Tired and sick of selfish, self centered, unfaithful and disloyal people.
Is it really my own problem or am I always attracting these kind of people?
Every time I think, hopefully this time.... but only to end up with these crooked people playing their own crooked games and assume that I am some kind of dumb arse who does not know or can comprehend peoples pattern of actions.
True Honesty and loyalty is so hard to come by. Guess its because they are not honest with themselves.
Or is it because I am too sincere and am open to others questioning me and am openly honest enough to test and question my actions and thoughts no matter how un-comfortable it is to face.
Is that why I am confused at times and not able to understand why do other people find it so difficult and not wanting to face question about their actions and thoughts?
Or
is it that I am falling for women when they are not ready for a loving two way relationship and only want to feel loved by anyone (in this case me) and then after a bit of time they start feeling a new level of self-worth and then suddenly they find that their value in the market is much more higher and that there are other option(s) open.
The other option(s) open is a very powerful feeling of Power, especially when the women is been pursued by many desperate men (desperate for what ever their primary needs at that moment are), who would go to the lengths of sweet talking them and seducing them with promises of marriage and then,,,,,,bye,bye or sorry "I cannot go against my parents wishes", or "sorry my life is taking a different turn and I have to move to another country" or .. whatever the host of players use these days.
But again this feeling of Power is something I keep seeing happening to many women and after that they are all about taking me for granted and dumping me...... And me like a fool have been hanging and hoping on that hopefully soon she will really fall in love with me or there is something thats stopping her from expressing..... (that is probably my mistake) for having letting my guard down and becoming susceptible again and again to these emotionally killing one sided love relationships.
Just got a phone call saying that I won tickets to the Olympic Womens Hockey game for tomorrow the Feb-25-2010 will continue on returning....
OR
Maybe they are all just been with me because they just want to be known to be in a relationship and tell their family and friends, 'oh I have a nice boy friend'. But are they in love with me????? I guess not.
But is it fair for them to having a relationship with me and expecting me to love them un-conditionally when they are not in love with me?
Nope..... life is not fair, SO I guess I have to suck it up and move on, thou it feels like been punched in the stomach senseless and my legs are virtually giving away not able to stand.
Or
Maybe I should also be like many other guys, just play the game, have sex and not have any emotional attachment to the bitches. That way at least I won't feel this hurt for been treated as a stepping stone.
But there in lies the funny part, I don't feel like doing it with someone I do not have connection and loving feelings.
I am really feeling sick....
