Woke up again at 5am, tossing and turning, trying to motivate self to get moving. anyway got out and reached work around 7:30am. After dealing with the sheet of ice on the wind shield. ahhh
Go live day for the first piece of code of mine into Production. rather the go live would be on monday. But the code gets pushed into PROD today evening 8:30pm.
well will know by 9 how the code looks. Then head out for some sexy salsa with kate. :)
maybe reply to malins dramatic mail.
talked with aji about my last day and the course of action
Ended up with some issues at the prod go live. got a call around 9:45pm so was not able to go out dancing... and no sleep trying to find the root cause and not able to sleep
hahaha Woke up again at 5am, tossing and turning, trying to motivate self to get moving. anyway got out and reached work around 7:30am. After dealing with the sheet of ice on the wind shield. ahhh
Go live day for the first piece of code of mine into Production. rather the go live would be on monday. But the code gets pushed into PROD today evening 8:30pm.
well will know by 9 how the code looks. Then head out for some sexy salsa with kate. :)
maybe reply to malins dramatic mail.
talked with aji about my last day and the course of action
Ended up with some issues at the prod go live. got a call around 9:45pm so was not able to go out dancing... and no sleep trying to find the root cause and not able to sleep
Thursday, November 11, 2010
Nov 11 2010. early to work
Thursday Nov112010
Woke up around 5am and got to work by 7:20am.
got to talk with sweta in bangalore before she left for the day. apprised her about the happenings and motivated her to feel better about handling issues here after I leave.
ajay seems to be having issues before his taking off to india for his marriage. damm these issues have a funny way of turning up when you least want them to. Same thing happened before I left for europ. 5 months of non-activity and suddenly two days before I leave, series of issues.
confused as to what to reply to malinis mail. She is just reminding me of Eva with her behavior. Don't want to get into a relationship or sucked into a relationship with selfish - self centered people.
Had I been in a relationship with her maybe I would have made the effort to explain to her. Now I am least bothered to make the effort as she is not someone I am interested in and do not want to be sucked into the drama. She will just go on to behave like evil eva no matter what I tell her. So I just zip up and pretend nothing is the matter and keep my distance.
Why do all these drama queens try all these sick irresponsible, lack of accountable behavior and then expect to be treated like queens and expect others to shower them with un-divided attention that they do not deserve?
They don't even try to make the effort and then expect others to make the effort. Yea right, like I am going to.
Tried, rather went out of my way more than any man would ever, setting aside my pride and self-respect. And what does it result in? Just more pain and heart break for me. dis-respect towards me and my life.
awww Fuck it, these people do not deserve any kind of attention or good feedback. LEt them just continue on their path of self destruction and then wonder why no one is interested in them for the right reasons.
When some one is interested in them for the right reasons, they tend to treat them like shit and take them for granted. Then who would even want to pay any attention to their sick personalities. After sometime the interested people will surely move away too.
Well atleast I am not going to get sucked into that loop again, no matter how tempting it is.
Woke up around 5am and got to work by 7:20am.
got to talk with sweta in bangalore before she left for the day. apprised her about the happenings and motivated her to feel better about handling issues here after I leave.
ajay seems to be having issues before his taking off to india for his marriage. damm these issues have a funny way of turning up when you least want them to. Same thing happened before I left for europ. 5 months of non-activity and suddenly two days before I leave, series of issues.
confused as to what to reply to malinis mail. She is just reminding me of Eva with her behavior. Don't want to get into a relationship or sucked into a relationship with selfish - self centered people.
Had I been in a relationship with her maybe I would have made the effort to explain to her. Now I am least bothered to make the effort as she is not someone I am interested in and do not want to be sucked into the drama. She will just go on to behave like evil eva no matter what I tell her. So I just zip up and pretend nothing is the matter and keep my distance.
Why do all these drama queens try all these sick irresponsible, lack of accountable behavior and then expect to be treated like queens and expect others to shower them with un-divided attention that they do not deserve?
They don't even try to make the effort and then expect others to make the effort. Yea right, like I am going to.
Tried, rather went out of my way more than any man would ever, setting aside my pride and self-respect. And what does it result in? Just more pain and heart break for me. dis-respect towards me and my life.
awww Fuck it, these people do not deserve any kind of attention or good feedback. LEt them just continue on their path of self destruction and then wonder why no one is interested in them for the right reasons.
When some one is interested in them for the right reasons, they tend to treat them like shit and take them for granted. Then who would even want to pay any attention to their sick personalities. After sometime the interested people will surely move away too.
Well atleast I am not going to get sucked into that loop again, no matter how tempting it is.
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Nov 10, head still throbing
Wednesday nov 10 2010
woke up and did some light work out. now I feel a little better and lighter, rather a bit loosening of the tightness I was feeling because of the accumulating fat from laziness.
Got to work around 8am. Traffic seems to be crazy at that time. took me about 20 to 25 mins to get from home which should have taken 5 to 6 mins. Should get back into the getting out of house early.
Atleast I am having 3 meals a day now with breakfast.
may take off from work early after the meeting and the wfh.
woke up and did some light work out. now I feel a little better and lighter, rather a bit loosening of the tightness I was feeling because of the accumulating fat from laziness.
Got to work around 8am. Traffic seems to be crazy at that time. took me about 20 to 25 mins to get from home which should have taken 5 to 6 mins. Should get back into the getting out of house early.
Atleast I am having 3 meals a day now with breakfast.
may take off from work early after the meeting and the wfh.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
Nov 09. SOP presentation
Tuesday Nov 09 2010
Feeling heavy in the head. need to make a presentation around 10am for the SM group who will be doing the code changes. walking them thru the procedure that needs to be followed.
Great looking morning otherwise, a couple of mails form sang about having to release the time sheet for my vacation days.
Funny non of the guys knew about it. got help from Georg who remarked that the other guys did not know cause they were never allowed to take vacation days. :) well so much for the mordern day indian slaves.
Feeling heavy in the head. need to make a presentation around 10am for the SM group who will be doing the code changes. walking them thru the procedure that needs to be followed.
Great looking morning otherwise, a couple of mails form sang about having to release the time sheet for my vacation days.
Funny non of the guys knew about it. got help from Georg who remarked that the other guys did not know cause they were never allowed to take vacation days. :) well so much for the mordern day indian slaves.
Monday, November 8, 2010
Nov 08 BRIGHT BEAUTIFUL DAY
Monday Nov 08 2010
BBD. people trying to sleep 1 hr more, that included me. Have not made changes to the time on the Bedroom clock. That should probably motivate me to wake up early from tomorrow.
The parking was empty.
Trying to focus on the purpose that I have defined for myself. Controlling the monkey on viagra like thoughts is a on going task. Discipline is faster and best achieved with the help of a trainer or teacher. Absence of which or not been interested in taking on one, rather trying to be the master of ones own domain may feel less stressful and peaceful. But may not help in achieving ones full potential. No pressure/hardwork no gain.
No risk no gain.
Having issues with stomach because of yesterdays spicey dishes.
WFH....
Guys have now suddenly got motivated to start planning for new year party. Well their only idea is to sit and drink and play cards, not my kind of thing. I like to hit the out doors and do something physical, go dancing and clubbing on new years.
BBD. people trying to sleep 1 hr more, that included me. Have not made changes to the time on the Bedroom clock. That should probably motivate me to wake up early from tomorrow.
The parking was empty.
Trying to focus on the purpose that I have defined for myself. Controlling the monkey on viagra like thoughts is a on going task. Discipline is faster and best achieved with the help of a trainer or teacher. Absence of which or not been interested in taking on one, rather trying to be the master of ones own domain may feel less stressful and peaceful. But may not help in achieving ones full potential. No pressure/hardwork no gain.
No risk no gain.
Having issues with stomach because of yesterdays spicey dishes.
WFH....
Guys have now suddenly got motivated to start planning for new year party. Well their only idea is to sit and drink and play cards, not my kind of thing. I like to hit the out doors and do something physical, go dancing and clubbing on new years.
Sunday, November 7, 2010
Nov 07, Depavali party
Sunday Nov 07 2010
Deepavali party around 11, organized by the wifes of the guys I work with..
have to start setting all the time back by an hour.
Great party with a variety of foods. Mostly north Indian flavor. Had puri after a very long time. :)
Took a bottle of costly Whisky. only half the bottle was finished.
Then the guys started playing Cards. And I decided to stay off as its not something I am into. I am more an outdoorsy guy.
got back home around 7pm which was like 8pm yesterday. It was dark outside by 5:30pm.
Another few weeks and time to say bye bye philly
Deepavali party around 11, organized by the wifes of the guys I work with..
have to start setting all the time back by an hour.
Great party with a variety of foods. Mostly north Indian flavor. Had puri after a very long time. :)
Took a bottle of costly Whisky. only half the bottle was finished.
Then the guys started playing Cards. And I decided to stay off as its not something I am into. I am more an outdoorsy guy.
got back home around 7pm which was like 8pm yesterday. It was dark outside by 5:30pm.
Another few weeks and time to say bye bye philly
Nov 6. beautiful hike, fall colors
Satruday Nov 6 2010
woke up late went about doing stuff and then went off on the Hike, close to house. It was a bit on the colder side, but a great hike in a neighborhood I have never been.
woke up late went about doing stuff and then went off on the Hike, close to house. It was a bit on the colder side, but a great hike in a neighborhood I have never been.
Friday, November 5, 2010
Nov 5, Deepavali Sad day for Dravidians
Friday, Nov 5 2010
Deepavali celebrated by in the north of India with great flair and pomp, marking the victory of the Aryan prince Rama over the GREAT Dravidian king Ravana.
And as usual as the legacy of Aryans and their history goes:
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Deepavali a SAD day for the Aboriginal population (Dravidian) of present day India
Its such a sad day for the Real/original people of the land,, that their Great King Ravana was killed by Deceit :((
By the people of European origin ( Aryans, light skinned, thin-snake lipped people), who as their legacy goes, always migrate from their COLD Countries to warmer countries like present day USA, Africa, India and then suppress the local population.
Branding them the local aboriginal population as Evil, uncivilized, Blood thirsty cannibals, and,,,,, the stories continue as History repeats itself... :,) so sad...
The only state in India that even celebrates a Dravidian legacy is Kerala, with its tradition of Onam and the belief that their Great King "Maha - Bali" visits them during the celebrations (who again was cheated and deceived by Aryans)
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Ended up having one of my best salsa in philly. Danced bachata and merenugue with Kate. After the merengue she said that it was the best dance she ever had. And I had the best bachata after about an year.
Getting back into the groove. Hope the next job the salsa clubs are close by or I get hitched soon.
Again ended up meeting an italian gal, all my walls went up and then suddenly she wanted to know my age and was getting too personal in her question. I had to avoid giving her a straight answer and then politely moved away.
Deepavali celebrated by in the north of India with great flair and pomp, marking the victory of the Aryan prince Rama over the GREAT Dravidian king Ravana.
And as usual as the legacy of Aryans and their history goes:
****************************************
Deepavali a SAD day for the Aboriginal population (Dravidian) of present day India
Its such a sad day for the Real/original people of the land,, that their Great King Ravana was killed by Deceit :((
By the people of European origin ( Aryans, light skinned, thin-snake lipped people), who as their legacy goes, always migrate from their COLD Countries to warmer countries like present day USA, Africa, India and then suppress the local population.
Branding them the local aboriginal population as Evil, uncivilized, Blood thirsty cannibals, and,,,,, the stories continue as History repeats itself... :,) so sad...
The only state in India that even celebrates a Dravidian legacy is Kerala, with its tradition of Onam and the belief that their Great King "Maha - Bali" visits them during the celebrations (who again was cheated and deceived by Aryans)
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Ended up having one of my best salsa in philly. Danced bachata and merenugue with Kate. After the merengue she said that it was the best dance she ever had. And I had the best bachata after about an year.
Getting back into the groove. Hope the next job the salsa clubs are close by or I get hitched soon.
Again ended up meeting an italian gal, all my walls went up and then suddenly she wanted to know my age and was getting too personal in her question. I had to avoid giving her a straight answer and then politely moved away.
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Nov 04, hahaha Contrast weather
Thursday, Nov 4
hahahaha,, could not help but laugh at the contrast in weather of yesterday and today. Rainning all over and it feels like one of those days in Vancouver. Well atleast its warmer.
Was not motivated to getup from bed thou I woke up around 5am. tossing and turning, falling asleep for sometime, then waking up with some kind of weird dream of people from the past and some faces I have never seen before. Good dreams to medium good ones.
Pulled myself out of bed around 7:30am hahaha thats another contradiction, used to be at work by 7am.
Or is my body trying to pre-adjust to the daylight saving time coming. guess next week it would be appropriate.
Reached work after a good shower in the warm water, strong expresso coffee with lots of milk, low sugar(ah a take away habit from spain), cereals in coffee. hehehe so that I don't have to put in milk.
Trying to motivate myself to do the management program of virtual secessions so that I could go for PMP. Don't feel that I am young and fast thinking enough to compete technically with the new breed of highly compititive kids in the work force anymore.
Its sad to know that about 40 to 50 percent of the people who were working in the NB call center are been laid off. And all the people who were working on the 1st floor are getting moved to the 2nd floor.
Afternoon did my first WFH. And suddenly every one is sending me emails with something. I got more work emails in this one afternoon that the whole month.
anyways helped dpu with his resume and hope he gets thru into my company. His english seems to have improved a lot.
hahahaha,, could not help but laugh at the contrast in weather of yesterday and today. Rainning all over and it feels like one of those days in Vancouver. Well atleast its warmer.
Was not motivated to getup from bed thou I woke up around 5am. tossing and turning, falling asleep for sometime, then waking up with some kind of weird dream of people from the past and some faces I have never seen before. Good dreams to medium good ones.
Pulled myself out of bed around 7:30am hahaha thats another contradiction, used to be at work by 7am.
Or is my body trying to pre-adjust to the daylight saving time coming. guess next week it would be appropriate.
Reached work after a good shower in the warm water, strong expresso coffee with lots of milk, low sugar(ah a take away habit from spain), cereals in coffee. hehehe so that I don't have to put in milk.
Trying to motivate myself to do the management program of virtual secessions so that I could go for PMP. Don't feel that I am young and fast thinking enough to compete technically with the new breed of highly compititive kids in the work force anymore.
Its sad to know that about 40 to 50 percent of the people who were working in the NB call center are been laid off. And all the people who were working on the 1st floor are getting moved to the 2nd floor.
Afternoon did my first WFH. And suddenly every one is sending me emails with something. I got more work emails in this one afternoon that the whole month.
anyways helped dpu with his resume and hope he gets thru into my company. His english seems to have improved a lot.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Nov 03 , beautiful Wednesday
Wednesday Nov 03 2010
The skyline outside looks invitingly beautiful, signs of another wonderful day. Felt sick yesterday by evening and hence passed out on the couch. woke up around 2 and went to bed. So ended up skipping dinner that I had put to heat up in the microwave. Only realized that in the morning. Well will have the meat curry with rice for todays lunch.... turned out too spicy for my un-challenged stomach. So watering it down to make it mildly spicy.
Got to wrk by 8:20am,, sliding down with the sun rise happening around 7am. well feels much better than the rainny gloomy Vancouver weather for sure with briht skies. Not liking having to scrub off the layer of ice on the wind shield of my car every morning.
Hope I get to a warmer place after this in 2 months.
Did the test on T5 for dt...
The skyline outside looks invitingly beautiful, signs of another wonderful day. Felt sick yesterday by evening and hence passed out on the couch. woke up around 2 and went to bed. So ended up skipping dinner that I had put to heat up in the microwave. Only realized that in the morning. Well will have the meat curry with rice for todays lunch.... turned out too spicy for my un-challenged stomach. So watering it down to make it mildly spicy.
Got to wrk by 8:20am,, sliding down with the sun rise happening around 7am. well feels much better than the rainny gloomy Vancouver weather for sure with briht skies. Not liking having to scrub off the layer of ice on the wind shield of my car every morning.
Hope I get to a warmer place after this in 2 months.
Did the test on T5 for dt...
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Nov 2, low motivation
Tuesday, Nov 02 2010 (11-02-2010)
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Another days of 2s, 1s and 0s. not much motivated to go to work. hmmmm lets see got a couple of test to run. send out emails. and thats it.
maybe try to get some PMP done... ahhhhh that feels good. Purpose in life is a good driving factor.
Tested for dt code good. sent out msg. now need to do the Sop , funny how people seem to be more into twisting things than following standards. Well atleast I am not going to be here for long..... wishing the days would go faster and then I would be out of this place. Keeping fingers crossed with hopes of getting job in Dallas..... it would be awesome there with ani.
back to work after curd-rice lunch.
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Another days of 2s, 1s and 0s. not much motivated to go to work. hmmmm lets see got a couple of test to run. send out emails. and thats it.
maybe try to get some PMP done... ahhhhh that feels good. Purpose in life is a good driving factor.
Tested for dt code good. sent out msg. now need to do the Sop , funny how people seem to be more into twisting things than following standards. Well atleast I am not going to be here for long..... wishing the days would go faster and then I would be out of this place. Keeping fingers crossed with hopes of getting job in Dallas..... it would be awesome there with ani.
back to work after curd-rice lunch.
Monday, November 1, 2010
Nov 1, 60 days to new year
Monday 1st of Nov 2010
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Start of week, month... got some tough meetings up today. Its like everyone seems to have invited everyone for the meeting I set up. Ahhh I hate to be in the middle of the stage. Stage fright has been my greatest weakness. Afraid of attention. Afraid that something bad will happen and always to me.
Other people seem so at ease and seem to want attention more and more. But not me. I just shy away from it. But don't mind loving attention from one person at a time. But that does not seem to happen too often as I wish. :) hehehe lifes sweet twist and turns.
off to work.
Was thinking about k who I saw yesterday on the hike. She seems to have such a sincere and honest looking face. And also a wall around her. Felt like reaching out to her and was wondering how it would be to be in love with someone like that. Seems to be very educated with a degree or a masters from the mid-west.
Next time gonna ask her out and see how it goes. Just that I don't get to meet her frequently.
was thinking about Sara too, but looks like she does not feel the same intensity as i do.
Feeling much good and better about myself after getting to the root cause of the problem that was troubing the Mok application. With all the fingers getting pointed towards the code I developed. It feels good to know that the issues or root cause of the issues is else where.
Thanks to the extra effort that i had to put in over the weekend screwing up all my fun and enjoyment. But the feeling I am feeling now with discovering the root cause and knowing the solution if a particular requirement needs to be met. Makes me feel much better about myself. And I am sure the bosses feel the same about me and my week end efforts. Feels nice to be unselfishily appreciated and made to feel good by people.
If only some other people who I so foolishly fell for and was hoping that they would realize how their Overly selfish actions was hurting me felt even a bit of the same gratitude towards the care and sacrifice I made to constantly make them happy..... But again they are who they are and I am who I am, and the lesson learnt is that I should have listened to my instincts when I first saw their self-centered attitude and JUST WALKED AWAY.
And its not worth all the effort, pain, constant Stress, heart break, been taken for granted and kicked around as thou nothing about me and my thoughts, my feelings mattered. Even if the feeling of love was overwhelming.
Its just not worth the effort to try to communicate with someone who has a closed mind about their own actions and self. That is I am too perfect to be corrected. And I don't want to analyze my past actions..... Some people just go bull dozing into the future without trying to learn from their past.
The sad part is, it takes some time and getting to see some of their behavior and a few attempts before we can convince ourself that its a lost cause And most of all that its not our fault that they are who they are.
Euphoric feeling after having got to the root cause of the issue and knowing that its got nothing to do with my code.
And other feather with after organizing the meeting between all the screwed up political game players in the company..... wish and hope i do not have to do those kind of things again and keep away from such people.
back home around 6:30 called up venkat to see if he is there. left msg.
trying to decide if I should go to my fav salsa place on monday. or with the sub zero temp today, should I just stay home as most of the people in Philly have had been to the salsa festival that was happening during the weekend and must be resting it out.,,,?????
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Start of week, month... got some tough meetings up today. Its like everyone seems to have invited everyone for the meeting I set up. Ahhh I hate to be in the middle of the stage. Stage fright has been my greatest weakness. Afraid of attention. Afraid that something bad will happen and always to me.
Other people seem so at ease and seem to want attention more and more. But not me. I just shy away from it. But don't mind loving attention from one person at a time. But that does not seem to happen too often as I wish. :) hehehe lifes sweet twist and turns.
off to work.
Was thinking about k who I saw yesterday on the hike. She seems to have such a sincere and honest looking face. And also a wall around her. Felt like reaching out to her and was wondering how it would be to be in love with someone like that. Seems to be very educated with a degree or a masters from the mid-west.
Next time gonna ask her out and see how it goes. Just that I don't get to meet her frequently.
was thinking about Sara too, but looks like she does not feel the same intensity as i do.
Feeling much good and better about myself after getting to the root cause of the problem that was troubing the Mok application. With all the fingers getting pointed towards the code I developed. It feels good to know that the issues or root cause of the issues is else where.
Thanks to the extra effort that i had to put in over the weekend screwing up all my fun and enjoyment. But the feeling I am feeling now with discovering the root cause and knowing the solution if a particular requirement needs to be met. Makes me feel much better about myself. And I am sure the bosses feel the same about me and my week end efforts. Feels nice to be unselfishily appreciated and made to feel good by people.
If only some other people who I so foolishly fell for and was hoping that they would realize how their Overly selfish actions was hurting me felt even a bit of the same gratitude towards the care and sacrifice I made to constantly make them happy..... But again they are who they are and I am who I am, and the lesson learnt is that I should have listened to my instincts when I first saw their self-centered attitude and JUST WALKED AWAY.
And its not worth all the effort, pain, constant Stress, heart break, been taken for granted and kicked around as thou nothing about me and my thoughts, my feelings mattered. Even if the feeling of love was overwhelming.
Its just not worth the effort to try to communicate with someone who has a closed mind about their own actions and self. That is I am too perfect to be corrected. And I don't want to analyze my past actions..... Some people just go bull dozing into the future without trying to learn from their past.
The sad part is, it takes some time and getting to see some of their behavior and a few attempts before we can convince ourself that its a lost cause And most of all that its not our fault that they are who they are.
Euphoric feeling after having got to the root cause of the issue and knowing that its got nothing to do with my code.
And other feather with after organizing the meeting between all the screwed up political game players in the company..... wish and hope i do not have to do those kind of things again and keep away from such people.
back home around 6:30 called up venkat to see if he is there. left msg.
trying to decide if I should go to my fav salsa place on monday. or with the sub zero temp today, should I just stay home as most of the people in Philly have had been to the salsa festival that was happening during the weekend and must be resting it out.,,,?????
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